we're drifting further apart,
it just hurts my heart.
i couldnt do anything,
i could only stand there and watch.
im suffering,
so are my grades.
where are you.
i've missed the old you so much.
maybe i should just stand aside,
or i should tell you whats wrong.
you'll nvr understand,
how sad i am.
fake smiles during the day,
tears for you at night.
u nvr knew.
and you'll nvr noe
how much i love you.

when i try to be nice,
all i get is SHUTUP.
i have lost interest in living,
there's no point carrying on anymore.
i try to be nice to my frens,
but they hate me more.
the day on sch misson,
they asked wht u wanted to give up.
the first thing that came into my mind,
this sucky life of mine which i cant get anything right.
i havent felt so depressed since lst yr.
it's a horrendous feeling,
watching everyone smiling with frens
just pain me more.
i had enough, enough of everything.
dont force urself to say
you like me if you dont.
i despise hypocrites.

im sure i was nvr a psrt of you.
yes, i accused you, but you denied.
im sure it happened anyways.
im sorry if i was mistaken then.
no matter or the good or bad.
the word DEATH.
it really scares me to death.
im afraid of it, im afraid of pain,
but i'd rather not face reality.
the future.
couples zivorcing each other.
after they marry each other,
things start to go wrong.
its hard to find someone so loyal, so faithful.
if u manage to find someone like that,
its one in a million.
i THINK my dad's cheating on me mom.
no, he doesnt have a mistress.
if he does, i'll hate him forever.
its something else.
i'd rather shut up about it than
have a brokened family.
my bro's followed his footsteps.
they think i dont noe,
but i do.
its hard to find someone who
doesnt watch all these obsence videos.
i noe he doesnt watch it,
i trust him.
but there's no guarantee that
he wouldnt start craving for more
after marrying.
you'll nvr noe.

came hm with a splitting headache. still abit mad him though,
but i still love him so =)

im living in doubt every moment of my life.
she said i forced glynis to go hm with me last yr.
tats nt true.
glynis cld go hm tt way too.
pls dont talk rubbish if u're nt sure wat's it about.





maybe i'd rather be happy than to be in a relationship.

i just discovered something which i shouldnt noe..

it hurts to find out that someone you love is doing something behind ur back..

i <3>
got back chi spelling today. super disappointed.

im only posting cuz of POPULAR demand =DDDDDDD oh well. glynis did you like ur present? its soooooooooooo prettaye. oh well i just liked the present that i gave to yihan it was SOO cute =) ahahas. well i just read glynis's blog and i totally agree with her. hahas. ytd during pe we were busy gossiping about her. i forgot to bring hr present today again. compared to her stupid chocolates my present is still more ex then hers =) serve her right then.

didnt go to sch today. now i noe who are those real frens and fake frens.

this world's full of rubbish, i wish i was gone.

i HATE those kinda ppl sucking up to someone. dying to join them. she doesnt even fit in lars. i really have no idea whats happening to the class. chaos everywhere. sigh.