Saturday, December 24, 2005


Tuesday, December 20, 2005


Monday, December 19, 2005

went to tampines mall today. brought my granma to toilet which really pissed me off. she ENJOYS taking her teeth out to wash. esp in the public. grrrr.

Sunday, December 11, 2005

i'll be going to malaysia =) wont be coming back till next sunday or monday. tah.

Saturday, December 03, 2005

went to lan with my bro today. after tt den went to st micheal's church. grandfather's anniversary. i think. during mass i had a very bad headache. i couldnt keep my eyes open! hehs. after tt went to have dinner. the whole family of cuz. plus cousins. den lyn was extremly angry. cuz the person who poured her tea spill until her table. see her angry i also scared sia. hahas.

Friday, December 02, 2005

i wnt to no.1 costume costume today. there were loads of ppl!! omg. just read cher's blog. she says shes coming back on the 12th!! what about the party?? ooohnnoooo i have to pay extra for cancelling the rental! omg. my parents gonna kill me! i gonna die... oh shit.. how to contact her.!!??

Wednesday, November 30, 2005

mom's bday today. wnt to heartland mall to eat at the hongkong stall. lst time was burger king. while walking there i saw yihan! but i couldnt stop to talk to her. my parents were way ahead of me =) den later when i sit down i happened to look straight. NIGEL LO! i was like aHHHHHHHHHh DON LOOK HERE! i used the menu to cover my face. lols. but later no choice to look up. if not very awkward. hahas. den he happen to saw me too. den just wave xD den after they gone... got a guy who took nigel's place looked alot of micheal! i wasnt sure whether it was him anot... but he looked shocked when he saw me.. maybe yes maybe no =X oh well my mom's fren came to join us for lunch. blahblah after eating wnt shopping. couldnt find anything nice! den home and sleep.. AHHH heavenly! my mom bought back a small chocolate cake. i give it 2.5/5. not tt delicious. zzzz

Friday, November 18, 2005

i wnt to ps ytd with glynis. i almost freaked out! i couldnt find my wallet and blABLAH. finally found it... good thing i wasnt late! we arrived at the same time ha :) den we waited for camilla and tze jie to watch hairy pottah. while waiting for cam, we went to spotlight. glynis was complaining SOOO much. arghh. i wanted to find hats but there were only those flat kinds! i need tall pointed ones. for cher's dress party. i didnt manage to look finish cuz glynis was extremly noisy. the movie really SUCKED. cut off SOOO many parts. zzzz.

Tuesday, November 15, 2005

wnt shopping with my parents today. bought a black dress for cher's fancy dress party. its preeeeetty =)

Wednesday, November 09, 2005

AHHH now SO many guys in my class have BLOGS! omfg. just linked them. minghui's blog lags like shit so i dont recommend you to go =)

Friday, November 04, 2005

i scalded my hand! damn that soup...

Friday, October 28, 2005

today after sch wnt to hougang mall with glynis. it was sorta boooring. sian.

Monday, October 24, 2005

sch holis are such a BORE. im gonna die when dec holi comes.



Friday, October 21, 2005

chinese first lesson! i was playing dai ti with wynne alvin and eugene. we were playing under the table! haha damn xin ku lars. den after tt supposed to be mariah goh's lesson but our maths tcr took over her lesson and taught us statistic. i love the stem and leave thingy. after reccess she came back to teach again. den lce. damn boooooring. zzzzzzzzz......

Thursday, October 20, 2005


OMG. i went to east coast to have dinner ytd. me and my bro wnt to the beach and played for awhile. wen i came home i called wynne. she told me what mehmeh said. the tears just came. im so tired. so tired of everything. i regretted writing that on the sand. dont ask me what i wrote, im not gonna say. im just waiting for the hige tide to wash it away.

PFF. today damn sian. today chinese lesson wnt out to play. den the chinese tcr asked our names frm chee sheng. im damnpissed with her she's a total bullshit. got back my dnt results! a2! omfg- i cant believe it man! i got 3 a2s now! and one of them is chinese = =!!! oh well. i'm glad that they had a new start. what about us? i dont think its possible anymore........


Tuesday, October 18, 2005

pff. got back results today. i almost failed my geog, 50! HAHA. expected man! science also almost fail. i can't believe my chinese got 71.8*tts the overall*! must thank alvin for that =P some help. yeah.

i wan my nyny back. missed him like hell. i jsut didn noe hw to tell.

Sunday, October 16, 2005

aft my yamaha lessons wnt to suntec with mom and bro. oh my GAWD. remind me NVR to go there again, cuz all we saw was CHAN BROTHERS*travel agency*. i got very pissed with my mom. den there was this really CUTE kolar bear and kangaroo. hahas. my mom wanted to go canada for a looong time. 6 mths. den when we went down to buy drinks there was this adult shouting at a teenage guy. my mom said it was about some boyfren thing =

<33 panda =)

Saturday, October 15, 2005

finally the exams are over! time to relax. haha.

Wednesday, October 12, 2005

you suck.
you really suck.
i hate you.
fkin hypocrite.
you noe who u are.

Tuesday, October 11, 2005

problems. problems. problems.

Wednesday, October 05, 2005

i saw eunice and mingjing today. mingjing kinda smiled at me but eunice sort of well... dao me... i noe i noe! *btw she's e band major* im SO guilty that i quitted band =( infact i miss afiqa! haiz...

Monday, October 03, 2005


p.s if u decode e msg pls tell me!

Sunday, October 02, 2005

i havent been updating for a looooong time! hahas.
i went to hougang mall just now.
got a cute lil kid singing mr loney.

Wednesday, September 21, 2005

i went home with glynis and dingqi.
we sat 136 and there was
small guy.
he kept on singing
barney's song!
we were like singing with him.

Monday, September 19, 2005

if she's a hypocrite,
i wonder what does she even bother
about me when she noes about that st. gab

Thursday, September 15, 2005

today after school went to
cine with some ppl.
chuan hui.camilla.sandy.darren.eugene.tzejie.
went to watch BROTHER'S GRIMM.
loved it.
although i got shock plenty of times
darren paid for our lunch and taxi fares.
aint that good?

Wednesday, September 14, 2005

goodness. today so DAMN boring.
wad a pity ms tong came today.
if not haf free period le.

Friday, September 09, 2005

SHOPPING! i went to suntec today.
went to watch wcg with my bro.
so sian.
i cant understand a crappy thing cept for cs T_T den my mom called me up to the 6th floor.
all air tickets stuffs.
SO boring.
my legs almost break.
den lata went to queue for some kinda calcium test thingy.
my mom was fine. she was SO relieved hahas.
den went to carefour. bought a tank top. wanted to buy a berms too. but all v dirty. if nt size too big. so my parents gonna bring me somewhere else to buy. hahahas.
just came home. so slpy.

Thursday, September 08, 2005


Wednesday, August 31, 2005

the performance today was so-so lah. and i was like WTF when i saw ryan performing. sometimes i kinda regret. but today i REALLY regretted. =\ after the performances the whole bunch of us*i cant rmb who! wad do u expect from a girl who has extremly bad memory?* went back to pri sch. onli knew ms ng. den we walked past some classes. UNFORTUNATELY, we walked past mr lee's class and he asked us to wait in the canteen. his class pupils asked us to siam! and they were only pri 1! den we walked past 6r3 and they also scolded us! i was so DAMN angry! hahhas. den lata alvin's father fetched us back to sch. den had digital art. mr nicholas said our work was good!! all done by me. lols. cuz i wanna do. glynis just sat there and WATCH. i didnt really mind cuz its a piece of cake for me! xD after that we went back to pri sch AGAIN. i saw ms chan! omg i regretted how i treat her last time. she was so happy when she saw me! heh heh xD

Tuesday, August 30, 2005

today after sch me, glynis, sandy, alvin, benjamin, zuoying and hock hock(HAHAHAHA) went back to pri sch. THANKS TO THE DIGITAL ART TMR. @%#&$@%!#$ lols. saw ms ng and ms gan AHHH. even saw my pri 3 or 4 cme teacher. SHE RMB ME!!! i dont even rmb her lols. the teachers all noe me! hahas. went to eat hokkien mee. PRI SCH IS DA BEST! i nvr get to eat laksa. cuz we sneaked into the sch. wahahas. kunzi told me tt MR NG (the teacher which i DETEST most!) went on a SLIMMING SESSION. I WAS LIKE WTF. when i saw him today he looked as FAT as EVER! HAHAHAHAHA he can NVR SLIM DOWN xD
after meeting all e teachers we went to the chinese corner and started to play prank calls! BLEAHS. on nicole and zhe yue. SO funny. i couldnt stop laughing!

Sunday, August 28, 2005


Saturday, August 27, 2005

i thought bout him.
it was fine.
until ytd.
he was telling me bout mat and his stead.
ah wells.
i wonder how can she be so brave
when i always freak out when i see his frens.
i was considering a yes.
but something held me back.
it might be a no.
if u're reading this,
it isnt ur fault.
cause i haf a feeling that i'll be the one breaking with you.
i dont wanna hurt you.
i thought bout band.
very stressed.
felt like quiting.
von told me that it wasnt easy.
i am so. so. so.
by looking at my seniors play,
thats it.
its the end of me.
i rather quit den fail my music test.
i noe i will pass my theory.
it wont be easy for practical.
i will regret my whole life.
that i quit band.

was the first word which came into my mind.


Thursday, August 25, 2005

i found a packet of cigarettes in the house.
if its my parents...
i hate them forever.
and ever.

Tuesday, August 23, 2005

SONG BO! got back our maths test today... for the first test i got FULL marks! xD but it was a retest. only change questions. lol. second test i got 31/40. lose to hock hock and alvin! aiya.. after sch me and glynis went to compass point to eat. we went to popular! I FOUND THE BLACK BOOK! but i didnt buy it cause i need to go to the toilet urgently... HAHAHA.


Monday, August 22, 2005

WALAO. today pe damn bloody one lor. me eli glynis and zuoying WALKED for the 2.4. den by the time we finished 2 rounds... the teacher told us that next week we had to RERUN. WTF. but he still asked us to run the last round. damn ass la waao..

Saturday, August 20, 2005

just went to see doctor.. so sian...
ytd had family dinner..
had gifts from ruth from eygypt and spain!
its a perfume. i don use perfumes. haha.

Wednesday, August 17, 2005

haiz. today so sian. finally get to insult kristle. me and glynis called a a bitch and slut. HAHAHAHA.

Monday, August 08, 2005

HAH. today the parade so booooring. zzz.
after that went to orchard with cher.
so damn tired.

Sunday, August 07, 2005


Monday, August 01, 2005

aha. i was sick today. very sick. i bet i cant talk tmr.

Wednesday, July 27, 2005

got caught for not singin anthem and sch song.
also no name tag.
l0st my aqualip pen which i bought this morning.
got scolding frm mr toh.
i br0ke down in class.
they are all leaving me.
one by one.
i swear im gonna have my revenge one day.
you just wait.
i tried to make a scar
on my wrists.
i will try.
until it succeeds.

Tuesday, July 26, 2005


Monday, July 25, 2005

had band today.
i feel like giving up.
i really do.
im sick of everyone
no one really cared.
they just treat
me invisible.
stop all the acting.
if you cant stand me den say it
i wont ever bother to disturb u again.

Sunday, July 24, 2005

had BAND today. rawkk biggie! me von and rowen sat taxi to sch cuz we thought that we were late. but in the end we were the first few! ahahas. den band started and blah blah. me and some ppl i forgot who sat ms lini's car to edgefield pri sch. cuz it was raining. hahahs. den we went for the dry walk.. sian... den after that we went to the canteen for some light lunch. den we started twisting balloons. heh heh. i was pretty afrid so i asked yvonne to help me to do. haha pro hors. after twisting the balloon we went for the parade. it rocked! band rawks forever. hahas. den we walked back to school. assembled in music room. den went home. von's dad fetch me! hahas. so kind. thats it!

Wednesday, July 20, 2005

lost. inside.

Sunday, July 17, 2005

went shopping today. bought 2 skirts and a tank top. hahas.

Wednesday, July 13, 2005

today had band... haf to stand the whole day... now my hand whole the horn also the skin come out liaos... haiss..

i really DONT noe wad to do.

Friday, July 08, 2005

wtf. today step into call den chee hock showed me a sms. it was from kristle's BF. myass lor. that guy sure haf no taste. the whole class saying arhh. lazy to type more.. anyways...had band today.. it wasnt so bad... wasnt as bad as i expected.. amazingly i could blow out a b and c... i love it. i really do.


Wednesday, July 06, 2005

tired, exhausted, stressed.
you stepped out of my life. i lost everything. im hopeless. i dont know what to do.

Monday, June 20, 2005

IM BACK.yay!okayokay. time to update. only rmb some of the stuff. cant blame me. too tired to note down. heeees =)
day 1.
reached to airport at 9 plus.when me n my mom went to the boarding area, there was free internet access! but both coms are taken. pity pity. after we boarded the plane, the stewardess served me lunch first cuz im a CHILD ^-^. it was the first time i ever finished my lunch in the plane. haha. cept the mushroom of cuz. arrived chengdu at 4+. met our guide and blah blah. went to have dinner at 6+. it was HORRIBLE. everyone at the table was complaining. den lata we went to the hotel. we slept in the villa*cuz there were not enough rooms.the rest slept normal rooms.wahahaha. it costed 9999rmb per night actually. but the guide settled everything cuz we already paid the money. in singapore.
end of day 1.
okayys i cant rmb where we went for the rest of the days.but anyways. i'll update what i rmb. we went to see many lakes in the mountains and obviously the scenary was breathtaking. i rmb there was one day when we sat in the coach for about 12 hours. yeahh. but the hotel was VERY VERY VERY nice. 5star i suppose. we den went to watch a show. oh yeah the hotel is VERY big and haf alot of diff buidlings. the show was pretty nice. another day we went to see a show that a person's mask can change even before u blink ur eye. it was fascinating!den one day we went to look at the pandas. yeah it STINKED but was so damn cute! they're so lazy. hahaha. bought 2 cute pandas. oh yes! forgot to say that the tour was spilt into 3 groups, a , b and c. im in b. the last 2 days we went shopping. haha. bought a pink and black shoe and an adidas shoe. but obviously fake. not very nice either. the trip wasnt very memorable... there were to accidents that nearly caused a person's life...
first accident.
there was this day when we had to sit another bus to go up the hill. half of bus B ppl had to go to another bus.i didnt change to that other bus. the whole group C ppl came over. * 22 of them. the whole family. okay. im skipping this part. when we finished lunch, i heard that the old man from my group, *he's also sitting in the same bus as me. fell down the stairs and our tuor guide sent him to the hospital. i dunno how's he now but everyone loved him. he loves to joke. den after we came down from the mountain, the C group went away first. they left the half of group B there, lost. i was there too. the C group tour guide didnt seem to care bout us even though our coach was gone until dunno where. den quarrel loh. everyone hated her. den our coach came to pick us up. the other half like what the heck is going on??*i'll continue later, revenge is SWEET.the next day our tour guide told us that the old man's knee bone went the other way round. he was sent back to singapore immediately. never heard of him again. but hopefully he's fine. another day we went to spa. i couldnt swim or anything, sadd. girls shlod noe why. hoho. this hotel is VERY nice too. made of glass. oh yes. bout the revenge. the C group consist of a whole family, 22 ppl. den the last forth day the C group ppl quarrelled with their tour guide. **the girl who doesnt care bout us. cuz their rooms are not on the same level. yeahh. i heard that she was fired and they changed tour guide. hahaha! yayy...
second accident.
we were leaving chengdu... in the aeroplane.. i slept... den around 3plus am i was awokened by the announcement of the air stewardess... someone needed a doctor... lack of oxygen.. that person was from my group.. the 6 family ppl... had 2 boys...i tot it was the fatter one.. but i was wrong... i didnt believed it until the man who was sitting behind me came to tell me that it was the taller guy...i was speechless... he was a good guy... never seen him complaining bout anything... always laughing...quite handsome too... but before the man behind me came back i heard his mother screaming his name twice... i already knew his name but i still didnt believe.. i saw his mother praying...about 3 to 4 ppl were surrounding him so i couldnt get a clear view... i was speechless... i cant do anything... den i look around me and saw that everyone was praying... those font feww seats were ppl from my bus... he was in row 6 and i was in row 3... i started praying too... i think his mother screamed cuz he closed his eyes... i suddenly felt like crying... but he was fine after sometime... i overheard that he had an asthma attck... den i rmbed that he had help to load the first few luggages for checking... alot of ppl though of that too... but good thing he was fine... but he look so exhausted... i was so worried that i had no appetite to eat the food that the stewardess served us.. i kept turning around to make sure he was fine of cuz.. our eyes met most of the time but i was the one who turned away first.. when the plane landed alot of ppl was blocking my view so i thought i'll meet him again at the luggage so i took my stuff and leave first. at the customs i still didnt see him... after i took my luggage and said goodbye to some ppl i didnt see him either... after i got ready to go in the car i still didnt see him... after i left the airport i still didnt see him... jus wanted to tell him to tk care... den one of the teachers * there were 6 teachers on the tour. * told me that he saw the boy on a wheelchair... hopefully he is fine by now... hopefully....

Friday, June 10, 2005

going to china tmr...gonna miss everyone...gone for 9 days... ahh...gonna miss my com the most... tats it...gone...outta here...2 songs to express what i am now..

Everybody's got something they had to leave behind
One regret from yesterday that just seems to grow with time
There's no use looking back or wondering
How it could be now or might have been
Oh this I know but still I can't find ways to let you go

I've never had a dream come true
Till the day that I found you
Even though I pretend that I've moved on
You'll always be my baby
I never found the words to say
You're the one I think about each day
And I know no matter where life takes me to
A part of me will always be with you

Somewhere in my memory
I've lost all sense of time
and tomorrow can never be cos yesterday is all that fills my mind
There's no use looking back or wondering
How it could be now or might have been
Oh this I know but still I can't find ways to let you go

You'll always be the dream that fills my head
Yes you will, say you will, you know you will
Oh baby, you'll always be the one I know I'll never forget
There's no use looking back or wondering
Because love is a strange and funny thing
No matter how I try and try I just can't say goodbye
No no no no
never had a dream come true - s club 7

Empty spaces fill me up with holes
Distant faces with no place left to go
Without you within me I can’t find no rest
Where I’m going is anybody’s guess

I’ve tried to go on like I never knew you
I’m awake but my world is half asleep
I pray for this heart to be unbroken
But with out you all I’m going to be is incomplete

Voices tell me I should carry on
But I am swimming in an ocean all alone
Baby, my babyIt’s written on your face
You still wonder if we made a big mistake

I don’t mean to drag it on, but I can’t seem to let you go
I don’t want to make you face this world alone
I want to let you go


incomplete - backstreet boys
ahaha. this morning had band meeting. our section was supposed to come up with a performance. so we had to discuss. den we wanted to have eating competition.belly button competition den also have burp to make songs. also haf telling ghost stories.and finally we decided on a puppet show. maybe its about ghost stories. it'll be funny though. hahaha. leaving for china tmr! gonna miss everyone x]

Thursday, June 02, 2005

going to china on the 11.
gonna miss my frens.
gonna miss my com!


Monday, May 30, 2005

went out with cher and amanda today...
it was okay..
onli spent my money on FOOD
and nps.

if onli i could turn back time.
and took back all the things i said.

Saturday, May 28, 2005

listening to tonghua (:
almost cried when i first heard it.

Friday, May 27, 2005

tuesday and wed i went to sch at 8 at archery (: it was sooooo fun! im gonna miss it soooo badly ): im considering to sign up for the archery course though! today got back the report books. i got 11 in class! arghh so lan. i even lost to kunzi! boos ` she was also surprised when i told her my position. but i won wynne! hahaha.

Wednesday, May 25, 2005

YAY. so DARN happy. my eng wasnt 70 btw. that was for ca1. oh YES. im SO happy because HE was finally off my mind. i can relax now =) i feel great. totally! awesome! ahah

Tuesday, May 24, 2005

i got back my results.
my eng overall got 70!
chinese - 60
maths - 88 *lose to chee hock... dammmmn!
science - 57.5
history - 50!
literature - 43! 8 the whole class filed except for tze

Sunday, May 22, 2005

PISSED. over him.

Saturday, May 21, 2005

i got back my results.
chi 62.
hist 50.
eng 43/80.

Thursday, May 19, 2005

when i first met yoo-
yoo painted mie world.
with colours
after sometime-
yoo took the colours away.
yoo wiped the simle
off mie face
`leave mie alone
lyfe is NOT the same
without yoo.
dont leave mie
on such a breakable thread.
my lyfe screwdd upp
the moment yoo
stepped out of
mie lyfe.
yoo just SHUT THE DOOR;;
like yoo did before -*
i prayed.
for yoo.
onli yoo.
few days ago i went to maeryl's house.
she cut my hair.
den today i went to marie's house.
it was lots of fun =))
screwdd upp.

Monday, May 16, 2005

today's paper was english and maths. it was a PIECE OF CAKE. wahaha. and the english's setter was MS TEO. when the class saw that we were like WTF! everyone was complaining... before we started our tcr in charge let us read the question xD and the maths paper was set by mr choo. PIECE OF CAKE. i was confident of ALOT of ans. but my frens all do until SO CHIM. alot all quarrel of the ans...haha

Saturday, May 14, 2005

im willing to be.
the angel you love.
yed was friday the 13.
luckily nothing happened to me.
operation nicholas.
commencing soon!

Thursday, May 12, 2005

you left mie standing
alone in a corner.
i couldnt do anything
but watched helplessly,
watching you make
bigger mistakes.
i cr ii ed.
she dedd te arrs.
bcuz of youu.
i prayy for youu
every n ii te
withou tt youu know iing.
don`t leave m ii e
i need youu.

Sunday, May 08, 2005

remind me nvr to go to jack's place again! my dad forced me to eat carrots! eeeeeeyuck. BLEAHHS. i hated it. today's my bday but i didnt haf much fun. haiz. thats it..

Friday, May 06, 2005

this is the day which
i will stop
loving yoo.
i never expected
this but i
had to let yoo go.
i shall wait,
until the 29 may
about ur words
but i'm sure
it'll hurt
cuz there's no such
thing as an
everlasting love.
i'll be waiting.

Sunday, May 01, 2005

i cut my hair yesterday =) but it looks like nvr cut at all. hahas. $20 leh. he was good he helped me to straighten my hair. wahahaha. but it's wearing off now. bOOs ` after that me and my mom we went to eat. it was yum yum! my bro stayed at mac cuz he wanna see the perfect 10 dares you to. me and my mom went there at 2.30. the dares were really funny! haha. yupps den today sooooo boring. hais.

Friday, April 29, 2005

as usual, i came to sch with nic. didnt meet jesslyn. hais. so sad. so onli me and him walk to school... den i went to class to put my bag den we went up to his class together. he keep saying his classmates. hais. so bad! den after sku i met yvonne and we bought the jelly ice cream and walked outta sku. but we saw rowen and nic and their silly bunch of frens. den aaron asked yvonne whether i like nic anot! and i'm like WTF! but she told him that she dunno. but she actually noe! haha den alot of ppl also ask her before. we walked to the playground cuz we were waiting for rowen and nic. den we talked and played a lil. we both hated sweating. hahas. so we walked back to sku and bought another ice cream. HAHA! den we manage to avoid the table of mad guys... den lata rowen was playin basketball and nic was playin we decided to disturb nic.. call him power ranger... haha... den lata nic came towards us... ask us to pei him go to 83 bus stop... yvonne dunwan to go so she ask me to go wit nic.. -____- so i went with him.. my bag veri heavy so i walk veri slowly lah... den he pei me walk slow...den he supposed to meet his fren at 4.30 but i think he late lah.. haha.. den when i reached home my mom said wanna go swimmin... i swam 12 rounds = 1200m! this is the first time i swim so much! hahas. den lata i came home and ate my delicious dinner! =) den lata nic called.. ask me to pei him go somewher tmr.. den my parents dun allow... feel soooo bad... haiz.. his frens organize that thing bcuz of me... and in the end i didnt turn up... haizzz... den thats it for today..

Thursday, April 28, 2005

whoooooopeee! =) today i waited at e mrt...i saw jesslyn and went in. waHAHA. den we sat lrt together and looked for nic. he brought my breakfast but i already eat. hahahs. so i gave the bread to wynne! she's always starving one! hahas. today de lesson was super boring. i almost dozed off during lit and sci. those are the two most BORING lessons. mr toh's teaching is full of CRAP. jus like my bro said he's teachings are a pile of shit! haha. quite true. den today music lesson... so boring... gonna test on sch song... and i'm like WTF. cuz i dunno the lyrics of the sch song. HAHA. den after sku i went home with jemaine, marie, yihan and her frens. the SOTONG family! yep i'm the wife. WAHAHAH! den yihan's fren was spraying water on the ground and sliding arcoss the whole pathway. LOL. it looked fun! den when i reached home, yvonne called me and asked me to pei her cuz she waiting for ROWEN. den we talk for about 1hr 20 mins. lol. so short. den lata i put down the phone... den lata nic called. den talktalktalk den put down. i was half sleepin when he called! hahas. den lata i went to haf my nap. den i bathed and was playin com when nic called again. i think he was playing guitar. it sounded like a guitar. it was soooo nice! loved it.

Wednesday, April 27, 2005

okie i onli haf 5 mins to up date... ytd me and yvonne waited for rowen and nic to finish their self-study lah. 5pm lehh! den lata they come up...den we started whackin each other... haha.. me and yvonne got soaked from top to toe...but she worser lah.. den the boys went to play soccer lo... den me and yvonne dry up at the toilet... den we walked veri slowly to the soccer there... den we waited for them... until 6+... den they actually jus walk off without me... cuz i walking another way.. den i like veri angry... so rowen and yvonne called nic to come back.. pei me go bus stop... hahas.... den i go home... den today.. i supposed to meet nic at lrt there... but then... i woke up at around 6.45... hahas... so i called him told him that i'll be late lah.. den he ask em to meet him at the school canteen... but in the end we didnt.. he passed my breakfast to jesslyn... but dunno why he stil ask me to meet him leh.. den dunring lessons were so boring. i almost dozed off during he lesson. 2hrs theory! but fri the test liao. hais. mid yr comin... today after sch i stayed back for band... den got buffet... alot of sec 1s dun dare go take... den amelia help me to take... ahhas... she so kind.. den lata we went up for amg.... so sad sia... alot of ppl cry... hais... emmeline's speech was the most touching one... i really pity her... she's jus like me... all my frens from band one lor... oh yeah thats it..

Monday, April 25, 2005

today mornin i was supposed to meet nic at 6.45 but it turned out to be 7.05. heh heh. thanks to me lah. with me around anything bad can happen! whees. sch was so darn bloody boring. when i went online cher told me bout wad happen to chermaine today. hahas. so funny. serve mel and eunice right. they deserved it! thats all

i hate yoo
i detest yoo
get out of my way`
my lyfe`

Sunday, April 24, 2005

on fri after my sports day i went back to pri sch with jia hui, jia yong, elwin, eugene and pris. on the way, we bought bubble tea and the autie call elwin AH GIRL. AHAHHAAAAAAAAAa we all laughed like SIAO. i ate at pri sch. i missed the food. yummm.! and den me and pris went to find rowen and nicholas. when i reach there i onli saw nic. lols. den pris wanna go back to pri sch so we left her at the bus stop. hahas. den we walked to the next bus stop. amanda goh called me and told me tt she was comin. so we missed alot of bus jus to wait for amanda goh. ahahas. when i picked her up, i still had to open e door for her. wtf. lols. den she thought that nic was my stead and i'm like WTF. nO LOR. den lata 136 came and we went to heartland mall cuz my mom wanted to buy a watch. we left nic at e bus stop. wahahha. after we reached there we ate kfc together wit my mom and my bro. hahas. she keep talkin bout her taxi trip. cuz she chinese not good den say until veri funny. hahas. den my mom was so shocked that her chinese was so lan. hahah. den we walked around and went home. yeahhs. she's still as good as ever. den on sat me and nic went to lan. he trashed me in gb. damn it im not playing with him anymore. wahahas. or either i train hard and trash him back. hmmm. i gotta reconsider lah. so after we played lan we went to heartland mall to walk walk la... walk liao den sit mrt go to punggol...i was suppose to send him home but he send me to the 136 bus stop. he had to be home by 2.30 but i dragged time so when he reached home it was bout 2.50. hahas i think he didnt get any scolding bleahhs. den today me and yvonne met up for yamaha lesson. when we were inside there was a slight tremor and i was like woooooow first time experiencing it. i wont forget it ;p yvonne was scared. very. the reason why we felt it was mayb we were doing theory so it was veri quiet and peaceful. hahas. den after lesson we went to walk around heartland mall. den we sat down and yvonne started telling me all her problems. hais. dunno why i felt like crying. her life is jus like mine, so screwed up. den she called rowen over and we went to take neoprints. got new machine at heartland mall. they removed bout 3 of e machines. haiz. but e new machine's nice... but not veri clear. oh YEAH. nic told yvonne that i got thrashed by him in gb. gRR. ok fine. dun play with him gb liaos. hahas. when i went out with yvonne and rowen i really feel like light bulb. WAHAHA den she keep torturing me when i said that. aHEM. den yvonne started ticking rowen in popular den yvonne told me that he was scared of tickles. den we gang up and started tickling him. ahahah den lata he tockled us and we chased him all over heartland mall. hoho. so fun. den lata after a looooooooooooong time we stopped. i hit him on e head and den he hit me back. one time he hit alot of times. so it was veri pain... owwww. i'll get my revenge! when going to e bus stop i saw a big gulp den i wanted to hit it down and den rowen hit my hand den my hand hit until de cup so it fell down but my arm hurt! walao tt guy he hit ppl so hard sia. okies tts a;; for today. i soooo tired :)

Tuesday, April 19, 2005

todae after my me, darren, huijoo, zuoying and tze jie waited for the silly nigel to finish his npcc so we can go to heartland mall.but in the end, we went ahead without nigel. he's gonna look for us after his npcc. we went to mac to eat. darren was good. he lent me his mp3 again along with the charger. he's good man =)) but lata when nigel came, we went to e popular and he bought zuoying a file. he didnt buy for me. hmmph. den we walked around in minitoons. den tze jie went home. den lata we went home also. tts e end. hais. boooooring.

Monday, April 18, 2005

i had a blast yesterday!! firstly i met yvonne at heartland mall, it was alreadyquite late so we skipped yamaha. hees. =)) we bought the diskette for nothing. bleahhs. wasting time. den we went to play lan. played dota. hais. i'm sooo lousy. heh. den after we finished the game, our time was up. jason won. boos ` so me and yvonne wanted to go hougang mall with rowen and jason but rowen insisted on staying at e lan shop. so mi and yvonne went. we hardly walked for an hour den rowen called us back. haiis. den later i went home. den i slept. after i woke up my mom fetched me and my bro to pick my father up. we went to pan pacific*5 star hotel!* it was 37 storeys! when i went inside, i looked up and got dizzy. it was sooooooooo tall! we went to e jap restaurant to check out. it was full house. so we went to another restaurant and it was at the LAST LEVEL!!!!!!!!!! when we took the lift up, the scenary was outside the hotel. it was creepy. almost eye to eye to the word suntec! but the scenary at e restaurant was super nice! got the seaside and the lights relfecting from the river. BEAUTIFUL. my parents force me to eat abalone and MUSHROOM. ABALONE WAS OKAY BUT MUSHROOM! omg i tell you i almost VOMITTED!! i had tears in my eyes already! den my dad said i was veri good in acting! wtf. after that we went down. i had enough courage to look at the scenary while going down e lift. BEAUTIFUL. we finally left the beautiful hotel. i wont ever forget it. it was so nice =)). tts bout it. today so sian. hais.

Friday, April 15, 2005

i think i had heritage tour ytdd. oh yes. it WAS ytdd. its was boring and stupiid. dun talk bout it laHH. today iish the day. a veri special day. one yr since we broke up. haiz. i stil can rmb e date. lols. today for lce lesson mr er brought his son along. he's SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO cute and adorable!!!!! =)) and his son was VERY young and he sang welcome to my life!!!! SOOOOO ADoRABLE! heeeeeh. after sch i went to old class meetin. i was first. met tze jie and darren there. we were SOOOOOOOO noisy. ahahah. den quincy came. den john. den lingtong and kunzi. all wearing outside clothes cept for me. hahas. so xtra. den talk talk talk den all go walk around. i bought e sports band. soooo pretty. hahas. tts it!

Tuesday, April 12, 2005

oOkies. now talk bout sun. soooo much to say =))
i wanted to meet wit yvnne but
she was with rowen.
so i went to yamaha.
but she was kindD.
she waited for mee.
dunring e lesson, it was sooooo screwed upp.
so after lesson we sent judy to e mrt.
den i saw weez.
so yvonne went to e lan shop to find rowen.
onlii me and weez waiting at heartland mall.
we were sooooo quiet =))
den they came and we go
we boarded e mrt.
yvonne and rowen seemed so lovin
so it made me think bout me and him.
we were n0thing.
n0thing compared
to them.
that realli br0ke me.
i was thinkin of wad fun thing we did.
nothing at alL.
my heart was bleeding and crying.
it'll be over
over for us soon.
we sat mrt to orchard.
i didnt even talk to weez.
yvonne and rowen kept asking us to talk
but i jus kept quiet.
i was nvr.
nvr so quiet.
i was probably thinkin bout me
and him.
when we went to cine, e movie alr started and we were late for 30mins
so we didnt buy e tix
we went to eat.
me and yvonne ate at mac and rowen ate
kfc. bud we ate together.
den yvonne pulled me away.
we went to e toilet and she kept askin me to talk to weez
i told her tat i gort nth to talk about.
so i ask her to gif me a topic
den she say anything
so i say jus say hi jiu can liao
i think she gonna faint.
so we went back. they so bad
left me and weez behind.
we went back to hearland mall
played at lan.
we finally talked.
but not as much.
i'm not good with my chinese.
so we play play play.
den play until e stupid frozen throne.
it was fun
but they say it was laggy so we quit.
den time for me to go.
i got home late
grounded by my parents.
den mon.
cant rmb wad happen.
bud i noe we got back our oral marks counted wrongly.
i got 51/65
i either got e fifth
or fourth in class.
den today i went home with glynis.
hais dunwan to type le
more updates bout today look at elisa's blog.
one person. onlii one. was dere for miie alwaez.
sotong ger ger thanx for everything.
you rawk!
i'm being left out.
no one bothers
no one cares.
this is e second time im typing this.
i wonder.
how manii more times im gonna
type this.

Saturday, April 09, 2005

yipees. todayy i went out early in e mornin to meet kunzii and weeeeeee`. i met kunzi first cuz she said that she was scared of weeeeee`. hahas kinda funny. FOR THE SECOND TIME, weeeeeee` scared me again. DAMN! freakkky! okies den we went to hougang interchange but den weeeeee` dumped us there. boos`. when to xinmin. soooo boring =\ we walked around and around and finally found gloria. sheesh. den we walked around and around again. den we finally left. i brought a wooden blue clip and they glued my name on it. its sooo nice. den me and kunzii went to hougang mall to haf lunch. den we took pics of our clips. haha. so bOliaos right. den i went to meet cam. den we played lan! i played cs. hoho. so mani ppl died under my hands. WAHAHAHA! den came home yupps. my key was in my pocket and i didn't bother to find it. so i called my silly bro and told him that i forgot to bring my key out. ahhHH i waited an hour for him. hmmmph. den i was super pissed when i found my key in my pocket. arrrGH! thats all lah. buh bye!

Thursday, April 07, 2005

few dayys ago i went tuu e stadium.
can'tt b botheredd whetherr i got in ornot.
hope i didn't get into e 100m.
i wanna get into relay.

something's wrong these few dayys.
i never felt like living anymore.
life is just too cruel.
no 0ne bothers to notice that i exist.
everyone hates me.
jus bcuz i'm mean.

they take things so seriously.
jus read my frenster.
alot of red arrows.
this is n0t my day.
not a single green arrow.
i d0n't exist on this earth anymore.
no 0ne bothers.
no 0ne cares.


Tuesday, April 05, 2005


Monday, April 04, 2005

SOOOOO mUCH TO SAY! oMG! okok. on sat i went back to sch for my band. playplayplay finally learned e basics. phew. so we passed. YAYYYY!!!! good thing number 1. HAHAHA. good thing number 2. AVRIL'S CONCERTTTTTT!!!! okayes. i promise that i will list detail by detail. firstly, gloria's parents came to pick me up. i was like WOOOOOW when i saw her. so punk. kayes. den we went to e indoor stadium. and when they started playin, im like WTF WHY THEY PLAYING PUG JELLY SONG!?!?!?! okayes. i LOVE pug jelly. THEY RAWK! so i enjoyed their 15 min performance. YEEEAH! den after tt got 15 min break....change all e instruments... den AVRILLLLL! me and gloria onli stood up when she sang skater boi and complicated. the sillt tze jie was swinginghis hand oFF. AHHAHAHAHA! but im suprised. he dresses veri well. oh btw ther were 20 speakers. IMAGINE THAT! okies den on sun. after my music lesson, i chiong to ps to meet meryl and woei juin. watched the eye 10. SOOOOOO scary! ok. cher if u're reading this, u prob think im chicken. my first time watching ghost movies kaye. =X den today sian sian wan. sch went as usual. came to sch with meryl and woei juin. aHHh. so sians. kayes tts it fer now. TATa

Friday, April 01, 2005

TMR IISH AVRIL'S CONNNNNCERTTTTTTTT!!!!!!!! AHHHHHHHHHHAHAHAH! I'M GOING NUTTTTTTTTS!!! lols. ok stop jokin. hahas!!!!! i cant WAIT!!!=PpPpP todae. STUPIIDDDD BUSSSS DRIVERR!!!! after sch me elisa and miao went to compass point. den we wait at e traffic light to cross to the other side. ok. got one bus come den spalsh water*it was rainin* ok. den we moved back abit. DEN THE SECOND BUS CAME! IT DRENCHED US!!!! F***! den me and miao onli half wet. elisa was wet frm top to toe. so poor thing. kks tts bout it

Thursday, March 31, 2005

i liedd agaiin. whyy. i dunn wanna lett you goo. wentt to heartland mall wit jemaine andd my dar`. to0k npps. s0bs.
y0u are the mostt precious thiing tuu mie.
love yoou.

Wednesday, March 30, 2005

walaos. today make me stay back for nothing. i tot got band leh. until my fren told me. lucky she told me at around 2. lols. den take e bus one girl from serangoon sec think she veri chio sia. she look like shit lors. den got one girl need to go down the bus den she bang her den she start talking to her fren saying something bad bout tt girl sia. im like wtf lors. attitude prob. den i jus came home lah. tts bout it yeahh..

Tuesday, March 29, 2005

todaee after schh mii, zuo yiingg and chee sengg wentt tuu heartland` mall. we went to kfc firrst to eatt denn we walkedd around. i saw until yiqingg and audreyy. hahass audrey the hairstylle verii nice worxs. denn we went tuu take neoprriints.

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lols. tts all lah

I HATE YOU. no, not my dar`. iish someone else. actually u spoiled my mood. wanted to write bout you today. but going to heartland mall cheered me up. u lucky freako!

Monday, March 28, 2005

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Sunday, March 27, 2005

todaees i didnn't go tuu church. imma bad
catholic =(( my dar` doesn't like that. hmmm. oh yeah
todae lunch e whole family got togetherr.
we ate at a thai chiinese restaurant. i tried e tom
yum soup. a tiiny teeny lil bit. it burnedd mah throat and
tongue. lols. okiies. as promised. e pics wit gloria ytd.

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wehees =))
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avril rox!
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so siann
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i bought e tix!
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still got 2 moree but 1 we look silly in it and
e other one dunno why got prob scannin it in. lols. cheers!
ytd i met upp wit gloria hahas. we went to buy tix
to avril's conert.
i can't wait =))
first we went to e sistic outlet at bishan.
the ppl there were NOT
frendly at all!
nono. feel like slappin em awake. HOHO!
but we didn't buy e tix
long story lah.
den we went to pick her bro
from NUS. denn we wentt to
parco and bought e tix.
de $50 one was already sold outt.
so we bought the $75 one.
now i'mm broke. BOO!
denn we went to eat at koo kee.
the fish was SUPER DELICIOUS!
denn later me and gloria went to walk around bugis.
finally after an hour,
we found the neoprints
so manii ppl ther sia.
i'll upload e pics another time.
den we went to haf ice cream denn i went home
ok tts all...bbbyes!

Saturday, March 26, 2005

ytdd wentt tuu study witt meryll , cam and cs.
actually we didn'tt reallii studdy much
jus bullshitt
we scolded chee hock over
e phone cuz he
bullied chee sheng and merr
was madd at hiim.
i scoldedd hiimm too
i didnn't noee
whyy liife wass like that. you made me
do thiings i didn't want to do
why diid i fall for yeew?
i should haff nvr tolld yoo that
i lurfe yoou.
yes i do but
i wanna haf my freedomm
choosin which route i wanna take
i still love you
but e reasonns why i didn
wanna listen tuu yoo
was bcuz i wannted
yoo to accompanii`
yoo werent ther
for me

Thursday, March 24, 2005

iish death beautiiful? i dunnch noe wads wronng wiith mie. i usedd tuu b happiex. somethinng ruiined mee. it mustt be yoo. took away everythinng fromm mie. e most important thiing iN e wurld. wher ishh e love? takiin another step closerr` tuu e world of darkness. i thi_ink iits gonna b overr forr us soon. i lovee youu.

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onee sl_it tuu endd iit all`

Wednesday, March 23, 2005

kaoos. brought my f horn to sch todaee so manii kpos. lols. made upp mie mind. not gonna brin tit home anymoree. after sku i went tuu band. i was e best hornist player againn. yeahh! anyways, afterr readiin elisa's blog i feltt likee e old tiimes were backk. i donnt wann thiis tuu evar ruiin mii again. neverr. budd e temptatiion iish tuu biig.

*darr i dunn wann tuu lett euu go bring miie backk iinto e worlld of realiity. i dunn wanna lose you. neverr`

Tuesday, March 22, 2005

so mani things happened todae and yesterday. i have a bad memory lah. alot of things i wan to say but i jus cant remember. onli one thing to say. chee hock is disusting! my hand like jelly like that. i wasn't expecting it!

Sunday, March 20, 2005

so siian...ytd mii went to orchard with lil cher...go read her blog larhs...mii veri lazee to type... hahas...okii tts it bb

Friday, March 18, 2005

todaee mii went backiie tuu sch ferr band. there are 3 horn playerrs butt onlii 2 to sparee. so somebody get kickedd out. well i was____n't ! YEAHHH i love mahh horrn =)) same goes tuu mah darlin. hoho. denn after that i came homee. denn i wentt tuu miie cousiin's barbeque. so siian dere. i felt so xtra. who cares. duh. okii thats it

Thursday, March 17, 2005

todaee miie,eileen,meryll,chuan huii,sandy,niigel,chee shengg,chee hockk and huii joo wentt tuu caii lii laoo shii's housee. itt was small andd cosy =)) denn afterr we wennt tuu hm...huii joo, ch and sanddy wentt home. wee wentt tuu take neoprintx. i'll upload anotherr day. denn mii and chuann huii stayyed backk to wallk aroundd. denn lata zuo yiing came...den ch wentt homme den both of uss go to mac and eat. denn lata she went hoome tuu. denn my mom and her frenn came and we ate sushii. yuummm =P denn miie broo wass nearr byy so we we_nnt forr a niice wallk. denn saw untilll hiis frenn and huii liing froom timo's class. yupps. deenn we came hoome. yepp. that's it for todaee. to euu noee huu...wo aii nii.! hahaHAHAHa tata!

Wednesday, March 16, 2005

i didn't expect this tuu happen.

i needed euu.

i dun wanna go on like this foreva.

every mornin i wake up into e world of emptiiness.

missin euu till thiis verii dayy.

goiin furtherr denn thatt`

i wanna see euu till e day comes

i dunn wanna lett euu goo.

i facedd realityy bcuz of euu

lightened upp miie liife

nvrr forgettiin euu for thatt.


i've finally let euu go =)

i'm nvrr thiis agaiin.


i've stand on miie owwn twoo feet.

Monday, March 14, 2005

haiis. ytd got yamaha lesson....den yvonne nvr go...den next week no unfair...i wasn't expecting this day. ryan umm. confessed to me...but i rejected him haiis. den i got to noe hu momo likes. hmm didnt noe how to tell you this over e phone but...i didn't stop liking you....

Saturday, March 12, 2005

ytd we went tuu e beach nearby to do cip. iit rawkss. den lata on we went to e playgrounnd. hahas. soo funn. go elisa's bloggiie iif youu wanna see e pics. ya denn todaee mii,cam, n jesslyn went to e lan shop to do research. but iin e end, we ended up playing gb. i wantedd tuu plae cs butt somethiin wrong wiith e com. hais.

Thursday, March 10, 2005

happiest day of miie life. lols. kept laughin n laughin. durin recess, me n zuo ying went to canteen to eat den go to e library to find ryan. so weird lor mii and hiim less den 2 weeks den so close liao. hahas. den after sch we got ready for our last psl session. i guess ours is e best although we didnt haf water bombs. hoho. firstly that chee sheng dared me to put chocolate on his face. i did. lols. den e next target was benjamin. he also had choco cake on his face. wahahs. den chee sheng was mad and he ran after me with e choco cale lols. i ran like mad. he didnt chase up. though yun kai caught me. WaHha. den chee sheng went to smash e cake at timothy. so funny sia! even his shirt also have. den kenna caught by mr singh. gotta clean up e whole toilet. lols. of cuz in boys toilet la. oh yah. when timo was washing up, damian came into e toilet and smashed another cake at him. ridiculous. den e toilet all choco cake. ahha. den we went to classroom and talk bout our most valued thing. half e class was missing. i dunno why. lols. den we played do you lvoe ur neighbour? i was one of those who had not been caught. hais. so sian. liife stiil sux. i hatee myself.

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Tuesday, March 08, 2005

todae didnt went verii well recess dingqi told me something which i didnt want to hear most....den today at e speech i was damn nervous. lols. stumbled at e end. tooo freakin nervous. i cant believe it. why is tt ***** so damn fukin mani ppl scream for her....*pukes* urgh tts all fer todae...taaa

Monday, March 07, 2005

i sacrifice this time to write on my blog cuz i wanted to play my maple story. hahahs. todaee recess mi and diing qi went to e library. i went to borrow chicken soup and one asterix....funny when i borrow asterix i dun read one... hahahas. e chicken soup was nice i almost cried. lols. too emotional. wAHahaA . den mii and diing qi went down to outside our class the benches there to eat...den yuhan came den she started talking bout darryl....i sorta flared up and den the class boys started teasing me....die liaos...supposed to be a secret now im dead =\....den after sch got ryan ride e bus with me....hahas....keep joking for no reason....he still think i veri guai real man....haiss so sian....okii tts bout todae....

As the days pass slowly
And the weeks creep by
I find myself obsessing
About the ways I could die.

I lay awake at night
thinking of my pain.
There's no way it can get better;
I have nothing left to gain.

Suddenly thoughts of death
Are controlling my every move,
And every battle with my mind
I always seem to lose.

I no longer want to be around
The people i love.
All that I can think about
Is what's waiting above.

Friday, March 04, 2005

hais. todaee aiin't that badd as ytd. don''t wanna tallk bout ytd. worst daee of miie liife. anyway i'll come back tuu tat later. todaee i went to recess wiith diing qii. we went quiite well....actually she isn't verii bad. lols. we went to e library cuz ii wanted to borrow asteriix. aas usuall, all archiie comic taken. *sobsob. lols. aneways. after tt we went down and bought drinks and hung out outside our classroom. yepp. there allow driinks but no food. lols. cuz nearby got vending machine. as usual class went on. but todaee abit of diiff. for eng lesson. me and wynne got chased outta class....YEAH IT ROCKED MAN! HOHOHOHOHO den alotta ppl come say halo. so ridiculous sia. hahahha niice mann. okii i went to report to mr choo todae. he got a spare key, so i hadtaa talk alll my books n brin it home. it wighed a ton! good thing my good bro helped me with that. lols. alot of ppl tot he was my staed and i was like wtf! noway! -____________- den i came home and slept. yeeep. not enuff slp every day... oh yah i said i would come back to e topic right. now tt that "GIRL" haf soooooo manii frenns she liike to show off. todaee at artt lesson i happened to turn my head and saw her sitting with her DARLING LENSON and his group*EWW!* but they aren't steading. den she liike always so proud of herself lors. i'm so glad that we aren't frens =D! she ruined my life.


Wednesday, March 02, 2005

i'm so pissed. why ishh liife like tat? i lost my locker key and i'm scared to report, but i haf to. sometimes i realli wish i can leave this cruel world.todaee at french horn ishh one of e mostt perfectt. amazingly, i can blow a high c. i was surprised that i can do that. e instructor iis proud of miie. lols. i didnt even practise my air speed. haiis. feelin so down. i dun noe why lars. i guess this song suits me most by my fave rock band, simple plan.

Do you ever feel like breaking down?
Do you ever feel out of place?
Like somehow you just don't belong
And no one understands you
Do you ever wanna runaway?
Do you lock yourself in your room?
With the radio on turned up so loud
That no one hears you screaming
No you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels all right
You don't know what it's like
To be like me
To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
With no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's likeWelcome to my life
Do you wanna be somebody else?
Are you sick of feeling so left out?
Are you desparate to find something more?
Before your life is overAre you stuck inside a world you hate?
Are you sick of everyone around?
With their big fake smiles and stupid lies
While deep inside you're bleeding

No you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels all right
You don't know what it's like
To be like me
To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
With no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life
No one ever lied straight to your face
No one ever stabbed you in the back
You might think I'm happy but I'm not gonna be okay
Everybody always gave you what you wanted
Never had to work it was always there
You don't know what it's like what it's like
To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
With no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like, what it's like
Welcome to my life

everythin is true in this song, bout me. life sucks.

Monday, February 28, 2005

oh damn. i'm bloody fucked up. my dad jus threw some hings from my table onto the floor. not jus sweep the things but he SLAM 2 fragilr things. one is a cd that i bought which costed me a BOMB and thanks to that, it broke into half. fuck man. actually todaee i veri happy one. now no mood to type. thks to tt. i went to orchard with elisa chuan hui and kunzi. took neoprints. go elisa blog if u wanna see more. i no mood liao!

Sunday, February 27, 2005

gosh. i noe i havent been updating for days. i've got an announcement to make.

$50 per tix. free standing. any one who wanna go pls contact me. or tag at my board. 30 March. 8pm. Suntec.


Thursday, February 24, 2005

sian sian. todaee hor. after sch me wynne camilla mery woei jun n eileen went to timo's class to look at the girl who like timo. she very "CHIO" sia! den we talkin to timo right den she came and shut the window sia! wtf. lorrs. she is extremly FAT and her hair is super curly. GROSS! wad a bitch. den lata had psl meetin. i felt soooo left out while everyone is havin fun. i seem to be invisible. hais. all bcuz of tt nigel. bastard.

Wednesday, February 23, 2005

hahas todae backed rock cookies. with choco. hen hao s\chi =)) it rockked. wahhas yupp. mi and lenson minus 10 marks bcuz of the damn rubbish. forgot to clear it up. my first time minus marks. sh0` sadd =( okii den afta sch. i got band. so hafta stay backk. yupp eileen quittin...she onli flutist she sian sian wan. got to noe who is rowen and brinston. wahhas tt rowen so childish leh. how old liao? 16 leh. aiyoyo. keep playing with the sec ones. haiss! den we started practicing at around 5plus. actually when my seniors ask me to blow right...i cannot blow lors. den when they finally scram out of the class room, i figured out that i could play 4 notes. but i cant play the note do. dunno why. too low? hahas. but i always blow veri low. lols. today camilla and eileen fought. i think it was over me. i'm so sorry cam....

D0Nt LiKe DeN SaY, n0 niD t0 SaY iT s0 iNdiRecTly!!! weLl, i thiNk i dUN liKE y0U TOO!

Tuesday, February 22, 2005

started with history. hmm same old boring lesson but e teacher rawks. big time. lolx. den on with maths. sian lar. den recess! yepyep. not enought time to eat my laksa =(( den back to class for...umm...english? GREAT MAN. THAT TEACHER SUCKS BIG TIME. the new teacher from moe. kaos. i hate her!den we had compre test. i haf a feelin tt i'm gonna score low! nonono! not on english. !! den after tt got science. test on cells and tissues and everything. quite hard tho. den we had chiinese. yupp, me now started to like chiinese. i love the teacher mann *i'm not a les!* i mean as in her personality la. she's so understanding. lorrs. plus she dont realli scold. cares alot bout us yeahh =)) so after sch had lunch and went for jie fu's class. haiss. ben, emma and joshua, eunice and joanne, i dunno the other girl name, joined our class. they were probably absent yesterday. hahas. tt ben. sit so close to elisa sia. hmm!yupp. denn play a game. we came in second no prizes =((. yupps. haiss. so sian lehx. oh ya after jie fu lesson me and wynne and camilla went to compass to eat mosburger. OHMAN the burger was SUPERB! i loved it....simply delicious. but it was ex. yupp. 6.25 leh including drink and fries. but all small. mcdonalds more worth. den lata wynne go liaos. me and camilla den sit mrt to punggol. den we had a nice nice chat. we sit from punngol to harbourfront. den harbourfront sit back. fastest way to waste time. haha we mus be siao rite? is actually quite fun, you peeps out dere shld try it. but we did our hwk along e way. hahahas. so fun. yupp tts bout it lars. oh yah,


Monday, February 21, 2005

hmm. ytd. didn do much. yepps =)) todaee arrs. nothing much happen also larrx. my chinese got 52/100. yayss. at leastt manage to pass. got ppl 26 sia. haiss. denn afterr sch me n kunzi go mac eat. yummy. i saw hui hui there. my bro's long lost fren. lols jus kiddin. more like mine. she inn 5 joy.... i so surprised tt she stil in hihs.. yupps...den i saw a gurl which is so ugly tryinn to actt likee a bytchh. so gross mann....feltt like slappinn herr....lols! tts it bb!

Saturday, February 19, 2005

todae. went to bugis with camilla and her bro. forgot wad his name is. but veri weird the lars. we went to lan shop. but no seats available. so we went t the other lan shop to play arcade. camilla and i played the car game. her score was 37 or 38/40 mine's 35/40. second time is 32/40. third time also the same. hahas so fun. playin the car game. actually i got 26/4o wan. but den alot of cars bang me ya. so not fun. den those ppl bside me they playin their own car game. scold so mani vulgarities. den one guy bside me say oei dun scold so mani vulgarites la. in chinese. but he say until so soft. siao. den lata we go andd eat. at food junction. wtff. my chiken rice costss $3.50. so exx lorss...den lata camilla go play gunbound. i jus sit and watchh. den it was like tt.
me boy camilla
tt was the sittin arrangement. the boy in between was playin gunbound. when he got hit he kept scoldin vulgarities. pointin third fingers also haff. denn i onlii noe tt boyss are worser soree losers den gals. den he left, another guy came. alsoo liddat.....they are realli siao...den lata playplayplay i gtg mom came to fetch me.den went to my dad shop to see see. it stinked. i dunno why. lols den came home and slp...yeah tts all...byess


Friday, February 18, 2005

at least today isnt as horrible as yesterday. l0lx. today all sec ones and twos haf mass walk. but i didn go cuz of cathetism. l0lx. good huh. den we had our lce lesson in the library. so shiok. got air con. 30 min b4 the lesson end all the class rep. haf to clean the classroom. hahas so fun. water everywhere lolx. tts bout it for t0day.

Thursday, February 17, 2005

today is a relli fuckin day. i wish tt it will nvr repeat again. on with the classes. damn boring. oh yah wynne i dunno what the hell is goin on but i DON'T do black you even noe wads black magic...helooo plus its illegal and you all tryin to ignore me bcuz of tat? sure, nigel said that he didn't send me that sucker message but infact he did. i dunno whether u noe bout the sucker msg....if you do he lied to you kayes. he jus wan you to help him to go against me. and tt i will haf no frens. i tel you this now...he is usin you. dun trust him too probably thinkin now tt i'm rubbish and you believe tt wad nigel said it right. it is NOT. all of you haf been ignoring me since den.... try to put urself in my shoes. imgaine the pain when all of you are doing this to me. if i had been doin black magic i wouldn't be like tt already. fine scold me dumb or stupid or anything. you will regret for trustin nigel one day. this happened to me b4.....fine you can trust him, but not too much i noe tat you've been tryin to get our condition better but its gettin worser and worser. and the worst thing of all you believe him tat i'm doin black magic. im not. i can do anythin to make you believe me. i'm realli innocent.

Wednesday, February 16, 2005

haiss todaee gott alott off mixedd feelinns...i start with the sch for pe we wentt round the wholee sch...around the hdb flats too...i wasn'tt reallii tiredd i wonderr whyy...anywayys....NL muss b siaoxx....thinkk i doo blackk magicc on himm...nutss i dunn evenn noee how to do blackk magicc and itss illegal...denn i toldd NL tt i dunno blackk magicc...den he askk me to swearr...butt denn cannott swearr so i juss promisee lorrxz....denn he likee suii biann liddat...but i dunno himm larx...he hates me alott but the msges he sendd to me likee...aiyaa dunno how to sayy larrs...

denn afterr i foundd outt tt he accusedd mee for castinn blackk magicc onn himm....denn i think wynne believess himm....i feltt like endinn my life...i feltt veri sadd....can'tt take itt onee trustss me...wher aree all my tru frenns?.......

Tuesday, February 15, 2005

lolx. today mus b siao liaox. after sch we haf jie fu's class. it was funny but dumb. yep. den lata me meryl camilla kunzi chuan hui and sandy go take neoprint. alot right. haha heck la. yupp den wasted alot of money cuz take alot of times. haaa. hmm den tts bout it for today. yupps. oh yahh. the sci test. got class first or second. me so0 surprised. mcq all tikam one. section b all luan luan lai. hahaha. and i totally lost faith in bein frens with NL again. i hate you. this is real frm my heart. thanks to all those who tried to help me but failed. wynne eileen and meryl. thks so much. one last time....NL I HATE YOU! watch out dudex....those ppl tt i hate will suffer so badly...

Monday, February 14, 2005 alot of thing happen...first meryl gave me a soft toy....winnie the pooh the char, piglet....den elisa gave me a sweet....den esther gave a card....den woei jun gave sweets....yupps den after sch me ding qi meryl camilla zuoying elisa and woei jun went to heartland mall to take neoprints!! yupp den we went to give a name and saw timo there....den timo wan me a choose a present for............... yupp but in the end we went to ............ and .......... to buy the present. hahahas took a long time mann. den i wanted him to share with me to buy a present for my bro. bought him the book of high lords. his fave book. hahaahha okii den we went to the cd shop and he bought me avril's under my skin album....thanks mann you rawk! yupp tts all folks...till den taaa

Sunday, February 13, 2005

haiss....soo siann ytd i help my father go clean his shop up...yarr den i come home and slp...this few days i've been sleepin alot...cuz got headache...haisss....den today...go for the damn sissy teacher tuition...i hate it lors...dunno wad shit he talking about...yarr tts bout it today lors....byes

Thursday, February 10, 2005 i had fun.....wakakak me n my family....we went round geylang to post mails....den some of the blocks we force open the letter box....HAHAHAHA pro eh? thanks to me. hahA okies...hmmm cuz my dad opening a new massage shop den need workers wad. he openin on this tues. rawkks man....its sooo pretty!!!!hahahas wel pray tt he haf workers =)) tts all i suppose....

Wednesday, February 09, 2005

havent been updating for days. ahahahaha anyway yesterday i had sschool performance. haha. 1 integ and 1 sincerity we put up a song together. ok it sucked so badly. hahahah i went bback to hips and saw all my frens. den after tt me n cher went to mac for lunch...she waster sia. scary -_- oki tts bout it taaaa

Sunday, February 06, 2005

hah i knoe i havent been updating for sooo looong. yeah. anyways ytd i went to orchard with my mom and my cousin...sighh sooo sian. den i brought shoelaces for my sch shoes though its different =) den today....i went to eileen's house. meryl,nigel,camilla,darren n chee sheng was dere too. yupp u knoe wad tt means. hahaz. den sooo sad lata on i had to go to music class. so after tt i went back to eileen's house. they baked finish the muffin liao. it tasted great! yupps. den we playplayplay....den we went to take neoprints! but darren didn wanna take. we didn care much bout him later we went to buy bubble tea. tt chee sheng keep shootin the pearls around. wtf...but i manage to shoot one at him too... HAH ok den here i am typing this...tts all lars byes...

Friday, February 04, 2005 the teh-o keep screaming at my sissy den his pitch so lolx anyways....ytd ar....nothing much happen lors...yupp tts all for today...went to heartland mall with eileen and meryl. we took neoprint together...ahahahah! i cant scan it in oh oh well....i'll try somehow yeah? tts all byes

Wednesday, February 02, 2005 so tired man....oh yah ytd had to back for jie fu ang moh....aiya nothing much to talk bout him....he always gimme sweets one. hah. he testing eye contact den he say i stare at him....aiya no diff between stare and look la...hmmm today...after sch go to hydroponics farm...boo00ring lahs. nvr win any prize one. haiss...oh yah my grp members are meryl nigel n eugene. meryl is tt girl hu haf same same bday as me. -cheeRs!- and nigel n eugene...still can get along well with them la. yupps....den got free veg leh. ahahahah ok den after tt ehh me, meryl, camillia, nigel, chee sheng, darren went to eileen's house but b4 tt we went to cold storage spent over $40 or $40 on e spot? anyways ya after tt we went to eileen's house to party! ok den tts all here i am now....jus know tt nigel is styain in palm grove...*hpmh...he act like a poor guy* heh ok tata ****note: i forgot to add that ytd night i went for family dinner....farewell dinner to my aunt cuz she's leavin for canada..yupps almost my whole family lives abroad hahs. i gues tts all. ta

Monday, January 31, 2005

haiss ytd got tuition...den yamaha...den me and yvonne walk around lookin for cher's prezzie...finally found a bracelet....den i engraved her name on it...*HEY SEE I'M SO KIND WAHAHAHAHA* hope u like it yeah? my most xpensive gift. lolx den today....came to sch...timo sittin on my chair....HAHA reminds me of something...chee sheng timo and wynne fell for my trick....WAHAHAHAHAH soooooooooo funny lors.....hah ok tts bout it.... tatas

Saturday, January 29, 2005

hmm ya today early early wake up to go to lan ..... but den full house wtf...den haf to wait till bout 12.15 liddat lor waste my time....these ppl include jack, catmillus(WAHAHHAH) and kindergarden fren....i dun think he rmbs me...sho sad lor....sian sian leh....OH YAH today that asshole CH called me...i was like wad e fuk lors how he got my home no......i nvr giv the guys in my class leh...ok den he ask me why i hate him so much...den wad can he do to make me like him as a fren den he say i veri kind...etc. etc. AND I WAS LIKE WAD E FARK DOES HE WANT and he wants my hp no....and my bday...fark. HELL TO YOU CH YAY!!!!!!

Friday, January 28, 2005

hahahas so long nvr update liaos. hmm today ars. after sch got psl session. we celebrate the bdays of all e jan babies. hahahas aneway, my best frewn and nemo noe wad la. cant tell here incase i get killed. jus wish dem all the best. my baby korkor HAHAHAHA i feel veri sick now, i dun think im oging to tuiotion lorrs. wasted 39 bucks. shouldn't haf paid. flu headache sorethorat. omg...

Tuesday, January 25, 2005

today after sch got this oral communicative thingy, ang moh la. say he jealous cuz he no hair den i alot of hair den embarrass me infront of e whole clas...dang but heck la, he's still great he say i haf an innocent face not those vulgar type cuz he saw the badge on my pencil box. lols! ok tts all bye

Monday, January 24, 2005

HAIYO TODAY DAMN SIAN!!!! okok la....honestly ar, chinese lesson is the most interesting, den history. the history teacher rox! he's like a councilor(wadeva shitt u spell it) realli rocks man he's so damn interesting yeah! ok dunwan type liaos...byebye

Sunday, January 23, 2005

haiss. so damn bloody sians. yesterday went to my parents office to help help help. stil, its so booooring. den today went to tuition class. booooring. den yamaha. booooooring. den i kea. not so boring. ahahaha ok thats all la, sians

Friday, January 21, 2005

hmm updating this while waiting for the maple story to update. yupps if ya play maple add me i'm macdee...okies today wasextremly boring, jus glad that my brother found a job, yeah im sooo proud of him, cuz one day is 12 hrs so on the average, one month $1800 and i guess he'll b giving me some money. wahahahaha wad a gud bro he is. yupps thats it for today yeah? ta

Thursday, January 20, 2005 so sianss....hmm lemme recap ars....ya la today nothing one...lessons lessons and more lessons siansigh den after sch i chiong to heartland mall to meet john quincy n jackson. yup it was um....ok la got free fries. WAHAHAHAA im so bad u cant stop me yeah! ok den we talk talk talk den suddenly quincy shifted the topic to darryl. the thing i didn wanna hear most. he gave my present to his father to use. he jus hurt me so deeply. i guess its true that first loves for real hard to forget. he's ignoring me now i noe. but since he doesnt reply my sms im totally fine with it. i dun gif a damn bout him anymore. IF U ARE READING THIS PLS GET THE IDEA! sigh...dun wanna talk but him liaos everytime talk bout him i get updet and angry... thats for the day. byes

Wednesday, January 19, 2005

yayaya i noe i haven updated for ages! wahahaha okok anyways talk bout today lar after sch got atheletics audition. as usual i take the short distance....field width one end to the other. hmm... 8.99 that gud? lols i hope so? okies den lata we all haf to go long distance. sianss. i stop at third round liaos. buay ta han sia okies den after that me wynne n nemo went for tao huay....yupps...den got one part i dunwan to say. WAHAHAHAHHA =X ok thats all for now i'll update soon if i haf time. cya all!

Friday, January 14, 2005

hmm today nothing much...the lce was boooring...16 habits of mind...eeeyuck. den lata after sch me and wynne waited outside the general office for timothy aka tim aka timo aka nemo. lols den we went to sengkang...compass point lars. den we went to mac and eat...yummy my fave, as usual...wahaaha i took my time to eat and they were complaining like shit...sorry har... =X okok den we went round the whole shopping centre thanks to nemo....anyhow lead one...yupps...den lata they send me off to the mrt lar....mmm hmmm...den time to say byebye...den im here lors...everytime go out with them i feel like a third party. i realli dunno why lors. they look like a couple when they stand togather...yeah so thats bout it and when nemo, u read this dun come and look for me ar...i innocent the im sure you like wynne WAHAHHAAHHAHA BYE!

Wednesday, January 12, 2005 the cca thingy again....i didnt get into air rifle...thanks to that kenneth...sobsobsob....den i sign up for atheletics...hope i get in...

Tuesday, January 11, 2005

hais....i'm in a really bad mood today...cuz i think that m*** starting to like ****e yeah...dun feel like typing byes...

Monday, January 10, 2005

shitt lar today sooo sian....go to sch den got the junior investiture seremony...den lessons...den got cca thingy...den sooo boooring...can't believe that vincent in band...eeee yuck >=P lols...all for today i guess byes

Sunday, January 09, 2005

hahas today den update...yesterday i did nothing lars...mmm so yah today i went for my yamaha lesson....all the things were screwed up...sighs i think i'm thinking too much bout momo...argh can't stop thinking bout him....den always like to stare at his photo....i'm going mad soon! why did he haf to enter my life...argghs den this morning i sms timothy until afternoon...30++ msges sia....i think his bill is gonna burst...mine too la hehes =) ok byes

Friday, January 07, 2005

hmm sooo long since i update =D went to camp wads...ok the first day is fifth of jan...
First day
booring lars. after we went to the hall the PCs and PSLs intro intro intro den lata we had ice breaker den we all played H02....haf to hold a guys or gals hand....sooo suay ar me...den still got play one more game..forgot liaos la....den we learned the sch creed and batch song =) den lata we went back to class for some cheers usual our class was DEAD quiet =X blabla skip lars all forget le hehe den we had lunch...forgot wad it was...den we did station games hmm... eh the first item is that we haf to tie our shoe laces together and walk as a team...blahs so hard to say...wadeva shitt la... den bathe liaos den dinner...den battle of the light...a candle and a balloon but we didn't get to play...cuz i think not enough time =( den we did night walk...also not scary one... we took the pink trail...den got one part where somebody put a wood down den got a girl scream...den got a guy appear ask us to go up...and it was PITCH DARK cant see a single they put lightsticks to guide we went to the second level...den suddenly got one girl jump out...scare us sia...but den my fren say that girl jump out den she got a torchlight den she go whoaaawhoaaa but she didnt do that to us...strange lehs...den slp le...
Second day
wake up. do mornin exercise.assembly.breakfast. den today we did eagle eye trail...hmm make me sweat like siao...not veri fun haf to walk soooooo far frm punggol walk all the way to sengkang den we came in forth... den we had lunch den auction...walao auction until get until toilet paper sia! 1000+ lehs...den another item we bid 3000 bucks..(paper money) den it was all drinks! YEAH! so we got the most best and most lan prize hahaha den we went back to class yeah? den we decided to sing reach by s club 7 rather den one love by blue...cuz no cd la den we go bathe den lata we gather at parade squaer den campfire! yeah it was sooooo fun den slp liaos...okie end here oh yeah...i got desiree matilda n ben to sign my frenship corner ;)
Last day!!
wake up...set up class room to all the original place den go falg raising....den breakfast...but i had to attend mass so i had breakfast late ....den area cleaning....yuck...we had to clean to toilet....bleahs anyway when we reach there already quite clean =P cuz cleaners toilet wad. den lata got J,I,C rehearsal...junior investiture las...boring, skip...den prize presentation...our class didn't get anything...sobsob den we went back to class..i asked for timothy n arthur's signature den home sweet home....but there's something me,wynne and maryl *sorry if i spell wrongly* did on the second night....hahahahas we sooo bad but i shant say it until its discovered =PpP thankew thankew for reading !

Monday, January 03, 2005

halooo soooo long nvr update liaos...hahas talk bout to day las i haf to walk to meet kunzi and ling tong b4 sch...den we went to our classrooms to assemble den teacher talk talk talk non stop las collect forms...den got student councilers*heck anyhow spell* come our class to take charge 5 of dem desiree matilda timothy arthur and an indian gurl...soooo sowee i dunno how to spell ur name =X den we went to take foto for ez link cards and blabla b4 that we went to the hall for a boooooooooooooring talk yeah (= den after the fotos we haf to see which counciler we under for camp and everything i guess =X im under timothy together with chuan hui and nigel<- YUCK YUCK YUCK!!! being in the same class as him is already considered veri dao mei liaos den also got ice breaking den all of us practically go mad hahas...well thats all la lazee to type trying to find new skins =)