wnt to sch today to hlp out with the euphoria thingy -.-
den ltr when me and marie said we bought tix for the whole concert den we no need help le -.-
but then we still have to help them to paste the schedule -.-
oh dang it i was bloody tired (:
anyways, me and maries job was to paste the schdule which is the hardest job T.T
oh wells, anyway we did it pretty fast 'cos i've done smth like tht in my previous job b4.
so we were done at about 9+?
we were soso happy la.
until they came back in with 6 big packs more. -.-
den i wanted to switch jobs so i decided to fold the cards
which were soso easy.
until the tcr asked gerald*the INfamous guy* to ask more ppl to hlp.
this girl in orange tee - she kept staring and staring at me.
ok to cut a long story short-
aft me and marie left for sch.. marie said,
"wah that girl keep on staring at you leh, she work also must stare she talking to her friend also must stare i feeling like gourging her eyeballs out at the most i'll pay her medical fees but anyway she's lost an eye." she said smth like that la. den we kept on laughing. lol. i dont mean to be eeeeeeevil but sometimes i cant help it. its a joke anyway if ur reading this.
oh YEAH. during break time i asked jemaine about tht orange shirt girl --
TO MY HORROR
.
.
.
.
she kept asking jemaine about me! she kept asking jmn to show her who was i.
oh CRAP.
then marie said something which i found quite true....
"i think she like zheyue leh if not why she keep staring at you?"
i couldnt disagree more. haha.
gd luck to both of you then.
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met dear aft im done with everything.
missed him so much!
i wonder how im gonna spend 8 days in korea without him t.t
im going on the 3 june, midnight flight!
i dunno why but i gotta badbadbad feeling about going to korea.
xD

whoops-a-daisy - by yehudi -.-
I WASNT SMILING FOR THE CAMERA
its notnotnot funny. lol
i love him (:
i didnt noe my hair looked so messy frm the back. *sobs*

i appreciate your love for me.
but somehow,
you must learn to trust.
you dont believe in miracles do you?

god wants to help him to revenge.
for the pain she brought onto him.
those were the first tears she shed for him.

well! here's my results of the yr - heh heh.
engllish . b3
chinese . b4
maths . c5 *OMFG WTF!!*
science . b4 *one more mark to b3 T.T*
history . b4 *I STUDIED REAL HARD FOR THIS AND i LOST TO KEANE WHO DIDNT EVEN BOTHER TO STUDY FOR HISTORY T.T*
literature . b4*yay! improved from e8!*
dnt . b4
arts . b4

im nt trying to brag hohoho (:
13 position. blah lousylousy.
at least esther didnt get first this yr. HAHAHAHA!
oh hey guess wat? im NOT underweight which is a surprise lol wtf!

i bought the mini voodoo.
hopefully things will get btr.

i wished u knew what i was going through.
the pain,
the disaster,
the hurt.

i guess thats what they all say
believe in ur dreams

say byebye.

i wished i had his trust
but everything's gone in a matter of seconds.

i have no more choice
but to pick up the knife where i left weeks ago.

i hate this fcking life.
i try to give my love and all i get in return is misery and pain.

well, surprisingly, chinese lesson was a blast today :D
angcy brought us to ava to watch a movie hohoho.
then suddenly,
"hey look someone wrote about ur bf!"
whatever. he's nt my bf.
most of the ppl were crying whn the movie ended.
bloody touching. lol.

aft sch wnt to eat mac's with cam glynis and tj.
den wnt back to sch to support captain's ball.
my class vs teachers.
we got thrashed like crazy cuz all the teachers so tall. lol.
nt fair lahs.

miss him so. :(

i was feeling horridly sick today ):
my thraot felt dry, and itchy.
and i couldnt stop sneezing!
still had to go to the stupid hall until 9! hmmph.
anyways, soh ah soon came :D
i didnt bring any of his things lol.
he puched keane on his shoulder
and he wanted to puch me too but he couldnt reach.
hahahah.
then he used keane's pencil box to hit my head -.-
chancheehoe's lesson was next and we went to the lab :D
it was pretty fun.
cant rmb whose lesson was next.
oh yeah angcy.
whatever la him-
den ltr was lce we did nothing :D
only stacked all our exam scripts together.

wnt to eat kfc with kunzi, glynis and ermmm sandy if im nt wrng. lol
aft that wnt to meet dear at punggol park :D
such a nice place but..
HOTHOTHOT.
lol!

sweet lips,
sweet tongue,
sweet kiss.
((((:

today was games day :DD
our soccer team got thrashed by 5-0 in the first round.
better luck next time guys.
well. overall our team was the champ for cap's ball!
yay love u all (:
rocked my day!

now i noe how sandy feels right now.
being accused for something you didnt do?
i cant stand it anymore
bloody fcked up asshole shit life.
i swore to myself i'd nvr be vulgar again.
but i couldnt seem to control my emotions these few days.

im looking at the knife which i threw away into a corner weeks ago.
it doesnt hurt me.
emotional pain hurts me more.

sorry boy,
i couldnt be there for you.
i love you.

wnt out with dear today :D
i nearly fainted when i saw the ticket queue!
nvr seen it so long before.
hahas.
we had no choice but to play lan.
oh wells got kinda tired halfway through.
still, it wasnt so bad!
wnt to heartland mall after dear sent me off.
i saw so many ppl from my sch and everyone was like staring at me because of the way i dressed! pfft. its meant for going to orchard D:dear said i dressed like goth except im missing out the eye makeup. i dont put eyeshadow and besides, i didnt draw my eyeliner incase he found it weird :D
love ya dear!

i gave you a chance,
countless of times.
you didnt cherish the chances i gave you,
and everything is not a lie.
i have done my best to live my life with you
but did you?
its sad to say,
its the end of a beginning
and a beginning of misery and pain.
its gone..
its gone.

friends can tell the difference in me,
happier than before,
never gloomy again.
i used to sigh when i reached school,
i used to think life's painful for me.
but everything's changed.

i wanted to pick the knife again
but after talking to him
i threw the knife out of my sight.

why? why am i feeling this way?
as if...
everythings gone
im so confused
who betrayed me,
and who led him into all this trouble.
damn.
why is it so hard to trust?
WHY!??!?!
F.

im in such a pissypissymood.
quarrelled with me mom.
who cares.
nicole's 'MR.PEAR' might be coming to sch to find us.
hahahhahaaaa.
dear's gang maybe coming also but for another reason :D
oh they can help us out anyway.
plus we have support frm elicha's boy too
*evilgrins.

lil' veggies
looks cool right?

I TOUCHED THIS FOUNTAIN!

xD
THIS IS DELICIOUS. TRUST ME.
zzz..
looks yummy eh?
seen this kinda carrot b4?

mother's day at C.H.I.J.M.E.S.
p.s I SAW OLINDA AGAIN!

carrots and veggies from mustafashopping cntre.

FOUNTAIN OF WEALTH!

holiday!
(:
wnt to suntec for dinner.
i touched the fountain of wealth.
wheeee.
made a teeny tiny wish.
hees.
wnt to shop.
i want the clothes from mango and adidas.
:DDDD

my not-so-happy day.
my mood totally changed when i got back my maths paper2.
damn it i tell you.
nobody really understands me.
the most others parents say is,
study harder.
wat about me?
scolded lah.
i've already tried my best.
i HATEHATE YOU algebra.
but i passed overall but only by a mark.
damndamndamn
im in such a pissy mood.
and....

FCUK YOU JESSLYN.
showoff asshole.
i dont mean to be vulgar,
but i've already reached my limits.

they wanna send me to tuition.
I DONT WANT.
I HATE TUITION.
I HATE YOU BLOODY ALGEBRA!
i guess i have to break the promise i made to him.

sorry-
but im going under alot of pressure.
i cant take the pain anymore.

i FEEL like a CAGED BIRD.
there's not much freedom in me.
i have already tried my best to live my life.

such a useless asshole.
dont sympatise me.
im pathetic enough.

MR. HUNK xD

she knows her feelings are starting to fade,
but is she willing to take this big risk?
he's too precious to be lost.
and she's at a loss.

guess wat?
im gonna flunk my art.
YAAAAAAY.
-.-
i was barely done with my cubist art.
zzzzzzzz.

on sunday. on the way to restaurant to eat (:

my bday cake T-T

this was taken loooooooooong time ago. when i went malaysia in dec. my fave flower.





sometimes,
life's just TOO HARD to imagine.


this is the worse bday i ever had.
first time i cried in all my bdays.

had injection of friday. ouchouchouch.
its not the baby needle they used in pri6 injection.
its an ADULT needle.
its still hurting today.
2 injections on the same arm.
T-T

ANOTHER LIE,
ANOTHER INTERNAL CUT.
ANOTHER REJECTION,
ANOTHER DEPRESSED STATE.
JUST A LITTLE MORE LOVE,
is that so hard to ask for?

wnt to punggol park. i was feeling extremly sick. no idea why though. but i just kept quiet. played with those boys frm sengkang pri. i got a god bro xD heeh. they're so cute lars. borrowed bicycle frm some guys. den we walked to hougang mall. the lil boys came too. den i wnt home. i almost died. im super sick. sigh.

im gonna get good grades for my history test!
i hope xP
i studied REALLY hard.
hohoho.
before we left sch, madeline was walking infront of us and tying her hair.. and she spilt her half pony tail into two! me and wynne looked at each other and burst out laughing.no offence, but madeline.. u ****.
wnt to compass with wynne to get her free cake and $10 gift voucher.
i got things for free too xDDD
den find meryl and kris at the cafe.
went to punggol park.
played with the swings.

WHEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE.

i couldnt resist looking at the new wound,
slit , and blood oozing out.

he's unsure of his feelings.
she's confused.
she FEELS like a subsitute to him.
she's < / 3 .