i liedd agaiin. whyy. i dunn wanna lett you goo. wentt to heartland mall wit jemaine andd my dar`. to0k npps. s0bs.

criies.

y0u are the mostt precious thiing tuu mie.

love yoou.

1314

walaos. today make me stay back for nothing. i tot got band leh. until my fren told me. lucky she told me at around 2. lols. den take e bus back...got one girl from serangoon sec think she veri chio sia. she look like shit lors. den got one girl need to go down the bus den she bang her den she start talking to her fren saying something bad bout tt girl sia. im like wtf lors. attitude prob. den i jus came home lah. tts bout it yeahh..

todaee after schh mii, zuo yiingg and chee sengg wentt tuu heartland` mall. we went to kfc firrst to eatt denn we walkedd around. i saw until yiqingg and audreyy. hahass audrey the hairstylle verii nice worxs. denn we went tuu take neoprriints.



lols. tts all lah

I HATE YOU. no, not my dar`. iish someone else. actually u spoiled my mood. wanted to write bout you today. but going to heartland mall cheered me up. u lucky freako!

my precious

todaees i didnn't go tuu church. imma bad

catholic =(( my dar` doesn't like that. hmmm. oh yeah

todae lunch e whole family got togetherr.

we ate at a thai chiinese restaurant. i tried e tom

yum soup. a tiiny teeny lil bit. it burnedd mah throat and

tongue. lols. okiies. as promised. e pics wit gloria ytd.

wehees =))

avril rox!

so siann

i bought e tix!

still got 2 moree but 1 we look silly in it and

e other one dunno why got prob scannin it in. lols. cheers!

ytd i met upp wit gloria hahas. we went to buy tix

to avril's conert.

WOOHOO!

i can't wait =))

first we went to e sistic outlet at bishan.

the ppl there were NOT

frendly at all!

nono. feel like slappin em awake. HOHO!

but we didn't buy e tix

long story lah.

den we went to pick her bro

from NUS. denn we wentt to

parco and bought e tix.

de $50 one was already sold outt.

so we bought the $75 one.

now i'mm broke. BOO!

denn we went to eat at koo kee.

the fish was SUPER DELICIOUS!

denn later me and gloria went to walk around bugis.

finally after an hour,

we found the neoprints

so manii ppl ther sia.

i'll upload e pics another time.

okiies.

den we went to haf ice cream denn i went home

ok tts all...bbbyes!

ytdd wentt tuu study witt meryll , cam and cs.

actually we didn'tt reallii studdy much

jus bullshitt

around.

we scolded chee hock over

e phone cuz he

bullied chee sheng and merr

was madd at hiim.

i scoldedd hiimm too

i didnn't noee

whyy liife wass like that. you made me

do thiings i didn't want to do

why diid i fall for yeew?

i should haff nvr tolld yoo that

i lurfe yoou.

yes i do but

i wanna haf my freedomm

choosin which route i wanna take

i still love you

but e reasonns why i didn

wanna listen tuu yoo

was bcuz i wannted

yoo to accompanii`

me.

yoo werent ther

for me

alwaesz.

iish death beautiiful? i dunnch noe wads wronng wiith mie. i usedd tuu b happiex. somethinng ruiined mee. it mustt be yoo. took away everythinng fromm mie. e most important thiing iN e wurld. wher ishh e love? takiin another step closerr` tuu e world of darkness. i thi_ink iits gonna b overr forr us soon. i lovee youu.



onee sl_it tuu endd iit all`

kaoos. brought my f horn to sch todaee so manii kpos. lols. made upp mie mind. not gonna brin tit home anymoree. after sku i went tuu band. i was e best hornist player againn. yeahh! anyways, afterr readiin elisa's blog i feltt likee e old tiimes were backk. i donnt wann thiis tuu evar ruiin mii again. neverr. budd e temptatiion iish tuu biig.

*darr i dunn wann tuu lett euu go bring miie backk iinto e worlld of realiity. i dunn wanna lose you. neverr`

so mani things happened todae and yesterday. i have a bad memory lah. alot of things i wan to say but i jus cant remember. onli one thing to say. chee hock is disusting! my hand like jelly like that. i wasn't expecting it!

so siian...ytd mii went to orchard with lil cher...go read her blog larhs...mii veri lazee to type... hahas...okii tts it bb

todaee mii went backiie tuu sch ferr band. there are 3 horn playerrs butt onlii 2 to sparee. so somebody get kickedd out. well i was____n't ! YEAHHH i love mahh horrn =)) same goes tuu mah darlin. hoho. denn after that i came homee. denn i wentt tuu miie cousiin's barbeque. so siian dere. i felt so xtra. who cares. duh. okii thats it la...bb...

todaee miie,eileen,meryll,chuan huii,sandy,niigel,chee shengg,chee hockk and huii joo wentt tuu caii lii laoo shii's housee. itt was small andd cosy =)) denn afterr we wennt tuu hm...huii joo, ch and sanddy wentt home. wee wentt tuu take neoprintx. i'll upload anotherr day. denn mii and chuann huii stayyed backk to wallk aroundd. denn lata zuo yiing came...den ch wentt homme den both of uss go to mac and eat. denn lata she went hoome tuu. denn my mom and her frenn came and we ate sushii. yuummm =P denn miie broo wass nearr byy so we we_nnt forr a niice wallk. denn saw untilll hiis frenn and huii liing froom timo's class. yupps. deenn we came hoome. yepp. that's it for todaee. to euu noee huu...wo aii nii.! hahaHAHAHa tata!

i didn't expect this tuu happen.

i needed euu.

i dun wanna go on like this foreva.

every mornin i wake up into e world of emptiiness.

missin euu till thiis verii dayy.

goiin furtherr denn thatt`

i wanna see euu till e day comes

i dunn wanna lett euu goo.

i facedd realityy bcuz of euu

lightened upp miie liife

nvrr forgettiin euu for thatt.

darryl.

i've finally let euu go =)

i'm nvrr thiis agaiin.

thankeww.

i've stand on miie owwn twoo feet.

haiis. ytd got yamaha lesson....den yvonne nvr go...den next week no lesson....so unfair...i wasn't expecting this day. ryan umm. confessed to me...but i rejected him haiis. den i got to noe hu momo likes. hmm well....id didnt noe how to tell you this over e phone but...i didn't stop liking you....

ytd we went tuu e beach nearby to do cip. iit rawkss. den lata on we went to e playgrounnd. hahas. soo funn. go elisa's bloggiie iif youu wanna see e pics. ya denn todaee mii,cam, n jesslyn went to e lan shop to do research. but iin e end, we ended up playing gb. i wantedd tuu plae cs butt somethiin wrong wiith e com. hais.

happiest day of miie life. lols. kept laughin n laughin. durin recess, me n zuo ying went to canteen to eat den go to e library to find ryan. so weird lor mii and hiim less den 2 weeks den so close liao. hahas. den after sch we got ready for our last psl session. i guess ours is e best although we didnt haf water bombs. hoho. firstly that chee sheng dared me to put chocolate on his face. i did. lols. den e next target was benjamin. he also had choco cake on his face. wahahs. den chee sheng was mad and he ran after me with e choco cale lols. i ran like mad. he didnt chase up. though yun kai caught me. WaHha. den chee sheng went to smash e cake at timothy. so funny sia! even his shirt also have. den kenna caught by mr singh. gotta clean up e whole toilet. lols. of cuz in boys toilet la. oh yah. when timo was washing up, damian came into e toilet and smashed another cake at him. ridiculous. den e toilet all choco cake. ahha. den we went to classroom and talk bout our most valued thing. half e class was missing. i dunno why. lols. den we played do you lvoe ur neighbour? i was one of those who had not been caught. hais. so sian. liife stiil sux. i hatee myself.

                                                            

todae didnt went verii well either.....today recess dingqi told me something which i didnt want to hear most....den today at e speech i was damn nervous. lols. stumbled at e end. tooo freakin nervous. i cant believe it. why is tt ***** so damn fukin popular....so mani ppl scream for her....*pukes* urgh tts all fer todae...taaa

i sacrifice this time to write on my blog cuz i wanted to play my maple story. hahahs. todaee recess mi and diing qi went to e library. i went to borrow chicken soup and one asterix....funny when i borrow asterix i dun read one... hahahas. e chicken soup was nice i almost cried. lols. too emotional. wAHahaA . den mii and diing qi went down to outside our class the benches there to eat...den yuhan came den she started talking bout darryl....i sorta flared up and den the class boys started teasing me....die liaos...supposed to be a secret now im dead =\....den after sch got ryan ride e bus with me....hahas....keep joking for no reason....he still think i veri guai lors...like real man....haiss so sian....okii tts bout todae....

As the days pass slowly
And the weeks creep by
I find myself obsessing
About the ways I could die.

I lay awake at night
thinking of my pain.
There's no way it can get better;
I have nothing left to gain.

Suddenly thoughts of death
Are controlling my every move,
And every battle with my mind
I always seem to lose.

I no longer want to be around
The people i love.
All that I can think about
Is what's waiting above.

hais. todaee aiin't that badd as ytd. don''t wanna tallk bout ytd. worst daee of miie liife. anyway i'll come back tuu tat later. todaee i went to recess wiith diing qii. we went quiite well....actually she isn't verii bad. lols. we went to e library cuz ii wanted to borrow asteriix. aas usuall, all archiie comic taken. *sobsob. lols. aneways. after tt we went down and bought drinks and hung out outside our classroom. yepp. there allow driinks but no food. lols. cuz nearby got vending machine. as usual class went on. but todaee abit of diiff. for eng lesson. me and wynne got chased outta class....YEAH IT ROCKED MAN! HOHOHOHOHO den alotta ppl come say halo. so ridiculous sia. hahahha niice mann. okii i went to report to mr choo todae. he got a spare key, so i hadtaa talk alll my books n brin it home. it wighed a ton! good thing my good bro helped me with that. lols. alot of ppl tot he was my staed and i was like wtf! noway! -____________- den i came home and slept. yeeep. not enuff slp every day... oh yah i said i would come back to e topic right. now tt that "GIRL" haf soooooo manii frenns she liike to show off. todaee at artt lesson i happened to turn my head and saw her sitting with her DARLING LENSON and his group*EWW!* but they aren't steading. den she liike always so proud of herself lors. i'm so glad that we aren't frens =D! she ruined my life.


I HATE EUU.!

i'm so pissed. why ishh liife like tat? i lost my locker key and i'm scared to report, but i haf to. sometimes i realli wish i can leave this cruel world.todaee at band.my french horn ishh one of e mostt perfectt. amazingly, i can blow a high c. i was surprised that i can do that. e instructor iis proud of miie. lols. i didnt even practise my air speed. haiis. feelin so down. i dun noe why lars. i guess this song suits me most by my fave rock band, simple plan.

Do you ever feel like breaking down?
Do you ever feel out of place?
Like somehow you just don't belong
And no one understands you
Do you ever wanna runaway?
Do you lock yourself in your room?
With the radio on turned up so loud
That no one hears you screaming
No you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels all right
You don't know what it's like
To be like me
To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
With no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's likeWelcome to my life
Do you wanna be somebody else?
Are you sick of feeling so left out?
Are you desparate to find something more?
Before your life is overAre you stuck inside a world you hate?
Are you sick of everyone around?
With their big fake smiles and stupid lies
While deep inside you're bleeding

No you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels all right
You don't know what it's like
To be like me
To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
With no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life
No one ever lied straight to your face
No one ever stabbed you in the back
You might think I'm happy but I'm not gonna be okay
Everybody always gave you what you wanted
Never had to work it was always there
You don't know what it's like what it's like
To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
With no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like, what it's like
Welcome to my life

everythin is true in this song, bout me. life sucks.