the cane marks turned into blueblack ):
i was having my muscle ache at the same place too!
double ouchies =X

YAYAYYAYAY ANGCY THE SUCKER DIDNT COME TODAY SO DID MRS TAY!
2HRS OF FREE PERIOD!
BEST DAY EVER IN SCHOOL (:

he hung her phone,
the tears flowed freely,
as if there wasno end.
it tasted sweet,
but why her life was so bitter?
she looked at the scissors on the table.
fear ran through her mind.
she took it,
trambling.
carefully placing the blades over her wrists.
she began to slit her wrist,
slowly, carefully.
she did it again and again,
gradually getting faster everytime.
it was numb -
a deep cut printed on her wrist.
i lost my soul that day.

his words pierced her heart.
"even if you jump down from a building, i DONT CARE!"
is that wat a family member shld say for encouragement?
she got depressed -
her phone was gone.
no one to rely on,
no one to tell her troubles to.
he burst into her room,
demanding a reason for her messages.
she shrugged and pretended he was invisible.
he yelled.
and yelled.
he walked out of the room,
and and disappointed.
the tears came again.
he came in to yell more,
he didnt care.
a lady then stepped in.
a lady who was responsible for her life.
someone called mom.
she gave counselling.
but the girl had already thought for wat the lady had said.
she's already clearing part of the feelings.
for once when he steps out of this school,
its over, its GONE.
she wantsto show him,
she's not a weakling.
she looked at the scissors again.
maybe she's better off dead.
friends would rejoice,
no more worrying for him.
her 'friends' would already feel
happy upon reading this post.
i lost my smile that day.


really stupid day today. after sch went to water rise with meryl, kristle and glynis. weeeeell. it wasnt so bad. but abit sad lars. hais.

MY NOT-SO-FABULOUS DAY.
i reached kovan at 11.15! so he couldnt say i was late. he reached at 12 - and missed the train. and he refused to catch the nxt train. anger - until disappointment. i held my tears back, i didnt want this matter to ruin my whole day, but it did. me and eileen reached bugis at 12.30. meryl was stiiiilllll at home (: oh wells. went into guardian and eileen bought her facial stuffs. den were supposed to meet meryl and kristle at the national library. got lost. taaahaha. den eileen called meryl and asked for directions. when we walked out of parco, this crazy man whistled at me den walked past me. he kept turning at me and keep giving me a stupid grin! sicko ass. i freaked out totally. reached there and waited for them. den we went up to the 7th floor. tht person say it was for reference only, not for study. study lvl 5. den we went to the 5th lvl. WHOA. so many ppl there -_-! den we decided to go to the cafe to eat. starving you know! i had pasta*YUMYUM* with ham. not that bad actually but by the time i finished eating, i had the sauce all over my whole mouth. teeyong came and my mood changed so suddenly. no idea. i was quiet throughout the day. they studied for awhile den went shopping. i finally bought my bag!at bugis street. cant rmb tt brand. hahas. den we went into parco. meryl and kris and ty went to delifrance to study. me and eileen went shopping for her clothes. den we sat 80 and went home. den i only started talking. they were like trying to cheer me up the whole day. heeeeheee xP thanks!

sry for the shortie post ytd. my bro shoo-ed me off the com xP. anyways today's good friday. pretty bored actually. and im really really cold. my feet is actually freeeeeezing! oh wells, going out to buy the ink ele bag! cant wait xD the new sitting arrangement is like........ weeeell.............. no comments =X is too front and my neck was aching terribly at the end of the day.
oh yar...










ang cy sucks (:


she ADORES.

had 3 tests ytd! @#%#&$^*^(&^(%&Y @$%@#. surprise surprise. surprise test for chinese. did only 3 questions of 18 and got 2 wrong -.- left the rest blank. hees.

HAD history election speech today. i was pretty nervy. heh. oh wells, i pointed out all the good points ^^ mr maran said GOOD. wheeeeee. after sch glynis wnt to look for her guides tcr outside the guides rm. mr soh walked past and gave me an OMGWTF 'wat is glynis doing???' i gave him back an OMGWTF 'NONE OF UR BLOODY BUSINESS' LOL! gosh, i AM so lame >.< hse ="X" much ="B">

wnt for music lesson today =X did impro and can say i was the worst =XX how embarrassing. wnt to lan after tht. got police outside O.O i went in anyway since its sunday and i didn't do anything wrong ^^ den my 2nd aunt called and ask me and my bro to church. palm sunday. zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzs boooooring. =XXXXXXXX den wnt to have dinner. the food was quite nice but the timing was horrid. an hour passed and i still havent got my food yet. my aunt flared up. how embarrassing xP just came home. damn tired zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz my boy came to my house ytd just to deliver handmade cookies xD how swt. but matthew was complaining which kinda spoiled the mood. my bro liked the cookies! heh. <33s ^^*i was shocked!*

cross country today. woke up at like 5.45? lols. den reached kovan at about 6.30. den hae to wait for camii cuz she late -_- shld have take my own swt time xP we reached there like.. ermm.. 7.20? lols. anyway i WALKED with glynis, camii and ms teo. den got mokeys. damn cute. suddenly we saw a REALLY REALLY disgusting sight. 2 monkeys were doing YOU-NOE-WHAT(***)!!!!!!!! we screamed and we ran lols. den half way ms teo say she's nt feeling well. den we pei her walk back. thats my good deed for the year xP den we have to walk again. @$^%#&#%@%#^#%& lols. anyways we were the last 3 and i bet many ppl think we suck =X lol. we did a good deed thats why we're the last 3. triple L's eyes were like O.O when she found out we were the last 3. hahas. den got prize presentation. i cant haoyee was the first 20! unbelievable. hahas. anyways after tt we took taxi to go hougang mall. saw my hon there xP soo cute. we were like talking about ABC. hahas. last few days quite shocked. when i found out that DEF was with ABC all along. *frens, if u ask me, i wont reveal to say who they are. private and confidential.* before he left, he messed up my hair. maybe he didnt notice she was there. she looked at me den she looked at him. probably if he noticed her, he might not even talk to me. anyways, to cut a long story short, they came to my house to do the pw proj. den i send all of them t the bus stop. yihan insisted on taking 70 O_O. den later marie suddenly say she left her wallet at the bus stop. den we ran over the overhead bridge again. i was really exhausted. sorry marie! didnt pei u. hahas. =XXX

had english speech today xDD
my legs were shaking and i hardly did eye contact.
bad stage fright =topic's about PENISES =XXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXX
the history election wld be worse,
which is dooms day tmr.
i hate speaking into the mic
and i have no confidence!
zero gusto ^^
GAHH.
im sososo....
scared.
right now.
=XXXXX

looks cool huh?


i made this myself (:

im so lost i dont know wat to do;
its like im gone when you're out,
when your home then u only think of me.
excuses you give,
whether or not its lame.
my heart's been broken
time and again.
im really lost in this world of mine,
there's no one i can relate to.
nobody close to me, nobody cares.

i somehow think we're drifting apart.

PAINFULLY.

HAHAHAHAHA. THIS CAME FROM TJ'S BLOG AND IM PROUD OF IT! (((((((((((((((:

YOU RULE BITCH!


purr-lease.


besides than the chaos in class, PE was fun too. i got to chat wit bib and glynis ( those r my
favourite bitches in class) in the midst of runnin the 2.4 km trial. all except when i crashed and fall "fatally" at the finishin spot.
here's wat happened :
1) tze jie was runnin like a mad dog as he was finishin the last round of the 2.4km trial
2) out of his sheer joy, he tripped off the curb and fell in front of mr.HENRY chh, with hisstomach sufferin from the full impact
3) pain flooded through his body, later did he realise tat a DEEP cut was on his knee cap with blood gushin out "trememdously". IT HURT,,, LIKE sh**. his elbow was also a victim
4) ppl came and helped me out, but wat really touched me was bib and glynis showinthe most concern.

ms chew called me to do a question on the board today (:
i screamed NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO
the whole class started laughing.
meanies (:


its been a week since i last went there.
if the limit reaches 2weeks,
poof.
that's the end of us.

Oceans apart day after day
And I slowly go insane
I hear your voice on the line
But it doesn't stop the pain

If I see you next to never
How can we say forever

Wherever you go
Whatever you do
I will be right here waiting for you
Whatever it takes
Or how my heart breaks
I will be right here waiting for you

I took for granted, all the times
That I though would last somehow
I hear the laughter, I taste the tears
But I can't get near you now

Oh, can't you see it
You've got me goin' Crazy

Wherever you g
oWhatever you do
I will be right here waiting for you
Whatever it takes
Or how my heart breaks
I will be right here waiting for you

I wonder how we can survive
This romance
But in the end if I'm with you
I'll take the chance
Oh, can't you see it
You've got me goin' crazy

Wherever you go
Whatever you do
I will be right here waiting for you
Whatever it takes
Or how my heart breaks
I will be right here waiting for you

gah. just came back frm school. really pissed of now. so maybe i'd let off abit of steam here. our 'irresponsible' leader. she's SO 'kind' and actually ditched us for the more popular group! are they popular? no, i dont think so. no offence. u wrote about minghui didnt you? own up, we've got prove against you. you lie, u want to get sympathy from others and they side you. we're not lying, we saw it with our own eyes. creating a silly frenster account for us? u name us all prince and princesses but not yourself. you're so thicked skin. dare to do but dont dare to own up. obviously that post is not in ur blog cuz you deleted that post. too afraid isnt it? i dont care if u read this now, complain to your "BESTIES" for all i care. they can only help you to talk bad about us but are they willing to take any action? you filthy traitor.

finished class at 2. stupid hy say he wanted to talk to me. i knew he wanted to slap me. so i said no. den he say okok holy my hands. den he used his leg to hook me den i fell down! i went home with a brokened butt =(

im doing my cinema 4d now (: break time ya know. xDD



i wished i could turn back time; i regretted leaving you.
i've lost a loved one and dont wish to lose another.
sorry.

visited my dad in hospital again. have to go for op. but success only 67% -_____- dunno whther he wants to do it ornot =






HURT BADLY. BY YOU.

went to visit my dad in hospital. first my granma den eugene's dad, now mine. i was trembling when i went into the ward. im afraid to go into the hospital cuz im afraid to see all those people. hopefully things will go out alright. =


the reason for the brkup is unforgivable, it will forever be etched in my heart and that's somthing i wont ever ever forget. the reason's simply the same as my first ex.

stupid jamil caught my for my socks! i rather walk around the whole school without socks rather than buy one. hmmph.

IM GONE -
I LOST MY SOUL;
I HAVE NO MORE PASSION TO LIVE.
JUST LET ME GO.
I DONT DESERVE ANY OF YOU
EVEN MY FAMILY.
I HAD ENOUGH.

hey guys i think i'll be quitting blogging soon. cuz its like no one ever comes here to read or post a comment. maybe i'll blog for... err.. once a month if i have the mood? oh wells. this is my post for the week then =\

im terribly sick. just now went out to have dinner kept closing my eyes =fever headache sore throat flu!
flu's ok but i cant stand the rest.




im not supposed to feel like that but i do.

im REALLY PISSED now. pis me off and i'll bite ur head off =) i need at least a few hours to calm down!
you dont wan me to go ur hse den say lar. u always make me wait for nothing den go off on ur own. obviously ppl wait cuz they have a reason right? even i'm starting to get a little pissed by it already.
lessons were as usually boring today, except for history! im starting to love that subject. though i cant be bothered to memorize everything. i love mr maran! his lessons are very interesting! hahas. i ddint noe so much about ww1.. or was it ww2? errr.. oh well =
my frens say that she loves him but he doesnt. she wants to prove them wrong but she's got no evedince if he carries on like that. i guess the happy moments have already faded away in his mind.......

i didnt go bible class! glynis gonna rape me tmr =DDDDDDD dont really feel like going plus my hp confiscated so how am i gonna contact you?? hey i cant rmb ur number you noe. i've got horridly bad memory =)

we're drifting further apart,
it just hurts my heart.
i couldnt do anything,
i could only stand there and watch.
im suffering,
so are my grades.
where are you.
i've missed the old you so much.
maybe i should just stand aside,
or i should tell you whats wrong.
you'll nvr understand,
how sad i am.
fake smiles during the day,
tears for you at night.
u nvr knew.
and you'll nvr noe
how much i love you.

when i try to be nice,
all i get is SHUTUP.
i have lost interest in living,
there's no point carrying on anymore.
i try to be nice to my frens,
but they hate me more.
the day on sch misson,
they asked wht u wanted to give up.
the first thing that came into my mind,
this sucky life of mine which i cant get anything right.
i havent felt so depressed since lst yr.
it's a horrendous feeling,
watching everyone smiling with frens
just pain me more.
i had enough, enough of everything.
dont force urself to say
you like me if you dont.
i despise hypocrites.

im sure i was nvr a psrt of you.
yes, i accused you, but you denied.
im sure it happened anyways.
im sorry if i was mistaken then.
no matter or the good or bad.
the word DEATH.
it really scares me to death.
im afraid of it, im afraid of pain,
but i'd rather not face reality.
the future.
couples zivorcing each other.
after they marry each other,
things start to go wrong.
its hard to find someone so loyal, so faithful.
if u manage to find someone like that,
its one in a million.
i THINK my dad's cheating on me mom.
no, he doesnt have a mistress.
if he does, i'll hate him forever.
its something else.
i'd rather shut up about it than
have a brokened family.
my bro's followed his footsteps.
they think i dont noe,
but i do.
its hard to find someone who
doesnt watch all these obsence videos.
i noe he doesnt watch it,
i trust him.
but there's no guarantee that
he wouldnt start craving for more
after marrying.
you'll nvr noe.

came hm with a splitting headache. still abit mad him though,
but i still love him so =)

im living in doubt every moment of my life.
she said i forced glynis to go hm with me last yr.
tats nt true.
glynis cld go hm tt way too.
pls dont talk rubbish if u're nt sure wat's it about.





maybe i'd rather be happy than to be in a relationship.

i just discovered something which i shouldnt noe..

it hurts to find out that someone you love is doing something behind ur back..

i <3>
got back chi spelling today. super disappointed.

im only posting cuz of POPULAR demand =DDDDDDD oh well. glynis did you like ur present? its soooooooooooo prettaye. oh well i just liked the present that i gave to yihan it was SOO cute =) ahahas. well i just read glynis's blog and i totally agree with her. hahas. ytd during pe we were busy gossiping about her. i forgot to bring hr present today again. compared to her stupid chocolates my present is still more ex then hers =) serve her right then.

didnt go to sch today. now i noe who are those real frens and fake frens.

this world's full of rubbish, i wish i was gone.

i HATE those kinda ppl sucking up to someone. dying to join them. she doesnt even fit in lars. i really have no idea whats happening to the class. chaos everywhere. sigh.

i hate today. after sch i went to pri sch. shit totally regretted. shld have went with darren. but i saw him anyways. after 1 yr.. sigh den after tt go to shannon's hse. boooring den te guys asked me to go to quincy's hse. i didnt want to but they said if i nvr go means that i like darryl! which is totally NOT true. so i went anyways. but i decided to back out during the last min. yaya whatever they say i dont care. i went to compass to take 156 to go home. but i oversat cuz i was slping! stupid. den i didnt noe that shitty place den i just sat at the bus stop and did nothing. den suddenly 136 came! so i went to the other side to sit 136.. well i boarded the wrong bus! i boarded 135 instead.. i was half asleep! grr.. den it turned into bradell rd. thats when i sensed smth was wrong.. i only found out when i alighted the bus! good thing it was near serangoon mrt so i decided to walk there. den brendon asked me to meet him so i went to kovan. den i bought my stuffs and went home. dead tired. den i somehow made brendon mood spoil! i dunno whats wrong with me. maybe next time i shld just keep my big mouth shut. ytd was keane. today was my cousin. sigh i dunno what to do i just wanna break dwn. that stupid idiot doesnt even care. sigh i guess i wouldnt be talking that much frm now on.......

okok i hate today! but i shall start from the beginning. ahhh ESTHER i cant stand her fcked up attitude man. stop being SO proud of urself. and kristle fold her skirt until damn obvious.. the 3 boxes are in such a mess. mr ang lessons are STUPID. he scolded keane for nothing.. well i kinda guess its my fault and im guilty about it. anyways keane if you're reading this we're changing place soon after cny. you'll be with meryl which im sure she's much better den me! oh well gd luck to you then. and i cant believe it! my future is is like farfar away from tzejie. i almost cried when wynne told me that. mean sitting with cheehock and daniel is a BADBAD thing. den she changed them to kenny and chee sheng. not a bad thing. not as bad as the previous one though. lols. oh well. den after sch i stayed for the cca thingy. den after that went to class for the deco thingy. den we practically turned te whole class upside down. chee sheng was going mad - he kicked the tables and chairs then we finally found it *not the actual story i just dont wanna mention the facts*

i wnt to marie's hse after sch today. teach her the tonghua.. listen her play can headache... but she already can play 2 pages! see lah my patience so GOOD. im a GOOD teacher too. nono make that EXCELLENT! ahas.

CAMP!

the first day kinda sucked, sitting under the sun for hours. lunch was great though. curry chicken! havent eaten it for some time xD

the second day rocked totally. for breakfast we had nasi lemak. well i kinda hate the rice but the coconut taste wasnt so strong so i was pretty fine with it. it after that we went to have station game then the nature walk. it was HORRID. i kept complaining inside i swear i wouldnt ever ever ever come to this stuping hiking thing again. i already had tears in my eyes when a stranger walked past and said be strong and be brave. we were wearing our camp tees and the words were written there. well den i didnt give up. it was our theme for camp anyways. i just went on and on until nobody can tahan. so we went back for dinner.*YES WE HIKED FOR 4 HRS!* i hate the frink. i always always hate it. grape drink with extra water so it taste extremply yucky and plain. den we went to plan for our campfire item. den we sit there stare at each other for 50mins. den the last 10 mins finally come up with something. everyone was relieved but nervous obviously, cuz it was only planned out within 10mins. we decided to sing 'let the music hear ur soul'. the lyrics were nice so is the song. the campfire started outdoors but den it started raining so we had to move into the canteen. 2dil was first. i think we were the 4th or 5th. everyone was nuts about nigel leading us. and eileen too. its the best if you get a handsome guy to lead ya noe ^^ he still looks like a duck to me no offence. well after our performance we said a cheer and xiuyuan did his wushu. we went back to our sitting place and waiting for the scores to be up. guess what? FULL MARKS. we went nuts!!! i guess after tt we went as SIAO as diligence.. dancing on the chairs, dancing on the table! i love this camp. it helped to bond our frenship too. we are all frens now =) must thank this camp, if not we wld still be fighting i guess. well today was the prize presentation. nigel got the best male camper and our class was the best class. as usual we went nuts. on the bus back to sch we didnt stop cheering although about half the class lost their voice. we just kept cheering and cheering. teeyong asked us to keep quiet but we didnt listen. hahas. well. i just love this camp. i love everyone too =) i dont want this class to fall apart for the streaming. this wld probably be our last yr together. gd job ppl!

whats WRONG with the class. fancy arguing about who copied this who copied that. cant you jsut grow up? YES i noe you started calling tzejie a bitch first. but we started calling OTHER PPL a bitch. so pls stop saying that we copy you. we target EVERYONE not only tzejie. i don care whether you call him a bitch or a white bitch or whatever shit. if you think this is rubbish so be it.

i just accidentally cut my mouth. shit got blood all over. sigh i don understand why ppl like to argue over small things. who craete this who craete that la i don fren you you don fren me. which is totally RIDICULOUS. no, i dont mean elisa and wj. you shld noe who you are. only come to us when you need help. or when u alone. you're such a freaking bitch. I HATE YOU. filthy hypocrite.

the fairytale which started on the 30thnov ends now.

I LOVE THE BITCH TREND. it was started by me! although the grp is made up by glynis, tze jie and me. everyone copied our trend and started calling everyone a bitch. HAHA

ytd was cca orientation.. band performance really rocked! expect when tee yong dropped the stick.. i was really shocked cuz he nvr did drop it b4! oh well. it was a pretty fine day. thanks to DONKEY LIM HAOYEE*******! heh



****** requested by donkey

i hate today. but i loved the beginning. well me tj and rockie started the new bitch trend *haha* well i was the one who started calling everyone a bitch! well its for a joke only, not seriously. heh so i kept scolding kenny a bitch. it was hilarious. den came to pw. i noe tt they didnt want us. which actually spoiled my mood for the whole day.should have went with tj when he asked. sigh too late to regret now.


i just wanna breakdown;
life's too hard for me
i cant stand emotional pains
its a torture.
i cant handle this confusion
no one bothers.

WORK TODAY! i got 56bucks which is VERY little.. worked for 10 hrs today lol.sigh after work i went to eat with some ppl. i forgot their names ... cant rmb lah.. oh well it was okay today!

i wanna murder wynne! she wrote zheyue's name all over my window =( phoooo after sch went to work. quite simple lah though sit until my back very pain. i was working with wynneeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee and yvonne! we make a great team. hohohohohoho we did approx 700 cards. which is alot liao! today work 4hrs only den my back cannot tahan. tmr is work 12 hrs. i think i die le. aiyaa but im despo for money! heh heh. i wanna go to bsb concert!! i still rmb last fri damn funny. tze jie was turning around and talking to me den mr soh as was standing behind him den he suddenly tap tz den he scream like girl O_o den we kept laughing cuz mr soh's a pervert in our class haha. oh well im gonna watch project runway now! i really hate wendy pepper! pff.

FIRST DAY OF SCH. eugene went to hum. sad eh. den another eugene yip came in. small nerdy tooty looking. xDD well tze jie was nice to him! he sound like an english expert though. tj's got some competition for oral now. AHAHAH.

CHRISTMAS!!! YAY. CANT WAIT FOR PRESENTS! xDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD

COULD HAVE BEEN GAMING RAKION SINCE 3. COULDNt GET IN. GRRR IM SOSO PISSED OFF TODAY.

went to tampines mall today. brought my granma to toilet which really pissed me off. she ENJOYS taking her teeth out to wash. esp in the public. grrrr.

i'll be going to malaysia =) wont be coming back till next sunday or monday. tah.

went to lan with my bro today. after tt den went to st micheal's church. grandfather's anniversary. i think. during mass i had a very bad headache. i couldnt keep my eyes open! hehs. after tt went to have dinner. the whole family of cuz. plus cousins. den lyn was extremly angry. cuz the person who poured her tea spill until her table. see her angry i also scared sia. hahas.

i wnt to no.1 costume costume today. there were loads of ppl!! omg. just read cher's blog. she says shes coming back on the 12th!! what about the party?? ooohnnoooo i have to pay extra for cancelling the rental! omg. my parents gonna kill me! i gonna die... oh shit.. how to contact her.!!??

mom's bday today. wnt to heartland mall to eat at the hongkong stall. lst time was burger king. while walking there i saw yihan! but i couldnt stop to talk to her. my parents were way ahead of me =) den later when i sit down i happened to look straight. NIGEL LO! i was like aHHHHHHHHHh DON LOOK HERE! i used the menu to cover my face. lols. but later no choice to look up. if not very awkward. hahas. den he happen to saw me too. den just wave xD den after they gone... got a guy who took nigel's place looked alot of micheal! i wasnt sure whether it was him anot... but he looked shocked when he saw me.. maybe yes maybe no =X oh well my mom's fren came to join us for lunch. blahblah after eating wnt shopping. couldnt find anything nice! den home and sleep.. AHHH heavenly! my mom bought back a small chocolate cake. i give it 2.5/5. not tt delicious. zzzz

i wnt to ps ytd with glynis. i almost freaked out! i couldnt find my wallet and blABLAH. finally found it... good thing i wasnt late! we arrived at the same time ha :) den we waited for camilla and tze jie to watch hairy pottah. while waiting for cam, we went to spotlight. glynis was complaining SOOO much. arghh. i wanted to find hats but there were only those flat kinds! i need tall pointed ones. for cher's dress party. i didnt manage to look finish cuz glynis was extremly noisy. the movie really SUCKED. cut off SOOO many parts. zzzz.

wnt shopping with my parents today. bought a black dress for cher's fancy dress party. its preeeeetty =)

AHHH now SO many guys in my class have BLOGS! omfg. just linked them. minghui's blog lags like shit so i dont recommend you to go =)

i scalded my hand! damn that soup...

today after sch wnt to hougang mall with glynis. it was sorta boooring. sian.

sch holis are such a BORE. im gonna die when dec holi comes.

SHE LOVES HIM.

yeah!

chinese first lesson! i was playing dai ti with wynne alvin and eugene. we were playing under the table! haha damn xin ku lars. den after tt supposed to be mariah goh's lesson but our maths tcr took over her lesson and taught us statistic. i love the stem and leave thingy. after reccess she came back to teach again. den lce. damn boooooring. zzzzzzzzz......

UPDATED!

*UPDATED*
OMG. i went to east coast to have dinner ytd. me and my bro wnt to the beach and played for awhile. wen i came home i called wynne. she told me what mehmeh said. the tears just came. im so tired. so tired of everything. i regretted writing that on the sand. dont ask me what i wrote, im not gonna say. im just waiting for the hige tide to wash it away.

PFF. today damn sian. today chinese lesson wnt out to play. den the chinese tcr asked our names frm chee sheng. im damnpissed with her she's a total bullshit. got back my dnt results! a2! omfg- i cant believe it man! i got 3 a2s now! and one of them is chinese = =!!! oh well. i'm glad that they had a new start. what about us? i dont think its possible anymore........


BRKDWN.

pff. got back results today. i almost failed my geog, 50! HAHA. expected man! science also almost fail. i can't believe my chinese got 71.8*tts the overall*! must thank alvin for that =P some help. yeah.

i wan my nyny back. missed him like hell. i jsut didn noe hw to tell.

aft my yamaha lessons wnt to suntec with mom and bro. oh my GAWD. remind me NVR to go there again, cuz all we saw was CHAN BROTHERS*travel agency*. i got very pissed with my mom. den there was this really CUTE kolar bear and kangaroo. hahas. my mom wanted to go canada for a looong time. 6 mths. den when we went down to buy drinks there was this adult shouting at a teenage guy. my mom said it was about some boyfren thing =

<33 panda =)

finally the exams are over! time to relax. haha.

you suck.
you really suck.
i hate you.
fkin hypocrite.
you noe who u are.

problems. problems. problems.
EXAM FEVER!
arghh.

i saw eunice and mingjing today. mingjing kinda smiled at me but eunice sort of well... dao me... i noe i noe! *btw she's e band major* im SO guilty that i quitted band =( infact i miss afiqa! haiz...

AH.
VERY VERY VERY
VERY VERY VERY
NICE
storie.
www.i-believe-you.com


p.s if u decode e msg pls tell me!

i havent been updating for a looooong time! hahas.
i went to hougang mall just now.
got a cute lil kid singing mr loney.
HAHAS.

i went home with glynis and dingqi.
we sat 136 and there was
this REALLY CUTE
small guy.
he kept on singing
barney's song!
we were like singing with him.
HAHAs.

if she's a hypocrite,
i wonder what does she even bother
about me when she noes about that st. gab
thingy?

hmmmphs.
today after school went to
cine with some ppl.
chuan hui.camilla.sandy.darren.eugene.tzejie.
went to watch BROTHER'S GRIMM.
loved it.
although i got shock plenty of times
LOL.
darren paid for our lunch and taxi fares.
aint that good?

goodness. today so DAMN boring.
wad a pity ms tong came today.
if not haf free period le.

SHOPPING! i went to suntec today.

went to watch wcg with my bro.

so sian.

i cant understand a crappy thing cept for cs T_T den my mom called me up to the 6th floor.

all air tickets stuffs.

SO boring.

my legs almost break.

den lata went to queue for some kinda calcium test thingy.

my mom was fine. she was SO relieved hahas.

den went to carefour. bought a tank top. wanted to buy a berms too. but all v dirty. if nt size too big. so my parents gonna bring me somewhere else to buy. hahahas.

just came home. so slpy.

OH YES. THE MAD GIRL IS BACK. HOOOOOOOOORAY!!! CHECK OUT GLYNIS'S LATEST POST. I <3333333333333333333333333333333 HER! SHE PUT MY WORK ON HER POST!!!! YAAAAAAAAAAAAAYYYYYYYYYYYYY

the performance today was so-so lah. and i was like WTF when i saw ryan performing. sometimes i kinda regret. but today i REALLY regretted. =\ after the performances the whole bunch of us*i cant rmb who! wad do u expect from a girl who has extremly bad memory?* went back to pri sch. onli knew ms ng. den we walked past some classes. UNFORTUNATELY, we walked past mr lee's class and he asked us to wait in the canteen. his class pupils asked us to siam! and they were only pri 1! den we walked past 6r3 and they also scolded us! i was so DAMN angry! hahhas. den lata alvin's father fetched us back to sch. den had digital art. mr nicholas said our work was good!! all done by me. lols. cuz i wanna do. glynis just sat there and WATCH. i didnt really mind cuz its a piece of cake for me! xD after that we went back to pri sch AGAIN. i saw ms chan! omg i regretted how i treat her last time. she was so happy when she saw me! heh heh xD

today after sch me, glynis, sandy, alvin, benjamin, zuoying and hock hock(HAHAHAHA) went back to pri sch. THANKS TO THE DIGITAL ART TMR. @%#&$@%!#$ lols. saw ms ng and ms gan AHHH. even saw my pri 3 or 4 cme teacher. SHE RMB ME!!! i dont even rmb her lols. the teachers all noe me! hahas. went to eat hokkien mee. PRI SCH IS DA BEST! i nvr get to eat laksa. cuz we sneaked into the sch. wahahas. kunzi told me tt MR NG (the teacher which i DETEST most!) went on a SLIMMING SESSION. I WAS LIKE WTF. when i saw him today he looked as FAT as EVER! HAHAHAHAHA he can NVR SLIM DOWN xD
after meeting all e teachers we went to the chinese corner and started to play prank calls! BLEAHS. on nicole and zhe yue. SO funny. i couldnt stop laughing!

SONG BO
TIME TO OPEN BEERS AND WINES PPL!
THEIR ACC HAF BEEN SUSPENDED
WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOT!
I <3 GLYNIS!
MWAHAHAAHHA-

i thought bout him.
it was fine.
until ytd.
he was telling me bout mat and his stead.
ah wells.
i wonder how can she be so brave
when i always freak out when i see his frens.
i was considering a yes.
but something held me back.
it might be a no.
if u're reading this,
it isnt ur fault.
cause i haf a feeling that i'll be the one breaking with you.
i dont wanna hurt you.
i thought bout band.
very stressed.
felt like quiting.
von told me that it wasnt easy.
i am so. so. so.
pissed.
by looking at my seniors play,
thats it.
its the end of me.
i rather quit den fail my music test.
i noe i will pass my theory.
but...
it wont be easy for practical.
i will regret my whole life.
that i quit band.



suicide.
was the first word which came into my mind.
AGAIN.

tears.

i found a packet of cigarettes in the house.
if its my parents...
i hate them forever.
and ever.

SONG BO! got back our maths test today... for the first test i got FULL marks! xD but it was a retest. only change questions. lol. second test i got 31/40. lose to hock hock and alvin! aiya.. after sch me and glynis went to compass point to eat. we went to popular! I FOUND THE BLACK BOOK! but i didnt buy it cause i need to go to the toilet urgently... HAHAHA.


losted.

WALAO. today pe damn bloody one lor. me eli glynis and zuoying WALKED for the 2.4. den by the time we finished 2 rounds... the teacher told us that next week we had to RERUN. WTF. but he still asked us to run the last round. damn ass la waao..

just went to see doctor.. so sian...
ytd had family dinner..
had gifts from ruth from eygypt and spain!
its a perfume. i don use perfumes. haha.

haiz. today so sian. finally get to insult kristle. me and glynis called a a bitch and slut. HAHAHAHA.

HAH. today the parade so booooring. zzz.
after that went to orchard with cher.
zzz.
so damn tired.
zzz

sian.

aha. i was sick today. very sick. i bet i cant talk tmr.

got caught for not singin anthem and sch song.

also no name tag.

l0st my aqualip pen which i bought this morning.

got scolding frm mr toh.

i br0ke down in class.

silently.

noiseless.

they are all leaving me.

one by one.

kristle.

i swear im gonna have my revenge one day.

wait.

you just wait.

i tried to make a scar

on my wrists.

failed.

i will try.

until it succeeds.

depressed.
daybyday.

had band today.

i feel like giving up.

i really do.

im sick of everyone

around.

no one really cared.

they just treat

me invisible.

stop all the acting.

if you cant stand me den say it

i wont ever bother to disturb u again.

brokened.

had BAND today. rawkk biggie! me von and rowen sat taxi to sch cuz we thought that we were late. but in the end we were the first few! ahahas. den band started and blah blah. me and some ppl i forgot who sat ms lini's car to edgefield pri sch. cuz it was raining. hahahs. den we went for the dry walk.. sian... den after that we went to the canteen for some light lunch. den we started twisting balloons. heh heh. i was pretty afrid so i asked yvonne to help me to do. haha pro hors. after twisting the balloon we went for the parade. it rocked! band rawks forever. hahas. den we walked back to school. assembled in music room. den went home. von's dad fetch me! hahas. so kind. thats it!

lost. inside.

went shopping today. bought 2 skirts and a tank top. hahas.

today had band... haf to stand the whole day... now my hand whole the horn also the skin come out liaos... haiss..

i really DONT noe wad to do.

wtf. today step into call den chee hock showed me a sms. it was from kristle's BF. myass lor. that guy sure haf no taste. the whole class saying arhh. lazy to type more.. anyways...had band today.. it wasnt so bad... wasnt as bad as i expected.. amazingly i could blow out a b and c... i love it. i really do.

confused.

tired, exhausted, stressed.
you stepped out of my life. i lost everything. im hopeless. i dont know what to do.

IM BACK.yay!okayokay. time to update. only rmb some of the stuff. cant blame me. too tired to note down. heeees =)
day 1.
reached to airport at 9 plus.when me n my mom went to the boarding area, there was free internet access! but both coms are taken. pity pity. after we boarded the plane, the stewardess served me lunch first cuz im a CHILD ^-^. it was the first time i ever finished my lunch in the plane. haha. cept the mushroom of cuz. arrived chengdu at 4+. met our guide and blah blah. went to have dinner at 6+. it was HORRIBLE. everyone at the table was complaining. den lata we went to the hotel. we slept in the villa*cuz there were not enough rooms.the rest slept normal rooms.wahahaha. it costed 9999rmb per night actually. but the guide settled everything cuz we already paid the money. in singapore.
end of day 1.
okayys i cant rmb where we went for the rest of the days.but anyways. i'll update what i rmb. we went to see many lakes in the mountains and obviously the scenary was breathtaking. i rmb there was one day when we sat in the coach for about 12 hours. yeahh. but the hotel was VERY VERY VERY nice. 5star i suppose. we den went to watch a show. oh yeah the hotel is VERY big and haf alot of diff buidlings. the show was pretty nice. another day we went to see a show that a person's mask can change even before u blink ur eye. it was fascinating!den one day we went to look at the pandas. yeah it STINKED but hey....it was so damn cute! they're so lazy. hahaha. bought 2 cute pandas. oh yes! forgot to say that the tour was spilt into 3 groups, a , b and c. im in b. the last 2 days we went shopping. haha. bought a pink and black shoe and an adidas shoe. but obviously fake. not very nice either. the trip wasnt very memorable... there were to accidents that nearly caused a person's life...
first accident.
there was this day when we had to sit another bus to go up the hill. half of bus B ppl had to go to another bus.i didnt change to that other bus. the whole group C ppl came over. * 22 of them. the whole family. okay. im skipping this part. when we finished lunch, i heard that the old man from my group, *he's also sitting in the same bus as me. fell down the stairs and our tuor guide sent him to the hospital. i dunno how's he now but everyone loved him. he loves to joke. den after we came down from the mountain, the C group went away first. they left the half of group B there, lost. i was there too. the C group tour guide didnt seem to care bout us even though our coach was gone until dunno where. den quarrel loh. everyone hated her. den our coach came to pick us up. the other half like what the heck is going on??*i'll continue later, revenge is SWEET.the next day our tour guide told us that the old man's knee bone went the other way round. he was sent back to singapore immediately. never heard of him again. but hopefully he's fine. another day we went to spa. i couldnt swim or anything, sadd. girls shlod noe why. hoho. this hotel is VERY nice too. made of glass. oh yes. bout the revenge. the C group consist of a whole family, 22 ppl. den the last forth day the C group ppl quarrelled with their tour guide. **the girl who doesnt care bout us. cuz their rooms are not on the same level. yeahh. i heard that she was fired and they changed tour guide. hahaha! yayy...
second accident.
we were leaving chengdu... in the aeroplane.. i slept... den around 3plus am i was awokened by the announcement of the air stewardess... someone needed a doctor... lack of oxygen.. that person was from my group.. the 6 family ppl... had 2 boys...i tot it was the fatter one.. but i was wrong... i didnt believed it until the man who was sitting behind me came to tell me that it was the taller guy...i was speechless... he was a good guy... never seen him complaining bout anything... always laughing...quite handsome too... but before the man behind me came back i heard his mother screaming his name twice... i already knew his name but i still didnt believe.. i saw his mother praying...about 3 to 4 ppl were surrounding him so i couldnt get a clear view... i was speechless... i cant do anything... den i look around me and saw that everyone was praying... those font feww seats were ppl from my bus... he was in row 6 and i was in row 3... i started praying too... i think his mother screamed cuz he closed his eyes... i suddenly felt like crying... but he was fine after sometime... i overheard that he had an asthma attck... den i rmbed that he had help to load the first few luggages for checking... alot of ppl though of that too... but good thing he was fine... but he look so exhausted... i was so worried that i had no appetite to eat the food that the stewardess served us.. i kept turning around to make sure he was fine of cuz.. our eyes met most of the time but i was the one who turned away first.. when the plane landed alot of ppl was blocking my view so i thought i'll meet him again at the luggage so i took my stuff and leave first. at the customs i still didnt see him... after i took my luggage and said goodbye to some ppl i didnt see him either... after i got ready to go in the car i still didnt see him... after i left the airport i still didnt see him... jus wanted to tell him to tk care... den one of the teachers * there were 6 teachers on the tour. * told me that he saw the boy on a wheelchair... hopefully he is fine by now... hopefully....

going to china tmr...gonna miss everyone...gone for 9 days... ahh...gonna miss my com the most... tats it...gone...outta here...2 songs to express what i am now..

Everybody's got something they had to leave behind
One regret from yesterday that just seems to grow with time
There's no use looking back or wondering
How it could be now or might have been
Oh this I know but still I can't find ways to let you go

I've never had a dream come true
Till the day that I found you
Even though I pretend that I've moved on
You'll always be my baby
I never found the words to say
You're the one I think about each day
And I know no matter where life takes me to
A part of me will always be with you

Somewhere in my memory
I've lost all sense of time
and tomorrow can never be cos yesterday is all that fills my mind
There's no use looking back or wondering
How it could be now or might have been
Oh this I know but still I can't find ways to let you go

You'll always be the dream that fills my head
Yes you will, say you will, you know you will
Oh baby, you'll always be the one I know I'll never forget
There's no use looking back or wondering
Because love is a strange and funny thing
No matter how I try and try I just can't say goodbye
No no no no
never had a dream come true - s club 7

Empty spaces fill me up with holes
Distant faces with no place left to go
Without you within me I can’t find no rest
Where I’m going is anybody’s guess

I’ve tried to go on like I never knew you
I’m awake but my world is half asleep
I pray for this heart to be unbroken
But with out you all I’m going to be is incomplete

Voices tell me I should carry on
But I am swimming in an ocean all alone
Baby, my babyIt’s written on your face
You still wonder if we made a big mistake

I don’t mean to drag it on, but I can’t seem to let you go
I don’t want to make you face this world alone
I want to let you go

Incomplete

incomplete - backstreet boys

ahaha. this morning had band meeting. our section was supposed to come up with a performance. so we had to discuss. den we wanted to have eating competition.belly button competition den also have burp to make songs. also haf telling ghost stories.and finally we decided on a puppet show. maybe its about ghost stories. it'll be funny though. hahaha. leaving for china tmr! gonna miss everyone x]