i just discovered something which i shouldnt noe..

it hurts to find out that someone you love is doing something behind ur back..

i <3>
got back chi spelling today. super disappointed.

im only posting cuz of POPULAR demand =DDDDDDD oh well. glynis did you like ur present? its soooooooooooo prettaye. oh well i just liked the present that i gave to yihan it was SOO cute =) ahahas. well i just read glynis's blog and i totally agree with her. hahas. ytd during pe we were busy gossiping about her. i forgot to bring hr present today again. compared to her stupid chocolates my present is still more ex then hers =) serve her right then.

didnt go to sch today. now i noe who are those real frens and fake frens.

this world's full of rubbish, i wish i was gone.

i HATE those kinda ppl sucking up to someone. dying to join them. she doesnt even fit in lars. i really have no idea whats happening to the class. chaos everywhere. sigh.

i hate today. after sch i went to pri sch. shit totally regretted. shld have went with darren. but i saw him anyways. after 1 yr.. sigh den after tt go to shannon's hse. boooring den te guys asked me to go to quincy's hse. i didnt want to but they said if i nvr go means that i like darryl! which is totally NOT true. so i went anyways. but i decided to back out during the last min. yaya whatever they say i dont care. i went to compass to take 156 to go home. but i oversat cuz i was slping! stupid. den i didnt noe that shitty place den i just sat at the bus stop and did nothing. den suddenly 136 came! so i went to the other side to sit 136.. well i boarded the wrong bus! i boarded 135 instead.. i was half asleep! grr.. den it turned into bradell rd. thats when i sensed smth was wrong.. i only found out when i alighted the bus! good thing it was near serangoon mrt so i decided to walk there. den brendon asked me to meet him so i went to kovan. den i bought my stuffs and went home. dead tired. den i somehow made brendon mood spoil! i dunno whats wrong with me. maybe next time i shld just keep my big mouth shut. ytd was keane. today was my cousin. sigh i dunno what to do i just wanna break dwn. that stupid idiot doesnt even care. sigh i guess i wouldnt be talking that much frm now on.......

okok i hate today! but i shall start from the beginning. ahhh ESTHER i cant stand her fcked up attitude man. stop being SO proud of urself. and kristle fold her skirt until damn obvious.. the 3 boxes are in such a mess. mr ang lessons are STUPID. he scolded keane for nothing.. well i kinda guess its my fault and im guilty about it. anyways keane if you're reading this we're changing place soon after cny. you'll be with meryl which im sure she's much better den me! oh well gd luck to you then. and i cant believe it! my future is is like farfar away from tzejie. i almost cried when wynne told me that. mean sitting with cheehock and daniel is a BADBAD thing. den she changed them to kenny and chee sheng. not a bad thing. not as bad as the previous one though. lols. oh well. den after sch i stayed for the cca thingy. den after that went to class for the deco thingy. den we practically turned te whole class upside down. chee sheng was going mad - he kicked the tables and chairs then we finally found it *not the actual story i just dont wanna mention the facts*

i wnt to marie's hse after sch today. teach her the tonghua.. listen her play can headache... but she already can play 2 pages! see lah my patience so GOOD. im a GOOD teacher too. nono make that EXCELLENT! ahas.

CAMP!

the first day kinda sucked, sitting under the sun for hours. lunch was great though. curry chicken! havent eaten it for some time xD

the second day rocked totally. for breakfast we had nasi lemak. well i kinda hate the rice but the coconut taste wasnt so strong so i was pretty fine with it. it after that we went to have station game then the nature walk. it was HORRID. i kept complaining inside i swear i wouldnt ever ever ever come to this stuping hiking thing again. i already had tears in my eyes when a stranger walked past and said be strong and be brave. we were wearing our camp tees and the words were written there. well den i didnt give up. it was our theme for camp anyways. i just went on and on until nobody can tahan. so we went back for dinner.*YES WE HIKED FOR 4 HRS!* i hate the frink. i always always hate it. grape drink with extra water so it taste extremply yucky and plain. den we went to plan for our campfire item. den we sit there stare at each other for 50mins. den the last 10 mins finally come up with something. everyone was relieved but nervous obviously, cuz it was only planned out within 10mins. we decided to sing 'let the music hear ur soul'. the lyrics were nice so is the song. the campfire started outdoors but den it started raining so we had to move into the canteen. 2dil was first. i think we were the 4th or 5th. everyone was nuts about nigel leading us. and eileen too. its the best if you get a handsome guy to lead ya noe ^^ he still looks like a duck to me no offence. well after our performance we said a cheer and xiuyuan did his wushu. we went back to our sitting place and waiting for the scores to be up. guess what? FULL MARKS. we went nuts!!! i guess after tt we went as SIAO as diligence.. dancing on the chairs, dancing on the table! i love this camp. it helped to bond our frenship too. we are all frens now =) must thank this camp, if not we wld still be fighting i guess. well today was the prize presentation. nigel got the best male camper and our class was the best class. as usual we went nuts. on the bus back to sch we didnt stop cheering although about half the class lost their voice. we just kept cheering and cheering. teeyong asked us to keep quiet but we didnt listen. hahas. well. i just love this camp. i love everyone too =) i dont want this class to fall apart for the streaming. this wld probably be our last yr together. gd job ppl!

whats WRONG with the class. fancy arguing about who copied this who copied that. cant you jsut grow up? YES i noe you started calling tzejie a bitch first. but we started calling OTHER PPL a bitch. so pls stop saying that we copy you. we target EVERYONE not only tzejie. i don care whether you call him a bitch or a white bitch or whatever shit. if you think this is rubbish so be it.

i just accidentally cut my mouth. shit got blood all over. sigh i don understand why ppl like to argue over small things. who craete this who craete that la i don fren you you don fren me. which is totally RIDICULOUS. no, i dont mean elisa and wj. you shld noe who you are. only come to us when you need help. or when u alone. you're such a freaking bitch. I HATE YOU. filthy hypocrite.

the fairytale which started on the 30thnov ends now.

I LOVE THE BITCH TREND. it was started by me! although the grp is made up by glynis, tze jie and me. everyone copied our trend and started calling everyone a bitch. HAHA

ytd was cca orientation.. band performance really rocked! expect when tee yong dropped the stick.. i was really shocked cuz he nvr did drop it b4! oh well. it was a pretty fine day. thanks to DONKEY LIM HAOYEE*******! heh



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i hate today. but i loved the beginning. well me tj and rockie started the new bitch trend *haha* well i was the one who started calling everyone a bitch! well its for a joke only, not seriously. heh so i kept scolding kenny a bitch. it was hilarious. den came to pw. i noe tt they didnt want us. which actually spoiled my mood for the whole day.should have went with tj when he asked. sigh too late to regret now.


i just wanna breakdown;
life's too hard for me
i cant stand emotional pains
its a torture.
i cant handle this confusion
no one bothers.

WORK TODAY! i got 56bucks which is VERY little.. worked for 10 hrs today lol.sigh after work i went to eat with some ppl. i forgot their names ... cant rmb lah.. oh well it was okay today!

i wanna murder wynne! she wrote zheyue's name all over my window =( phoooo after sch went to work. quite simple lah though sit until my back very pain. i was working with wynneeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee and yvonne! we make a great team. hohohohohoho we did approx 700 cards. which is alot liao! today work 4hrs only den my back cannot tahan. tmr is work 12 hrs. i think i die le. aiyaa but im despo for money! heh heh. i wanna go to bsb concert!! i still rmb last fri damn funny. tze jie was turning around and talking to me den mr soh as was standing behind him den he suddenly tap tz den he scream like girl O_o den we kept laughing cuz mr soh's a pervert in our class haha. oh well im gonna watch project runway now! i really hate wendy pepper! pff.

FIRST DAY OF SCH. eugene went to hum. sad eh. den another eugene yip came in. small nerdy tooty looking. xDD well tze jie was nice to him! he sound like an english expert though. tj's got some competition for oral now. AHAHAH.

CHRISTMAS!!! YAY. CANT WAIT FOR PRESENTS! xDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD

COULD HAVE BEEN GAMING RAKION SINCE 3. COULDNt GET IN. GRRR IM SOSO PISSED OFF TODAY.

went to tampines mall today. brought my granma to toilet which really pissed me off. she ENJOYS taking her teeth out to wash. esp in the public. grrrr.

i'll be going to malaysia =) wont be coming back till next sunday or monday. tah.

went to lan with my bro today. after tt den went to st micheal's church. grandfather's anniversary. i think. during mass i had a very bad headache. i couldnt keep my eyes open! hehs. after tt went to have dinner. the whole family of cuz. plus cousins. den lyn was extremly angry. cuz the person who poured her tea spill until her table. see her angry i also scared sia. hahas.

i wnt to no.1 costume costume today. there were loads of ppl!! omg. just read cher's blog. she says shes coming back on the 12th!! what about the party?? ooohnnoooo i have to pay extra for cancelling the rental! omg. my parents gonna kill me! i gonna die... oh shit.. how to contact her.!!??

mom's bday today. wnt to heartland mall to eat at the hongkong stall. lst time was burger king. while walking there i saw yihan! but i couldnt stop to talk to her. my parents were way ahead of me =) den later when i sit down i happened to look straight. NIGEL LO! i was like aHHHHHHHHHh DON LOOK HERE! i used the menu to cover my face. lols. but later no choice to look up. if not very awkward. hahas. den he happen to saw me too. den just wave xD den after they gone... got a guy who took nigel's place looked alot of micheal! i wasnt sure whether it was him anot... but he looked shocked when he saw me.. maybe yes maybe no =X oh well my mom's fren came to join us for lunch. blahblah after eating wnt shopping. couldnt find anything nice! den home and sleep.. AHHH heavenly! my mom bought back a small chocolate cake. i give it 2.5/5. not tt delicious. zzzz

i wnt to ps ytd with glynis. i almost freaked out! i couldnt find my wallet and blABLAH. finally found it... good thing i wasnt late! we arrived at the same time ha :) den we waited for camilla and tze jie to watch hairy pottah. while waiting for cam, we went to spotlight. glynis was complaining SOOO much. arghh. i wanted to find hats but there were only those flat kinds! i need tall pointed ones. for cher's dress party. i didnt manage to look finish cuz glynis was extremly noisy. the movie really SUCKED. cut off SOOO many parts. zzzz.

wnt shopping with my parents today. bought a black dress for cher's fancy dress party. its preeeeetty =)

AHHH now SO many guys in my class have BLOGS! omfg. just linked them. minghui's blog lags like shit so i dont recommend you to go =)

i scalded my hand! damn that soup...

today after sch wnt to hougang mall with glynis. it was sorta boooring. sian.

sch holis are such a BORE. im gonna die when dec holi comes.

SHE LOVES HIM.

yeah!

chinese first lesson! i was playing dai ti with wynne alvin and eugene. we were playing under the table! haha damn xin ku lars. den after tt supposed to be mariah goh's lesson but our maths tcr took over her lesson and taught us statistic. i love the stem and leave thingy. after reccess she came back to teach again. den lce. damn boooooring. zzzzzzzzz......

UPDATED!

*UPDATED*
OMG. i went to east coast to have dinner ytd. me and my bro wnt to the beach and played for awhile. wen i came home i called wynne. she told me what mehmeh said. the tears just came. im so tired. so tired of everything. i regretted writing that on the sand. dont ask me what i wrote, im not gonna say. im just waiting for the hige tide to wash it away.

PFF. today damn sian. today chinese lesson wnt out to play. den the chinese tcr asked our names frm chee sheng. im damnpissed with her she's a total bullshit. got back my dnt results! a2! omfg- i cant believe it man! i got 3 a2s now! and one of them is chinese = =!!! oh well. i'm glad that they had a new start. what about us? i dont think its possible anymore........


BRKDWN.

pff. got back results today. i almost failed my geog, 50! HAHA. expected man! science also almost fail. i can't believe my chinese got 71.8*tts the overall*! must thank alvin for that =P some help. yeah.

i wan my nyny back. missed him like hell. i jsut didn noe hw to tell.

aft my yamaha lessons wnt to suntec with mom and bro. oh my GAWD. remind me NVR to go there again, cuz all we saw was CHAN BROTHERS*travel agency*. i got very pissed with my mom. den there was this really CUTE kolar bear and kangaroo. hahas. my mom wanted to go canada for a looong time. 6 mths. den when we went down to buy drinks there was this adult shouting at a teenage guy. my mom said it was about some boyfren thing =

<33 panda =)

finally the exams are over! time to relax. haha.

you suck.
you really suck.
i hate you.
fkin hypocrite.
you noe who u are.

problems. problems. problems.
EXAM FEVER!
arghh.

i saw eunice and mingjing today. mingjing kinda smiled at me but eunice sort of well... dao me... i noe i noe! *btw she's e band major* im SO guilty that i quitted band =( infact i miss afiqa! haiz...

AH.
VERY VERY VERY
VERY VERY VERY
NICE
storie.
www.i-believe-you.com


p.s if u decode e msg pls tell me!

i havent been updating for a looooong time! hahas.
i went to hougang mall just now.
got a cute lil kid singing mr loney.
HAHAS.

i went home with glynis and dingqi.
we sat 136 and there was
this REALLY CUTE
small guy.
he kept on singing
barney's song!
we were like singing with him.
HAHAs.

if she's a hypocrite,
i wonder what does she even bother
about me when she noes about that st. gab
thingy?

hmmmphs.
today after school went to
cine with some ppl.
chuan hui.camilla.sandy.darren.eugene.tzejie.
went to watch BROTHER'S GRIMM.
loved it.
although i got shock plenty of times
LOL.
darren paid for our lunch and taxi fares.
aint that good?

goodness. today so DAMN boring.
wad a pity ms tong came today.
if not haf free period le.

SHOPPING! i went to suntec today.

went to watch wcg with my bro.

so sian.

i cant understand a crappy thing cept for cs T_T den my mom called me up to the 6th floor.

all air tickets stuffs.

SO boring.

my legs almost break.

den lata went to queue for some kinda calcium test thingy.

my mom was fine. she was SO relieved hahas.

den went to carefour. bought a tank top. wanted to buy a berms too. but all v dirty. if nt size too big. so my parents gonna bring me somewhere else to buy. hahahas.

just came home. so slpy.

OH YES. THE MAD GIRL IS BACK. HOOOOOOOOORAY!!! CHECK OUT GLYNIS'S LATEST POST. I <3333333333333333333333333333333 HER! SHE PUT MY WORK ON HER POST!!!! YAAAAAAAAAAAAAYYYYYYYYYYYYY

the performance today was so-so lah. and i was like WTF when i saw ryan performing. sometimes i kinda regret. but today i REALLY regretted. =\ after the performances the whole bunch of us*i cant rmb who! wad do u expect from a girl who has extremly bad memory?* went back to pri sch. onli knew ms ng. den we walked past some classes. UNFORTUNATELY, we walked past mr lee's class and he asked us to wait in the canteen. his class pupils asked us to siam! and they were only pri 1! den we walked past 6r3 and they also scolded us! i was so DAMN angry! hahhas. den lata alvin's father fetched us back to sch. den had digital art. mr nicholas said our work was good!! all done by me. lols. cuz i wanna do. glynis just sat there and WATCH. i didnt really mind cuz its a piece of cake for me! xD after that we went back to pri sch AGAIN. i saw ms chan! omg i regretted how i treat her last time. she was so happy when she saw me! heh heh xD

today after sch me, glynis, sandy, alvin, benjamin, zuoying and hock hock(HAHAHAHA) went back to pri sch. THANKS TO THE DIGITAL ART TMR. @%#&$@%!#$ lols. saw ms ng and ms gan AHHH. even saw my pri 3 or 4 cme teacher. SHE RMB ME!!! i dont even rmb her lols. the teachers all noe me! hahas. went to eat hokkien mee. PRI SCH IS DA BEST! i nvr get to eat laksa. cuz we sneaked into the sch. wahahas. kunzi told me tt MR NG (the teacher which i DETEST most!) went on a SLIMMING SESSION. I WAS LIKE WTF. when i saw him today he looked as FAT as EVER! HAHAHAHAHA he can NVR SLIM DOWN xD
after meeting all e teachers we went to the chinese corner and started to play prank calls! BLEAHS. on nicole and zhe yue. SO funny. i couldnt stop laughing!

SONG BO
TIME TO OPEN BEERS AND WINES PPL!
THEIR ACC HAF BEEN SUSPENDED
WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOT!
I <3 GLYNIS!
MWAHAHAAHHA-

i thought bout him.
it was fine.
until ytd.
he was telling me bout mat and his stead.
ah wells.
i wonder how can she be so brave
when i always freak out when i see his frens.
i was considering a yes.
but something held me back.
it might be a no.
if u're reading this,
it isnt ur fault.
cause i haf a feeling that i'll be the one breaking with you.
i dont wanna hurt you.
i thought bout band.
very stressed.
felt like quiting.
von told me that it wasnt easy.
i am so. so. so.
pissed.
by looking at my seniors play,
thats it.
its the end of me.
i rather quit den fail my music test.
i noe i will pass my theory.
but...
it wont be easy for practical.
i will regret my whole life.
that i quit band.



suicide.
was the first word which came into my mind.
AGAIN.

tears.

i found a packet of cigarettes in the house.
if its my parents...
i hate them forever.
and ever.

SONG BO! got back our maths test today... for the first test i got FULL marks! xD but it was a retest. only change questions. lol. second test i got 31/40. lose to hock hock and alvin! aiya.. after sch me and glynis went to compass point to eat. we went to popular! I FOUND THE BLACK BOOK! but i didnt buy it cause i need to go to the toilet urgently... HAHAHA.


losted.

WALAO. today pe damn bloody one lor. me eli glynis and zuoying WALKED for the 2.4. den by the time we finished 2 rounds... the teacher told us that next week we had to RERUN. WTF. but he still asked us to run the last round. damn ass la waao..

just went to see doctor.. so sian...
ytd had family dinner..
had gifts from ruth from eygypt and spain!
its a perfume. i don use perfumes. haha.

haiz. today so sian. finally get to insult kristle. me and glynis called a a bitch and slut. HAHAHAHA.

HAH. today the parade so booooring. zzz.
after that went to orchard with cher.
zzz.
so damn tired.
zzz

sian.

aha. i was sick today. very sick. i bet i cant talk tmr.

got caught for not singin anthem and sch song.

also no name tag.

l0st my aqualip pen which i bought this morning.

got scolding frm mr toh.

i br0ke down in class.

silently.

noiseless.

they are all leaving me.

one by one.

kristle.

i swear im gonna have my revenge one day.

wait.

you just wait.

i tried to make a scar

on my wrists.

failed.

i will try.

until it succeeds.

depressed.
daybyday.

had band today.

i feel like giving up.

i really do.

im sick of everyone

around.

no one really cared.

they just treat

me invisible.

stop all the acting.

if you cant stand me den say it

i wont ever bother to disturb u again.

brokened.

had BAND today. rawkk biggie! me von and rowen sat taxi to sch cuz we thought that we were late. but in the end we were the first few! ahahas. den band started and blah blah. me and some ppl i forgot who sat ms lini's car to edgefield pri sch. cuz it was raining. hahahs. den we went for the dry walk.. sian... den after that we went to the canteen for some light lunch. den we started twisting balloons. heh heh. i was pretty afrid so i asked yvonne to help me to do. haha pro hors. after twisting the balloon we went for the parade. it rocked! band rawks forever. hahas. den we walked back to school. assembled in music room. den went home. von's dad fetch me! hahas. so kind. thats it!

lost. inside.

went shopping today. bought 2 skirts and a tank top. hahas.

today had band... haf to stand the whole day... now my hand whole the horn also the skin come out liaos... haiss..

i really DONT noe wad to do.

wtf. today step into call den chee hock showed me a sms. it was from kristle's BF. myass lor. that guy sure haf no taste. the whole class saying arhh. lazy to type more.. anyways...had band today.. it wasnt so bad... wasnt as bad as i expected.. amazingly i could blow out a b and c... i love it. i really do.

confused.

tired, exhausted, stressed.
you stepped out of my life. i lost everything. im hopeless. i dont know what to do.

IM BACK.yay!okayokay. time to update. only rmb some of the stuff. cant blame me. too tired to note down. heeees =)
day 1.
reached to airport at 9 plus.when me n my mom went to the boarding area, there was free internet access! but both coms are taken. pity pity. after we boarded the plane, the stewardess served me lunch first cuz im a CHILD ^-^. it was the first time i ever finished my lunch in the plane. haha. cept the mushroom of cuz. arrived chengdu at 4+. met our guide and blah blah. went to have dinner at 6+. it was HORRIBLE. everyone at the table was complaining. den lata we went to the hotel. we slept in the villa*cuz there were not enough rooms.the rest slept normal rooms.wahahaha. it costed 9999rmb per night actually. but the guide settled everything cuz we already paid the money. in singapore.
end of day 1.
okayys i cant rmb where we went for the rest of the days.but anyways. i'll update what i rmb. we went to see many lakes in the mountains and obviously the scenary was breathtaking. i rmb there was one day when we sat in the coach for about 12 hours. yeahh. but the hotel was VERY VERY VERY nice. 5star i suppose. we den went to watch a show. oh yeah the hotel is VERY big and haf alot of diff buidlings. the show was pretty nice. another day we went to see a show that a person's mask can change even before u blink ur eye. it was fascinating!den one day we went to look at the pandas. yeah it STINKED but hey....it was so damn cute! they're so lazy. hahaha. bought 2 cute pandas. oh yes! forgot to say that the tour was spilt into 3 groups, a , b and c. im in b. the last 2 days we went shopping. haha. bought a pink and black shoe and an adidas shoe. but obviously fake. not very nice either. the trip wasnt very memorable... there were to accidents that nearly caused a person's life...
first accident.
there was this day when we had to sit another bus to go up the hill. half of bus B ppl had to go to another bus.i didnt change to that other bus. the whole group C ppl came over. * 22 of them. the whole family. okay. im skipping this part. when we finished lunch, i heard that the old man from my group, *he's also sitting in the same bus as me. fell down the stairs and our tuor guide sent him to the hospital. i dunno how's he now but everyone loved him. he loves to joke. den after we came down from the mountain, the C group went away first. they left the half of group B there, lost. i was there too. the C group tour guide didnt seem to care bout us even though our coach was gone until dunno where. den quarrel loh. everyone hated her. den our coach came to pick us up. the other half like what the heck is going on??*i'll continue later, revenge is SWEET.the next day our tour guide told us that the old man's knee bone went the other way round. he was sent back to singapore immediately. never heard of him again. but hopefully he's fine. another day we went to spa. i couldnt swim or anything, sadd. girls shlod noe why. hoho. this hotel is VERY nice too. made of glass. oh yes. bout the revenge. the C group consist of a whole family, 22 ppl. den the last forth day the C group ppl quarrelled with their tour guide. **the girl who doesnt care bout us. cuz their rooms are not on the same level. yeahh. i heard that she was fired and they changed tour guide. hahaha! yayy...
second accident.
we were leaving chengdu... in the aeroplane.. i slept... den around 3plus am i was awokened by the announcement of the air stewardess... someone needed a doctor... lack of oxygen.. that person was from my group.. the 6 family ppl... had 2 boys...i tot it was the fatter one.. but i was wrong... i didnt believed it until the man who was sitting behind me came to tell me that it was the taller guy...i was speechless... he was a good guy... never seen him complaining bout anything... always laughing...quite handsome too... but before the man behind me came back i heard his mother screaming his name twice... i already knew his name but i still didnt believe.. i saw his mother praying...about 3 to 4 ppl were surrounding him so i couldnt get a clear view... i was speechless... i cant do anything... den i look around me and saw that everyone was praying... those font feww seats were ppl from my bus... he was in row 6 and i was in row 3... i started praying too... i think his mother screamed cuz he closed his eyes... i suddenly felt like crying... but he was fine after sometime... i overheard that he had an asthma attck... den i rmbed that he had help to load the first few luggages for checking... alot of ppl though of that too... but good thing he was fine... but he look so exhausted... i was so worried that i had no appetite to eat the food that the stewardess served us.. i kept turning around to make sure he was fine of cuz.. our eyes met most of the time but i was the one who turned away first.. when the plane landed alot of ppl was blocking my view so i thought i'll meet him again at the luggage so i took my stuff and leave first. at the customs i still didnt see him... after i took my luggage and said goodbye to some ppl i didnt see him either... after i got ready to go in the car i still didnt see him... after i left the airport i still didnt see him... jus wanted to tell him to tk care... den one of the teachers * there were 6 teachers on the tour. * told me that he saw the boy on a wheelchair... hopefully he is fine by now... hopefully....

going to china tmr...gonna miss everyone...gone for 9 days... ahh...gonna miss my com the most... tats it...gone...outta here...2 songs to express what i am now..

Everybody's got something they had to leave behind
One regret from yesterday that just seems to grow with time
There's no use looking back or wondering
How it could be now or might have been
Oh this I know but still I can't find ways to let you go

I've never had a dream come true
Till the day that I found you
Even though I pretend that I've moved on
You'll always be my baby
I never found the words to say
You're the one I think about each day
And I know no matter where life takes me to
A part of me will always be with you

Somewhere in my memory
I've lost all sense of time
and tomorrow can never be cos yesterday is all that fills my mind
There's no use looking back or wondering
How it could be now or might have been
Oh this I know but still I can't find ways to let you go

You'll always be the dream that fills my head
Yes you will, say you will, you know you will
Oh baby, you'll always be the one I know I'll never forget
There's no use looking back or wondering
Because love is a strange and funny thing
No matter how I try and try I just can't say goodbye
No no no no
never had a dream come true - s club 7

Empty spaces fill me up with holes
Distant faces with no place left to go
Without you within me I can’t find no rest
Where I’m going is anybody’s guess

I’ve tried to go on like I never knew you
I’m awake but my world is half asleep
I pray for this heart to be unbroken
But with out you all I’m going to be is incomplete

Voices tell me I should carry on
But I am swimming in an ocean all alone
Baby, my babyIt’s written on your face
You still wonder if we made a big mistake

I don’t mean to drag it on, but I can’t seem to let you go
I don’t want to make you face this world alone
I want to let you go

Incomplete

incomplete - backstreet boys

ahaha. this morning had band meeting. our section was supposed to come up with a performance. so we had to discuss. den we wanted to have eating competition.belly button competition den also have burp to make songs. also haf telling ghost stories.and finally we decided on a puppet show. maybe its about ghost stories. it'll be funny though. hahaha. leaving for china tmr! gonna miss everyone x]

going to china on the 11.
gonna miss my frens.
gonna miss my com!



HIM*

went out with cher and amanda today...
it was okay..
onli spent my money on FOOD
and nps.

exhausted.
if onli i could turn back time.
and took back all the things i said.

listening to tonghua (:
almost cried when i first heard it.
ahhh.

tuesday and wed i went to sch at 8 at archery (: it was sooooo fun! im gonna miss it soooo badly ): im considering to sign up for the archery course though! today got back the report books. i got 11 in class! arghh so lan. i even lost to kunzi! boos ` she was also surprised when i told her my position. but i won wynne! hahaha.

YAY. so DARN happy. my eng wasnt 70 btw. that was for ca1. oh YES. im SO happy because HE was finally off my mind. i can relax now =) i feel great. totally! awesome! ahah

whee`
i got back my results.
my eng overall got 70!
chinese - 60
maths - 88 *lose to chee hock... dammmmn!
science - 57.5
history - 50!
literature - 43! 8 the whole class filed except for tze jie..wtf

PISSED. over him.

i got back my results.

chi 62.

hist 50.

eng 43/80.

haizz.

when i first met yoo-

yoo painted mie world.

with colours

after sometime-

yoo took the colours away.

yoo wiped the simle

off mie face

`leave mie alone

milesaway"

lyfe is NOT the same

without yoo.

dont leave mie

HANGING

on such a breakable thread.

my lyfe screwdd upp

the moment yoo

stepped out of

mie lyfe.

yoo just SHUT THE DOOR;;

silently.

//

SMILE-

like yoo did before -*

dreams]

SHATTERED.

"tears.

//

yootoldmie

tokeepyooin

prayerr;;

i prayed.

for yoo.

onli yoo.

few days ago i went to maeryl's house.

she cut my hair.

i REGRETTED.

ALOT.

den today i went to marie's house.

it was lots of fun =))

screwdd upp.

today's paper was english and maths. it was a PIECE OF CAKE. wahaha. and the english's setter was MS TEO. when the class saw that we were like WTF! everyone was complaining... before we started our tcr in charge let us read the question xD and the maths paper was set by mr choo. PIECE OF CAKE. i was confident of ALOT of ans. but my frens all do until SO CHIM. alot all quarrel of the ans...haha

im willing to be.

the angel you love.

yed was friday the 13.

luckily nothing happened to me.

wahaha.

operation nicholas.

commencing soon!

you left mie standing
alone in a corner.
i couldnt do anything
but watched helplessly,
watching you make
bigger mistakes.
i cr ii ed.
she dedd te arrs.
bcuz of youu.
i prayy for youu
every n ii te
withou tt youu know iing.
don`t leave m ii e
BREAT HLESS.
i need youu.

remind me nvr to go to jack's place again! my dad forced me to eat carrots! eeeeeeyuck. BLEAHHS. i hated it. today's my bday but i didnt haf much fun. haiz. thats it..

this is the day which

i will stop

loving yoo.

i never expected

this but i

had to let yoo go.

i shall wait,

until the 29 may

about ur words

but i'm sure

it'll hurt

cuz there's no such

thing as an

everlasting love.

i'll be waiting.

i cut my hair yesterday =) but it looks like nvr cut at all. hahas. $20 leh. he was good he helped me to straighten my hair. wahahaha. but it's wearing off now. bOOs ` after that me and my mom we went to eat. it was yum yum! my bro stayed at mac cuz he wanna see the perfect 10 dares you to. me and my mom went there at 2.30. the dares were really funny! haha. yupps den today sooooo boring. hais.

as usual, i came to sch with nic. didnt meet jesslyn. hais. so sad. so onli me and him walk to school... den i went to class to put my bag den we went up to his class together. he keep saying his classmates. hais. so bad! den after sku i met yvonne and we bought the jelly ice cream and walked outta sku. but we saw rowen and nic and their silly bunch of frens. den aaron asked yvonne whether i like nic anot! and i'm like WTF! but she told him that she dunno. but she actually noe! haha den alot of ppl also ask her before. we walked to the playground cuz we were waiting for rowen and nic. den we talked and played a lil. we both hated sweating. hahas. so we walked back to sku and bought another ice cream. HAHA! den we manage to avoid the table of mad guys... den lata rowen was playin basketball and nic was playin football...so we decided to disturb nic.. call him power ranger... haha... den lata nic came towards us... ask us to pei him go to 83 bus stop... yvonne dunwan to go so she ask me to go wit nic.. -____- so i went with him.. my bag veri heavy so i walk veri slowly lah... den he pei me walk slow...den he supposed to meet his fren at 4.30 but i think he late lah.. haha.. den when i reached home my mom said wanna go swimmin... i swam 12 rounds = 1200m! this is the first time i swim so much! hahas. den lata i came home and ate my delicious dinner! =) den lata nic called.. ask me to pei him go somewher tmr.. den my parents dun allow... feel soooo bad... haiz.. his frens organize that thing bcuz of me... and in the end i didnt turn up... haizzz... den thats it for today..

whoooooopeee! =) today i waited at e mrt...i saw jesslyn and went in. waHAHA. den we sat lrt together and looked for nic. he brought my breakfast but i already eat. hahahs. so i gave the bread to wynne! she's always starving one! hahas. today de lesson was super boring. i almost dozed off during lit and sci. those are the two most BORING lessons. mr toh's teaching is full of CRAP. jus like my bro said he's teachings are a pile of shit! haha. quite true. den today music lesson... so boring... gonna test on sch song... and i'm like WTF. cuz i dunno the lyrics of the sch song. HAHA. den after sku i went home with jemaine, marie, yihan and her frens. the SOTONG family! yep i'm the wife. WAHAHAH! den yihan's fren was spraying water on the ground and sliding arcoss the whole pathway. LOL. it looked fun! den when i reached home, yvonne called me and asked me to pei her cuz she waiting for ROWEN. den we talk for about 1hr 20 mins. lol. so short. den lata i put down the phone... den lata nic called. den talktalktalk den put down. i was half sleepin when he called! hahas. den lata i went to haf my nap. den i bathed and was playin com when nic called again. i think he was playing guitar. it sounded like a guitar. it was soooo nice! loved it.

okie i onli haf 5 mins to up date... ytd me and yvonne waited for rowen and nic to finish their self-study lah. 5pm lehh! den lata they come up...den we started whackin each other... haha.. me and yvonne got soaked from top to toe...but she worser lah.. den the boys went to play soccer lo... den me and yvonne dry up at the toilet... den we walked veri slowly to the soccer there... den we waited for them... until 6+... den they actually jus walk off without me... cuz i walking another way.. den i like veri angry... so rowen and yvonne called nic to come back.. pei me go bus stop... hahas.... den i go home... den today.. i supposed to meet nic at lrt there... but then... i woke up at around 6.45... hahas... so i called him told him that i'll be late lah.. den he ask em to meet him at the school canteen... but in the end we didnt.. he passed my breakfast to jesslyn... but dunno why he stil ask me to meet him leh.. den dunring lessons were so boring. i almost dozed off during he lesson. 2hrs theory! but fri the test liao. hais. mid yr comin... today after sch i stayed back for band... den got buffet... alot of sec 1s dun dare go take... den amelia help me to take... ahhas... she so kind.. den lata we went up for amg.... so sad sia... alot of ppl cry... hais... emmeline's speech was the most touching one... i really pity her... she's jus like me... all my frens from band one lor... oh yeah thats it..

today mornin i was supposed to meet nic at 6.45 but it turned out to be 7.05. heh heh. thanks to me lah. with me around anything bad can happen! whees. sch was so darn bloody boring. when i went online cher told me bout wad happen to chermaine today. hahas. so funny. serve mel and eunice right. they deserved it! thats all

i hate yoo

i detest yoo

get out of my way`

my lyfe`

on fri after my sports day i went back to pri sch with jia hui, jia yong, elwin, eugene and pris. on the way, we bought bubble tea and the autie call elwin AH GIRL. AHAHHAAAAAAAAAa we all laughed like SIAO. i ate at pri sch. i missed the food. yummm.! and den me and pris went to find rowen and nicholas. when i reach there i onli saw nic. lols. den pris wanna go back to pri sch so we left her at the bus stop. hahas. den we walked to the next bus stop. amanda goh called me and told me tt she was comin. so we missed alot of bus jus to wait for amanda goh. ahahas. when i picked her up, i still had to open e door for her. wtf. lols. den she thought that nic was my stead and i'm like WTF. nO LOR. den lata 136 came and we went to heartland mall cuz my mom wanted to buy a watch. we left nic at e bus stop. wahahha. after we reached there we ate kfc together wit my mom and my bro. hahas. she keep talkin bout her taxi trip. cuz she chinese not good den say until veri funny. hahas. den my mom was so shocked that her chinese was so lan. hahah. den we walked around and went home. yeahhs. she's still as good as ever. den on sat me and nic went to lan. he trashed me in gb. damn it im not playing with him anymore. wahahas. or either i train hard and trash him back. hmmm. i gotta reconsider lah. so after we played lan we went to heartland mall to walk walk la... walk liao den sit mrt go to punggol...i was suppose to send him home but he send me to the 136 bus stop. he had to be home by 2.30 but i dragged time so when he reached home it was bout 2.50. hahas i think he didnt get any scolding bleahhs. den today me and yvonne met up for yamaha lesson. when we were inside there was a slight tremor and i was like woooooow first time experiencing it. i wont forget it ;p yvonne was scared. very. the reason why we felt it was mayb we were doing theory so it was veri quiet and peaceful. hahas. den after lesson we went to walk around heartland mall. den we sat down and yvonne started telling me all her problems. hais. dunno why i felt like crying. her life is jus like mine, so screwed up. den she called rowen over and we went to take neoprints. got new machine at heartland mall. they removed bout 3 of e machines. haiz. but e new machine's nice... but not veri clear. oh YEAH. nic told yvonne that i got thrashed by him in gb. gRR. ok fine. dun play with him gb liaos. hahas. when i went out with yvonne and rowen i really feel like light bulb. WAHAHA den she keep torturing me when i said that. aHEM. den yvonne started ticking rowen in popular den yvonne told me that he was scared of tickles. den we gang up and started tickling him. ahahah den lata he tockled us and we chased him all over heartland mall. hoho. so fun. den lata after a looooooooooooong time we stopped. i hit him on e head and den he hit me back. one time he hit alot of times. so it was veri pain... owwww. i'll get my revenge! when going to e bus stop i saw a big gulp den i wanted to hit it down and den rowen hit my hand den my hand hit until de cup so it fell down but my arm hurt! walao tt guy he hit ppl so hard sia. okies tts a;; for today. i soooo tired :)

todae after my me, darren, huijoo, zuoying and tze jie waited for the silly nigel to finish his npcc so we can go to heartland mall.but in the end, we went ahead without nigel. he's gonna look for us after his npcc. we went to mac to eat. darren was good. he lent me his mp3 again along with the charger. he's good man =)) but lata when nigel came, we went to e popular and he bought zuoying a file. he didnt buy for me. hmmph. den we walked around in minitoons. den tze jie went home. den lata we went home also. tts e end. hais. boooooring.

i had a blast yesterday!! firstly i met yvonne at heartland mall, it was alreadyquite late so we skipped yamaha. hees. =)) we bought the diskette for nothing. bleahhs. wasting time. den we went to play lan. played dota. hais. i'm sooo lousy. heh. den after we finished the game, our time was up. jason won. boos ` so me and yvonne wanted to go hougang mall with rowen and jason but rowen insisted on staying at e lan shop. so mi and yvonne went. we hardly walked for an hour den rowen called us back. haiis. den later i went home. den i slept. after i woke up my mom fetched me and my bro to pick my father up. we went to pan pacific*5 star hotel!* it was 37 storeys! when i went inside, i looked up and got dizzy. it was sooooooooo tall! we went to e jap restaurant to check out. it was full house. so we went to another restaurant and it was at the LAST LEVEL!!!!!!!!!! when we took the lift up, the scenary was outside the hotel. it was creepy. almost eye to eye to the word suntec! but the scenary at e restaurant was super nice! got the seaside and the lights relfecting from the river. BEAUTIFUL. my parents force me to eat abalone and MUSHROOM. ABALONE WAS OKAY BUT MUSHROOM! omg i tell you i almost VOMITTED!! i had tears in my eyes already! den my dad said i was veri good in acting! wtf. after that we went down. i had enough courage to look at the scenary while going down e lift. BEAUTIFUL. we finally left the beautiful hotel. i wont ever forget it. it was so nice =)). tts bout it. today so sian. hais.

i think i had heritage tour ytdd. oh yes. it WAS ytdd. its was boring and stupiid. dun talk bout it laHH. today iish the day. a veri special day. one yr since we broke up. haiz. i stil can rmb e date. lols. today for lce lesson mr er brought his son along. he's SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO cute and adorable!!!!! =)) and his son was VERY young and he sang welcome to my life!!!! SOOOOO ADoRABLE! heeeeeh. after sch i went to old class meetin. i was first. met tze jie and darren there. we were SOOOOOOOO noisy. ahahah. den quincy came. den john. den lingtong and kunzi. all wearing outside clothes cept for me. hahas. so xtra. den talk talk talk den all go walk around. i bought e sports band. soooo pretty. hahas. tts it!

oOkies. now talk bout sun. soooo much to say =))

i wanted to meet wit yvnne but

she was with rowen.

bleahhs.

so i went to yamaha.

but she was kindD.

she waited for mee.

hahas.

dunring e lesson, it was sooooo screwed upp.

lols.

so after lesson we sent judy to e mrt.

den i saw weez.

so yvonne went to e lan shop to find rowen.

onlii me and weez waiting at heartland mall.

we were sooooo quiet =))

den they came and we go

we boarded e mrt.

yvonne and rowen seemed so lovin

so it made me think bout me and him.

we were n0thing.

n0thing compared

to them.

that realli br0ke me.

i was thinkin of wad fun thing we did.

nothing at alL.

my heart was bleeding and crying.

it'll be over

over for us soon.

we sat mrt to orchard.

i didnt even talk to weez.

yvonne and rowen kept asking us to talk

but i jus kept quiet.

i was nvr.

nvr so quiet.

i was probably thinkin bout me

and him.

hais.

when we went to cine, e movie alr started and we were late for 30mins

so we didnt buy e tix

we went to eat.

me and yvonne ate at mac and rowen ate

kfc. bud we ate together.

den yvonne pulled me away.

we went to e toilet and she kept askin me to talk to weez

i told her tat i gort nth to talk about.

so i ask her to gif me a topic

den she say anything

so i say jus say hi jiu can liao

i think she gonna faint.

haHAs.

so we went back. they so bad

left me and weez behind.

boos`

we went back to hearland mall

played at lan.

we finally talked.

but not as much.

i'm not good with my chinese.

so we play play play.

den play until e stupid frozen throne.

it was fun

but they say it was laggy so we quit.

den time for me to go.

i got home late

grounded by my parents.

bleahhs.

den mon.

cant rmb wad happen.

bud i noe we got back our oral com.my marks counted wrongly.

hmmmmph.

i got 51/65

i either got e fifth

or fourth in class.

weeee`

hahas.

den today i went home with glynis.

hais dunwan to type le

more updates bout today look at elisa's blog.

one person. onlii one. was dere for miie alwaez.

sotong ger ger thanx for everything.

you rawk!

`mamee

i'm being left out.

no one bothers

no one cares.

this is e second time im typing this.

i wonder.

wonder

how manii more times im gonna

type this.

shattered;

yipees. todayy i went out early in e mornin to meet kunzii and weeeeeee`. i met kunzi first cuz she said that she was scared of weeeeee`. hahas kinda funny. FOR THE SECOND TIME, weeeeeee` scared me again. DAMN! freakkky! okies den we went to hougang interchange but den weeeeee` dumped us there. boos`. when to xinmin. soooo boring =\ we walked around and around and finally found gloria. sheesh. den we walked around and around again. den we finally left. i brought a wooden blue clip and they glued my name on it. its sooo nice. den me and kunzii went to hougang mall to haf lunch. den we took pics of our clips. haha. so bOliaos right. den i went to meet cam. den we played lan! i played cs. hoho. so mani ppl died under my hands. WAHAHAHA! den came home yupps. my key was in my pocket and i didn't bother to find it. so i called my silly bro and told him that i forgot to bring my key out. ahhHH i waited an hour for him. hmmmph. den i was super pissed when i found my key in my pocket. arrrGH! thats all lah. buh bye!

few dayys ago i went tuu e stadium.
can'tt b botheredd whetherr i got in ornot.
hope i didn't get into e 100m.
i wanna get into relay.

something's wrong these few dayys.
i never felt like living anymore.
life is just too cruel.
no 0ne bothers to notice that i exist.
everyone hates me.
jus bcuz i'm mean.

they take things so seriously.
jus read my frenster.
alot of red arrows.
this is n0t my day.
not a single green arrow.
i d0n't exist on this earth anymore.
no 0ne bothers.
no 0ne cares.

shattered;

tghjdf

SOOOOO mUCH TO SAY! oMG! okok. on sat i went back to sch for my band. playplayplay finally learned e basics. phew. so we passed. YAYYYY!!!! good thing number 1. HAHAHA. good thing number 2. AVRIL'S CONCERTTTTTT!!!! okayes. i promise that i will list detail by detail. firstly, gloria's parents came to pick me up. i was like WOOOOOW when i saw her. so punk. kayes. den we went to e indoor stadium. and when they started playin, im like WTF WHY THEY PLAYING PUG JELLY SONG!?!?!?! okayes. i LOVE pug jelly. THEY RAWK! so i enjoyed their 15 min performance. YEEEAH! den after tt got 15 min break....change all e instruments... den AVRILLLLL! me and gloria onli stood up when she sang skater boi and complicated. the sillt tze jie was swinginghis hand oFF. AHHAHAHAHA! but im suprised. he dresses veri well. oh btw ther were 20 speakers. IMAGINE THAT! okies den on sun. after my music lesson, i chiong to ps to meet meryl and woei juin. watched the eye 10. SOOOOOO scary! ok. cher if u're reading this, u prob think im chicken. my first time watching ghost movies kaye. =X den today sian sian wan. sch went as usual. came to sch with meryl and woei juin. aHHh. so sians. kayes tts it fer now. TATa

TMR IISH AVRIL'S CONNNNNCERTTTTTTTT!!!!!!!! AHHHHHHHHHHAHAHAH! I'M GOING NUTTTTTTTTS!!! lols. ok stop jokin. hahas!!!!! i cant WAIT!!!=PpPpP todae. STUPIIDDDD BUSSSS DRIVERR!!!! after sch me elisa and miao went to compass point. den we wait at e traffic light to cross to the other side. ok. got one bus come den spalsh water*it was rainin* ok. den we moved back abit. DEN THE SECOND BUS CAME! IT DRENCHED US!!!! F***! den me and miao onli half wet. elisa was wet frm top to toe. so poor thing. kks tts bout it