trip to korea. u btr like it a spent hrs to upload photos.

sunrise in the plane.

bill in korea! and we had to use the stupid flat chosticks for every meal for 8 days! i burnt my tongue lots of times cause its metal and its hard to use.

korea airport, getting rdy to leave for jeju.



outside the restaurant

the restaurant.



dont ask.


my dad lah -.-

front view

side view



abalone. YOU EAT IT LIVE HERE!!! OMFG



looks like da changjin's fliming site. im nt sure.



jeju have no burglars, no beggars and no smth i forgot. thats why their gates are liek this. still gt very long story bt lazy to say.


IT WAS REALLY REALLY HIGH!


teddy bear musuem.








THE THINKER. LOL

monalisa

last supper.



different weddings

spot me!

catwalk

teddy daddy!

MY BODYGUARD.



stepping on rockie's homeland.

performance,




forgot which day hotel.

EVERLAND!*outdoor theme park. VERYVERY BIG














the seal looking at the penguins and the penguins looking at the seal.





THIS pooDlE Is SOOOo cUTE!

have you been this close? i have,. in a bus though.





do you believe in lion + tiger = liger? we didnt believe our tour guide until we saw this :

:OOOOOO

ITS A BEAR BATHING. yOU'VE JUST SEEN PORN. LOL!

birdy show!



i like this bird!

everland flower garden!





LIL CHICKS! *squeals!


6*hotel.

HAHA TOIOET
HAHA TOILET.


im crazy over this toy!


the casino. its soso pretty!

have u seen this kind of escalator which carries ur luggage up too?

byebye hotel.




dad's crazy over this shot.






i like this tree.



reading the stupid sotry which i cant understand.

i feeel tall!


i know i look stupid -.-

indoor theme park.

MY FAVE DOLLS

wnt to jemaine's hse to do proj today.
haha its was soso funny and fun :D
well not until kristle and meryl pulled me aside to tell me the truth.
i wasnt hurt but i was extremly angry.
that idiot deserved to be burned in hell.
you ppl have seen a good side of me too much.
im really evil inside so dont be surprised that i wld do this kinda things.

i believe in karma.
i believe he'll get revenge frm god.

im trying to be
free
free
free
free
FREE!
argh dammit.
cant stand it anymore -.-

her tears gave away her identity-
for better or for worse.

reminiscing.

i nvr seem to cross your mind even once.



stab me in the heart and let me die,
i had enough pain and misery.
im a snapped rubber band.

the day you left me.

last day in genting - finally.

im boring myself here in genting lan shop. zzzzzzzzzzzz
hurray! brazil won croatia *am i correct?*
watever the name is lah.
but it was a tough tough match indeed.

EXCLUSIVE! *updated
NEAR DEATH EXPERINCE ON THE PLANE.
i noe u're excited to noe wat happened....
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well the flight from incheon airport was delayed by arnd 30mins-40mins due to aircraft changes. den i boarded the plane happily.. until the plane went some other places to test the wings and the engine. den i only knew something badbadbad was gonna happen. and guess wat? i was right. after serving us snacks, the feature movie of the day was aquamarine. i watched tht movie on my bday so i didnt mind watching again. i was laughing away at the part where aqua made a visit with this 2 girls *sry i forgot the name* on bicycle to that guy's hse. i forgot the name agn! then when aqua fell down... the plane started shaking like nuts *worse den a roller coaster* and den........................................................... the plane fell. everyone was screaming and i was sososo freaked out o.o but it was ok after that and i was so nervous i needed to pee badly but i just 'tahan-ed' all the way when the plane rched sg. wow i tell you i had lots of pee. lol. actually the toilet bowl's empty i pee-d until it was half full omg. sry for the peeing part lol. anyway im in genting now. in the lan shop and its super dark and im boring myself here T.T the guy sitting beside me <- cs noobie lol. oh well i sohouldnt critisize ppl xD


what friends are for?
you foul mouth s'hole.
fancy telling him a lie!
good thing he doesnt believe your bullshit.
i cant believe you'd do that to me!

tgod must bless me for having such a nice room for the last day in korea -
personal computer, dvd player, water cooler, snack machine*must pay though* and the toilet is sososo cool. and
plus the com's screen is lcd, so is the tv xD everything's so advanced - so is the toilet. HAHA.

i guess i shouldnt worry much-
you've got many girls getting ur attention
and you've alr probably forgotten me.

IM AT JEJU NOW :)
and im NOT loving it.boohoo.
miss dear so much T.T
'look, half a millioniare!', says my dad
'BLOODY EXPENSIVE THE THINGS HERE!', says my dad.
lolol.
alr bought smth for dear incase i couldnt find anything to buy xDD
arrived at korea at about 9plus den we went to another airport for a flight to jeju.
i'll update the pics when i reach back though! hahaha.
ok im having a horrid headache so yah.
maybe i'll continue to update ltr after a good short nap and bathe :)
miss ya dear!

IM GOING TO KOREA!
BYEBYE SINGAPORE
IM GONNA MISS YOU ALL..
COMING BACK NXT SUNDAY (:
TATA.

i saw the phone which he wanted.
i didn noe why i wanted to buy fr him.
it costed like 1k+
maybe he doesnt even like it already.
guess whats the model?
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n91.

i cant deny i still have thoughts on suicide.

i jammed on hard to say im sorry and take on me.
i replayed take on me sososo many times.
i still couldnt get the song right.
4-5 times lars -.-
turned the music to the loudest.
you ppl just dont noe how i feel.
i just wished i was deaf.

where were my friends when i needed them the most?
im sorry boy, but i broke ur promise.
i couldnt help it.

wnt to sch today to hlp out with the euphoria thingy -.-
den ltr when me and marie said we bought tix for the whole concert den we no need help le -.-
but then we still have to help them to paste the schedule -.-
oh dang it i was bloody tired (:
anyways, me and maries job was to paste the schdule which is the hardest job T.T
oh wells, anyway we did it pretty fast 'cos i've done smth like tht in my previous job b4.
so we were done at about 9+?
we were soso happy la.
until they came back in with 6 big packs more. -.-
den i wanted to switch jobs so i decided to fold the cards
which were soso easy.
until the tcr asked gerald*the INfamous guy* to ask more ppl to hlp.
this girl in orange tee - she kept staring and staring at me.
ok to cut a long story short-
aft me and marie left for sch.. marie said,
"wah that girl keep on staring at you leh, she work also must stare she talking to her friend also must stare i feeling like gourging her eyeballs out at the most i'll pay her medical fees but anyway she's lost an eye." she said smth like that la. den we kept on laughing. lol. i dont mean to be eeeeeeevil but sometimes i cant help it. its a joke anyway if ur reading this.
oh YEAH. during break time i asked jemaine about tht orange shirt girl --
TO MY HORROR
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she kept asking jemaine about me! she kept asking jmn to show her who was i.
oh CRAP.
then marie said something which i found quite true....
"i think she like zheyue leh if not why she keep staring at you?"
i couldnt disagree more. haha.
gd luck to both of you then.
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met dear aft im done with everything.
missed him so much!
i wonder how im gonna spend 8 days in korea without him t.t
im going on the 3 june, midnight flight!
i dunno why but i gotta badbadbad feeling about going to korea.
xD

whoops-a-daisy - by yehudi -.-
I WASNT SMILING FOR THE CAMERA
its notnotnot funny. lol
i love him (:
i didnt noe my hair looked so messy frm the back. *sobs*

i appreciate your love for me.
but somehow,
you must learn to trust.
you dont believe in miracles do you?

god wants to help him to revenge.
for the pain she brought onto him.
those were the first tears she shed for him.

well! here's my results of the yr - heh heh.
engllish . b3
chinese . b4
maths . c5 *OMFG WTF!!*
science . b4 *one more mark to b3 T.T*
history . b4 *I STUDIED REAL HARD FOR THIS AND i LOST TO KEANE WHO DIDNT EVEN BOTHER TO STUDY FOR HISTORY T.T*
literature . b4*yay! improved from e8!*
dnt . b4
arts . b4

im nt trying to brag hohoho (:
13 position. blah lousylousy.
at least esther didnt get first this yr. HAHAHAHA!
oh hey guess wat? im NOT underweight which is a surprise lol wtf!

i bought the mini voodoo.
hopefully things will get btr.

i wished u knew what i was going through.
the pain,
the disaster,
the hurt.

i guess thats what they all say
believe in ur dreams

say byebye.

i wished i had his trust
but everything's gone in a matter of seconds.

i have no more choice
but to pick up the knife where i left weeks ago.

i hate this fcking life.
i try to give my love and all i get in return is misery and pain.

well, surprisingly, chinese lesson was a blast today :D
angcy brought us to ava to watch a movie hohoho.
then suddenly,
"hey look someone wrote about ur bf!"
whatever. he's nt my bf.
most of the ppl were crying whn the movie ended.
bloody touching. lol.

aft sch wnt to eat mac's with cam glynis and tj.
den wnt back to sch to support captain's ball.
my class vs teachers.
we got thrashed like crazy cuz all the teachers so tall. lol.
nt fair lahs.

miss him so. :(

i was feeling horridly sick today ):
my thraot felt dry, and itchy.
and i couldnt stop sneezing!
still had to go to the stupid hall until 9! hmmph.
anyways, soh ah soon came :D
i didnt bring any of his things lol.
he puched keane on his shoulder
and he wanted to puch me too but he couldnt reach.
hahahah.
then he used keane's pencil box to hit my head -.-
chancheehoe's lesson was next and we went to the lab :D
it was pretty fun.
cant rmb whose lesson was next.
oh yeah angcy.
whatever la him-
den ltr was lce we did nothing :D
only stacked all our exam scripts together.

wnt to eat kfc with kunzi, glynis and ermmm sandy if im nt wrng. lol
aft that wnt to meet dear at punggol park :D
such a nice place but..
HOTHOTHOT.
lol!

sweet lips,
sweet tongue,
sweet kiss.
((((:

today was games day :DD
our soccer team got thrashed by 5-0 in the first round.
better luck next time guys.
well. overall our team was the champ for cap's ball!
yay love u all (:
rocked my day!

now i noe how sandy feels right now.
being accused for something you didnt do?
i cant stand it anymore
bloody fcked up asshole shit life.
i swore to myself i'd nvr be vulgar again.
but i couldnt seem to control my emotions these few days.

im looking at the knife which i threw away into a corner weeks ago.
it doesnt hurt me.
emotional pain hurts me more.

sorry boy,
i couldnt be there for you.
i love you.

wnt out with dear today :D
i nearly fainted when i saw the ticket queue!
nvr seen it so long before.
hahas.
we had no choice but to play lan.
oh wells got kinda tired halfway through.
still, it wasnt so bad!
wnt to heartland mall after dear sent me off.
i saw so many ppl from my sch and everyone was like staring at me because of the way i dressed! pfft. its meant for going to orchard D:dear said i dressed like goth except im missing out the eye makeup. i dont put eyeshadow and besides, i didnt draw my eyeliner incase he found it weird :D
love ya dear!

i gave you a chance,
countless of times.
you didnt cherish the chances i gave you,
and everything is not a lie.
i have done my best to live my life with you
but did you?
its sad to say,
its the end of a beginning
and a beginning of misery and pain.
its gone..
its gone.

friends can tell the difference in me,
happier than before,
never gloomy again.
i used to sigh when i reached school,
i used to think life's painful for me.
but everything's changed.

i wanted to pick the knife again
but after talking to him
i threw the knife out of my sight.

why? why am i feeling this way?
as if...
everythings gone
im so confused
who betrayed me,
and who led him into all this trouble.
damn.
why is it so hard to trust?
WHY!??!?!
F.

im in such a pissypissymood.
quarrelled with me mom.
who cares.
nicole's 'MR.PEAR' might be coming to sch to find us.
hahahhahaaaa.
dear's gang maybe coming also but for another reason :D
oh they can help us out anyway.
plus we have support frm elicha's boy too
*evilgrins.

lil' veggies
looks cool right?

I TOUCHED THIS FOUNTAIN!

xD
THIS IS DELICIOUS. TRUST ME.
zzz..
looks yummy eh?
seen this kinda carrot b4?

mother's day at C.H.I.J.M.E.S.
p.s I SAW OLINDA AGAIN!

carrots and veggies from mustafashopping cntre.

FOUNTAIN OF WEALTH!

holiday!
(:
wnt to suntec for dinner.
i touched the fountain of wealth.
wheeee.
made a teeny tiny wish.
hees.
wnt to shop.
i want the clothes from mango and adidas.
:DDDD

my not-so-happy day.
my mood totally changed when i got back my maths paper2.
damn it i tell you.
nobody really understands me.
the most others parents say is,
study harder.
wat about me?
scolded lah.
i've already tried my best.
i HATEHATE YOU algebra.
but i passed overall but only by a mark.
damndamndamn
im in such a pissy mood.
and....

FCUK YOU JESSLYN.
showoff asshole.
i dont mean to be vulgar,
but i've already reached my limits.

they wanna send me to tuition.
I DONT WANT.
I HATE TUITION.
I HATE YOU BLOODY ALGEBRA!
i guess i have to break the promise i made to him.

sorry-
but im going under alot of pressure.
i cant take the pain anymore.

i FEEL like a CAGED BIRD.
there's not much freedom in me.
i have already tried my best to live my life.

such a useless asshole.
dont sympatise me.
im pathetic enough.

MR. HUNK xD

she knows her feelings are starting to fade,
but is she willing to take this big risk?
he's too precious to be lost.
and she's at a loss.

guess wat?
im gonna flunk my art.
YAAAAAAY.
-.-
i was barely done with my cubist art.
zzzzzzzz.

on sunday. on the way to restaurant to eat (:

my bday cake T-T

this was taken loooooooooong time ago. when i went malaysia in dec. my fave flower.





sometimes,
life's just TOO HARD to imagine.


this is the worse bday i ever had.
first time i cried in all my bdays.

had injection of friday. ouchouchouch.
its not the baby needle they used in pri6 injection.
its an ADULT needle.
its still hurting today.
2 injections on the same arm.
T-T

ANOTHER LIE,
ANOTHER INTERNAL CUT.
ANOTHER REJECTION,
ANOTHER DEPRESSED STATE.
JUST A LITTLE MORE LOVE,
is that so hard to ask for?

wnt to punggol park. i was feeling extremly sick. no idea why though. but i just kept quiet. played with those boys frm sengkang pri. i got a god bro xD heeh. they're so cute lars. borrowed bicycle frm some guys. den we walked to hougang mall. the lil boys came too. den i wnt home. i almost died. im super sick. sigh.

im gonna get good grades for my history test!
i hope xP
i studied REALLY hard.
hohoho.
before we left sch, madeline was walking infront of us and tying her hair.. and she spilt her half pony tail into two! me and wynne looked at each other and burst out laughing.no offence, but madeline.. u ****.
wnt to compass with wynne to get her free cake and $10 gift voucher.
i got things for free too xDDD
den find meryl and kris at the cafe.
went to punggol park.
played with the swings.

WHEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE.

i couldnt resist looking at the new wound,
slit , and blood oozing out.

he's unsure of his feelings.
she's confused.
she FEELS like a subsitute to him.
she's < / 3 .

i woke up with a nice dream. a dream that seemed so realistic. but no, its not ture. sigh. i dreamt tht we patched up and.. yeah. a dream that seems too far to even reach out to. it was only 13 days away. i guess the surprise's gone. byebye to it then.

wnt to mac for breakfast. saw a muscular man with tight fitting shirt and jean shorts*IMAGINETHAT!* and he was tatooed all over. scary scary. den went to ntuc.. saw mdm sen. had a quicky wicky chat with her. came home den my parents forced me to study. i stayed in my rm. but i was reading story bk and my assessments i all copy ans from the back. i really gt no mood to study. den i sneaked out to take the lighter. burned 2 letters. one was supposed to be meant for mschew. but i didnt give it to her, i was afraid i'd be sent to the consellor. the second letter is confidential. burnt it in the sink xD i used to do tht wen i was young with my bro. we hid in the toilet to burn things. lol. zzzzzzzzzz. siiiigh dunno why im moodymoody today.




i cut myself again.

*updated*
exams are a piece of shiat.
i wrote the internet for the one word essay. changed it into a story. my frens all say i crazy cuz they all write internet as an arguement. sigh. den the silly chinese paper. i was just looking at the paper, and the paper staring at me. lols. i had ???????????? all in my head. zzzzzz. i couldnt understand a crap xPP.

after school wnt to study with meryl and kristle again. at sengkang's library cafe. well i pleaded them to go to the place that i wanted, as eileen had forbidden me to go there again. well, unless we're back together of cuz. they agreed, but that wld be my last and final time walking down the memory lane. as i was walking... well i could control my tears although it was the my last time there. it was so painful - yet, i had to walk alone. they settled in the shelter as it was raining but i walked around. i couldnt bear to leave this place - it felt like my second home. i walked around the void deck, with the happy memories flashing back. it was a kind of torture. i dare not go up, i didnt know why. i was too afraid i guess.

when i reached the bus stop, i turned around... and left with a tear in the eye.

im feeling so bloody fcuked up now.
anyways stayed back in sch with kris meryl and geok leng to study. well i gave up halfway. i cant think straight; im an emo person and its going to affect my studies badly. i had to rely on meryl all the time i have no one else to turn to. ppl would usually leak the secret out. wynne was soo happy when she found out o.o seems like kristle faces the same problem as me. she stopped studying halfway and den she cried. meryl accompanied her to the toilet and me and gl read her foolscap. she had the same problems as i do! really really. seems like its hard to forget ur first love isnt it? screw this life, NOBODY cares. i feel tht im changing, i feel like im a souless person.

its been 2 days, yet im still struggling.
and he's watching with glee.

*UPDATED
i was kinda moody when i woke up. den when i was going to school the rabio played all the songs tht i was feeling this morning and the songs really expressed me well! i cheered up until the dj sang the day's weather. he transfered all the details into a song! which i think was really well done and he's singing wasnt tht atrocious. he sang 'umbreloo' and the other dj was cutting in saying ' its umbrella la!' den he ask him to shut up and continued singing. lols. well my mood went down after i went to study with eileen. jia xiang's jokes were soo funny hahas. den i went home with my parents. good thing they didnt come all the way to mac's or they'll tell me off for studying with guys.

2am and the rain is falling
Here we are at the crossroads once again
You're telling me you're so confused
You can't make up your mind
Is this meant to be
You're asking me

But only love can say
Try again or walk away
But i believe for you and me
The sun will shine one day
So i just play my part
Pray you'll have a change of heart
But i can't make you see it through
That's something only love can do

In your arms as the dawn is breaking
Face to face and a thousand miles apart
I've tried my best to make you see
There's hope beyond the pain
If we give enough
If we learn to trust

I know if I could find the words
To touch you deep inside
You'll give my dreams just one more chance
To let this be our last goodbye

That's something only love can do..........

i miss u boy.. i love you.

well the truth has come to light hasnt it?
i walked back to school with a heavy heart. never felt so sad before, good thing meryl was there for me. she was the first person i ever told all my problems to and we just walked around the whole school.... she too, was shocked at wat i told her and... sigh.

every morning when i wake up, the nightmares come back to me. wat good can it do? im at a loss for words i have no idea what am i gonna do. after hearing meryl telling me about the shanna thing.. i hope i wouldnt fail my exams. if im not wrong.. today is also last yr's break up with some other guy whom i HATE ALOT. i promised meryl something... but its hard to keep her promise.. i will try....

reminiscing
reminiscing
reminiscing
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< / 3.

i looked at the time, 9.35.
went to church for bible class. *thnks to glynis* den reached home at about 10.45. play com until.... 4 plus? den my bro play. i played at 6 plus AGAIN. by the time i looked at the clock.. it was 9!!!!! 9PM!!!!!!! i got shocked! i havent even studied my dnt neither have i ironed the clothes! OH THE TERROR. its 10.40 now and i still havent done those 2 things!! btr go now... TATA.

WHEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE.
i dont know why im saying this.
probably just to cheer myself up?
taahaas.
boo.
i'm feeling horrid )':

we're drifting.
and he doesnt seem to put in any effort to contact me.
i used to say i wont give up,
but im losing my breath soon.

< ///// 3
maybe it wld be better if we ended this.

the cane marks turned into blueblack ):
i was having my muscle ache at the same place too!
double ouchies =X

YAYAYYAYAY ANGCY THE SUCKER DIDNT COME TODAY SO DID MRS TAY!
2HRS OF FREE PERIOD!
BEST DAY EVER IN SCHOOL (:

he hung her phone,
the tears flowed freely,
as if there wasno end.
it tasted sweet,
but why her life was so bitter?
she looked at the scissors on the table.
fear ran through her mind.
she took it,
trambling.
carefully placing the blades over her wrists.
she began to slit her wrist,
slowly, carefully.
she did it again and again,
gradually getting faster everytime.
it was numb -
a deep cut printed on her wrist.
i lost my soul that day.

his words pierced her heart.
"even if you jump down from a building, i DONT CARE!"
is that wat a family member shld say for encouragement?
she got depressed -
her phone was gone.
no one to rely on,
no one to tell her troubles to.
he burst into her room,
demanding a reason for her messages.
she shrugged and pretended he was invisible.
he yelled.
and yelled.
he walked out of the room,
and and disappointed.
the tears came again.
he came in to yell more,
he didnt care.
a lady then stepped in.
a lady who was responsible for her life.
someone called mom.
she gave counselling.
but the girl had already thought for wat the lady had said.
she's already clearing part of the feelings.
for once when he steps out of this school,
its over, its GONE.
she wantsto show him,
she's not a weakling.
she looked at the scissors again.
maybe she's better off dead.
friends would rejoice,
no more worrying for him.
her 'friends' would already feel
happy upon reading this post.
i lost my smile that day.


really stupid day today. after sch went to water rise with meryl, kristle and glynis. weeeeell. it wasnt so bad. but abit sad lars. hais.

MY NOT-SO-FABULOUS DAY.
i reached kovan at 11.15! so he couldnt say i was late. he reached at 12 - and missed the train. and he refused to catch the nxt train. anger - until disappointment. i held my tears back, i didnt want this matter to ruin my whole day, but it did. me and eileen reached bugis at 12.30. meryl was stiiiilllll at home (: oh wells. went into guardian and eileen bought her facial stuffs. den were supposed to meet meryl and kristle at the national library. got lost. taaahaha. den eileen called meryl and asked for directions. when we walked out of parco, this crazy man whistled at me den walked past me. he kept turning at me and keep giving me a stupid grin! sicko ass. i freaked out totally. reached there and waited for them. den we went up to the 7th floor. tht person say it was for reference only, not for study. study lvl 5. den we went to the 5th lvl. WHOA. so many ppl there -_-! den we decided to go to the cafe to eat. starving you know! i had pasta*YUMYUM* with ham. not that bad actually but by the time i finished eating, i had the sauce all over my whole mouth. teeyong came and my mood changed so suddenly. no idea. i was quiet throughout the day. they studied for awhile den went shopping. i finally bought my bag!at bugis street. cant rmb tt brand. hahas. den we went into parco. meryl and kris and ty went to delifrance to study. me and eileen went shopping for her clothes. den we sat 80 and went home. den i only started talking. they were like trying to cheer me up the whole day. heeeeheee xP thanks!

sry for the shortie post ytd. my bro shoo-ed me off the com xP. anyways today's good friday. pretty bored actually. and im really really cold. my feet is actually freeeeeezing! oh wells, going out to buy the ink ele bag! cant wait xD the new sitting arrangement is like........ weeeell.............. no comments =X is too front and my neck was aching terribly at the end of the day.
oh yar...










ang cy sucks (:


she ADORES.

had 3 tests ytd! @#%#&$^*^(&^(%&Y @$%@#. surprise surprise. surprise test for chinese. did only 3 questions of 18 and got 2 wrong -.- left the rest blank. hees.

HAD history election speech today. i was pretty nervy. heh. oh wells, i pointed out all the good points ^^ mr maran said GOOD. wheeeeee. after sch glynis wnt to look for her guides tcr outside the guides rm. mr soh walked past and gave me an OMGWTF 'wat is glynis doing???' i gave him back an OMGWTF 'NONE OF UR BLOODY BUSINESS' LOL! gosh, i AM so lame >.< hse ="X" much ="B">

wnt for music lesson today =X did impro and can say i was the worst =XX how embarrassing. wnt to lan after tht. got police outside O.O i went in anyway since its sunday and i didn't do anything wrong ^^ den my 2nd aunt called and ask me and my bro to church. palm sunday. zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzs boooooring. =XXXXXXXX den wnt to have dinner. the food was quite nice but the timing was horrid. an hour passed and i still havent got my food yet. my aunt flared up. how embarrassing xP just came home. damn tired zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz my boy came to my house ytd just to deliver handmade cookies xD how swt. but matthew was complaining which kinda spoiled the mood. my bro liked the cookies! heh. <33s ^^*i was shocked!*

cross country today. woke up at like 5.45? lols. den reached kovan at about 6.30. den hae to wait for camii cuz she late -_- shld have take my own swt time xP we reached there like.. ermm.. 7.20? lols. anyway i WALKED with glynis, camii and ms teo. den got mokeys. damn cute. suddenly we saw a REALLY REALLY disgusting sight. 2 monkeys were doing YOU-NOE-WHAT(***)!!!!!!!! we screamed and we ran lols. den half way ms teo say she's nt feeling well. den we pei her walk back. thats my good deed for the year xP den we have to walk again. @$^%#&#%@%#^#%& lols. anyways we were the last 3 and i bet many ppl think we suck =X lol. we did a good deed thats why we're the last 3. triple L's eyes were like O.O when she found out we were the last 3. hahas. den got prize presentation. i cant haoyee was the first 20! unbelievable. hahas. anyways after tt we took taxi to go hougang mall. saw my hon there xP soo cute. we were like talking about ABC. hahas. last few days quite shocked. when i found out that DEF was with ABC all along. *frens, if u ask me, i wont reveal to say who they are. private and confidential.* before he left, he messed up my hair. maybe he didnt notice she was there. she looked at me den she looked at him. probably if he noticed her, he might not even talk to me. anyways, to cut a long story short, they came to my house to do the pw proj. den i send all of them t the bus stop. yihan insisted on taking 70 O_O. den later marie suddenly say she left her wallet at the bus stop. den we ran over the overhead bridge again. i was really exhausted. sorry marie! didnt pei u. hahas. =XXX

had english speech today xDD
my legs were shaking and i hardly did eye contact.
bad stage fright =topic's about PENISES =XXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXX
the history election wld be worse,
which is dooms day tmr.
i hate speaking into the mic
and i have no confidence!
zero gusto ^^
GAHH.
im sososo....
scared.
right now.
=XXXXX

looks cool huh?


i made this myself (:

im so lost i dont know wat to do;
its like im gone when you're out,
when your home then u only think of me.
excuses you give,
whether or not its lame.
my heart's been broken
time and again.
im really lost in this world of mine,
there's no one i can relate to.
nobody close to me, nobody cares.

i somehow think we're drifting apart.

PAINFULLY.

HAHAHAHAHA. THIS CAME FROM TJ'S BLOG AND IM PROUD OF IT! (((((((((((((((:

YOU RULE BITCH!


purr-lease.


besides than the chaos in class, PE was fun too. i got to chat wit bib and glynis ( those r my
favourite bitches in class) in the midst of runnin the 2.4 km trial. all except when i crashed and fall "fatally" at the finishin spot.
here's wat happened :
1) tze jie was runnin like a mad dog as he was finishin the last round of the 2.4km trial
2) out of his sheer joy, he tripped off the curb and fell in front of mr.HENRY chh, with hisstomach sufferin from the full impact
3) pain flooded through his body, later did he realise tat a DEEP cut was on his knee cap with blood gushin out "trememdously". IT HURT,,, LIKE sh**. his elbow was also a victim
4) ppl came and helped me out, but wat really touched me was bib and glynis showinthe most concern.

ms chew called me to do a question on the board today (:
i screamed NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO
the whole class started laughing.
meanies (:


its been a week since i last went there.
if the limit reaches 2weeks,
poof.
that's the end of us.

Oceans apart day after day
And I slowly go insane
I hear your voice on the line
But it doesn't stop the pain

If I see you next to never
How can we say forever

Wherever you go
Whatever you do
I will be right here waiting for you
Whatever it takes
Or how my heart breaks
I will be right here waiting for you

I took for granted, all the times
That I though would last somehow
I hear the laughter, I taste the tears
But I can't get near you now

Oh, can't you see it
You've got me goin' Crazy

Wherever you g
oWhatever you do
I will be right here waiting for you
Whatever it takes
Or how my heart breaks
I will be right here waiting for you

I wonder how we can survive
This romance
But in the end if I'm with you
I'll take the chance
Oh, can't you see it
You've got me goin' crazy

Wherever you go
Whatever you do
I will be right here waiting for you
Whatever it takes
Or how my heart breaks
I will be right here waiting for you

gah. just came back frm school. really pissed of now. so maybe i'd let off abit of steam here. our 'irresponsible' leader. she's SO 'kind' and actually ditched us for the more popular group! are they popular? no, i dont think so. no offence. u wrote about minghui didnt you? own up, we've got prove against you. you lie, u want to get sympathy from others and they side you. we're not lying, we saw it with our own eyes. creating a silly frenster account for us? u name us all prince and princesses but not yourself. you're so thicked skin. dare to do but dont dare to own up. obviously that post is not in ur blog cuz you deleted that post. too afraid isnt it? i dont care if u read this now, complain to your "BESTIES" for all i care. they can only help you to talk bad about us but are they willing to take any action? you filthy traitor.

finished class at 2. stupid hy say he wanted to talk to me. i knew he wanted to slap me. so i said no. den he say okok holy my hands. den he used his leg to hook me den i fell down! i went home with a brokened butt =(

im doing my cinema 4d now (: break time ya know. xDD



i wished i could turn back time; i regretted leaving you.
i've lost a loved one and dont wish to lose another.
sorry.

visited my dad in hospital again. have to go for op. but success only 67% -_____- dunno whther he wants to do it ornot =






HURT BADLY. BY YOU.

went to visit my dad in hospital. first my granma den eugene's dad, now mine. i was trembling when i went into the ward. im afraid to go into the hospital cuz im afraid to see all those people. hopefully things will go out alright. =


the reason for the brkup is unforgivable, it will forever be etched in my heart and that's somthing i wont ever ever forget. the reason's simply the same as my first ex.

stupid jamil caught my for my socks! i rather walk around the whole school without socks rather than buy one. hmmph.

IM GONE -
I LOST MY SOUL;
I HAVE NO MORE PASSION TO LIVE.
JUST LET ME GO.
I DONT DESERVE ANY OF YOU
EVEN MY FAMILY.
I HAD ENOUGH.

hey guys i think i'll be quitting blogging soon. cuz its like no one ever comes here to read or post a comment. maybe i'll blog for... err.. once a month if i have the mood? oh wells. this is my post for the week then =\

im terribly sick. just now went out to have dinner kept closing my eyes =fever headache sore throat flu!
flu's ok but i cant stand the rest.




im not supposed to feel like that but i do.

im REALLY PISSED now. pis me off and i'll bite ur head off =) i need at least a few hours to calm down!
you dont wan me to go ur hse den say lar. u always make me wait for nothing den go off on ur own. obviously ppl wait cuz they have a reason right? even i'm starting to get a little pissed by it already.
lessons were as usually boring today, except for history! im starting to love that subject. though i cant be bothered to memorize everything. i love mr maran! his lessons are very interesting! hahas. i ddint noe so much about ww1.. or was it ww2? errr.. oh well =
my frens say that she loves him but he doesnt. she wants to prove them wrong but she's got no evedince if he carries on like that. i guess the happy moments have already faded away in his mind.......

i didnt go bible class! glynis gonna rape me tmr =DDDDDDD dont really feel like going plus my hp confiscated so how am i gonna contact you?? hey i cant rmb ur number you noe. i've got horridly bad memory =)

we're drifting further apart,
it just hurts my heart.
i couldnt do anything,
i could only stand there and watch.
im suffering,
so are my grades.
where are you.
i've missed the old you so much.
maybe i should just stand aside,
or i should tell you whats wrong.
you'll nvr understand,
how sad i am.
fake smiles during the day,
tears for you at night.
u nvr knew.
and you'll nvr noe
how much i love you.

when i try to be nice,
all i get is SHUTUP.
i have lost interest in living,
there's no point carrying on anymore.
i try to be nice to my frens,
but they hate me more.
the day on sch misson,
they asked wht u wanted to give up.
the first thing that came into my mind,
this sucky life of mine which i cant get anything right.
i havent felt so depressed since lst yr.
it's a horrendous feeling,
watching everyone smiling with frens
just pain me more.
i had enough, enough of everything.
dont force urself to say
you like me if you dont.
i despise hypocrites.

im sure i was nvr a psrt of you.
yes, i accused you, but you denied.
im sure it happened anyways.
im sorry if i was mistaken then.
no matter or the good or bad.
the word DEATH.
it really scares me to death.
im afraid of it, im afraid of pain,
but i'd rather not face reality.
the future.
couples zivorcing each other.
after they marry each other,
things start to go wrong.
its hard to find someone so loyal, so faithful.
if u manage to find someone like that,
its one in a million.
i THINK my dad's cheating on me mom.
no, he doesnt have a mistress.
if he does, i'll hate him forever.
its something else.
i'd rather shut up about it than
have a brokened family.
my bro's followed his footsteps.
they think i dont noe,
but i do.
its hard to find someone who
doesnt watch all these obsence videos.
i noe he doesnt watch it,
i trust him.
but there's no guarantee that
he wouldnt start craving for more
after marrying.
you'll nvr noe.

came hm with a splitting headache. still abit mad him though,
but i still love him so =)

im living in doubt every moment of my life.
she said i forced glynis to go hm with me last yr.
tats nt true.
glynis cld go hm tt way too.
pls dont talk rubbish if u're nt sure wat's it about.





maybe i'd rather be happy than to be in a relationship.

i just discovered something which i shouldnt noe..

it hurts to find out that someone you love is doing something behind ur back..

i <3>
got back chi spelling today. super disappointed.

im only posting cuz of POPULAR demand =DDDDDDD oh well. glynis did you like ur present? its soooooooooooo prettaye. oh well i just liked the present that i gave to yihan it was SOO cute =) ahahas. well i just read glynis's blog and i totally agree with her. hahas. ytd during pe we were busy gossiping about her. i forgot to bring hr present today again. compared to her stupid chocolates my present is still more ex then hers =) serve her right then.

didnt go to sch today. now i noe who are those real frens and fake frens.

this world's full of rubbish, i wish i was gone.

i HATE those kinda ppl sucking up to someone. dying to join them. she doesnt even fit in lars. i really have no idea whats happening to the class. chaos everywhere. sigh.

i hate today. after sch i went to pri sch. shit totally regretted. shld have went with darren. but i saw him anyways. after 1 yr.. sigh den after tt go to shannon's hse. boooring den te guys asked me to go to quincy's hse. i didnt want to but they said if i nvr go means that i like darryl! which is totally NOT true. so i went anyways. but i decided to back out during the last min. yaya whatever they say i dont care. i went to compass to take 156 to go home. but i oversat cuz i was slping! stupid. den i didnt noe that shitty place den i just sat at the bus stop and did nothing. den suddenly 136 came! so i went to the other side to sit 136.. well i boarded the wrong bus! i boarded 135 instead.. i was half asleep! grr.. den it turned into bradell rd. thats when i sensed smth was wrong.. i only found out when i alighted the bus! good thing it was near serangoon mrt so i decided to walk there. den brendon asked me to meet him so i went to kovan. den i bought my stuffs and went home. dead tired. den i somehow made brendon mood spoil! i dunno whats wrong with me. maybe next time i shld just keep my big mouth shut. ytd was keane. today was my cousin. sigh i dunno what to do i just wanna break dwn. that stupid idiot doesnt even care. sigh i guess i wouldnt be talking that much frm now on.......

okok i hate today! but i shall start from the beginning. ahhh ESTHER i cant stand her fcked up attitude man. stop being SO proud of urself. and kristle fold her skirt until damn obvious.. the 3 boxes are in such a mess. mr ang lessons are STUPID. he scolded keane for nothing.. well i kinda guess its my fault and im guilty about it. anyways keane if you're reading this we're changing place soon after cny. you'll be with meryl which im sure she's much better den me! oh well gd luck to you then. and i cant believe it! my future is is like farfar away from tzejie. i almost cried when wynne told me that. mean sitting with cheehock and daniel is a BADBAD thing. den she changed them to kenny and chee sheng. not a bad thing. not as bad as the previous one though. lols. oh well. den after sch i stayed for the cca thingy. den after that went to class for the deco thingy. den we practically turned te whole class upside down. chee sheng was going mad - he kicked the tables and chairs then we finally found it *not the actual story i just dont wanna mention the facts*

i wnt to marie's hse after sch today. teach her the tonghua.. listen her play can headache... but she already can play 2 pages! see lah my patience so GOOD. im a GOOD teacher too. nono make that EXCELLENT! ahas.

CAMP!

the first day kinda sucked, sitting under the sun for hours. lunch was great though. curry chicken! havent eaten it for some time xD

the second day rocked totally. for breakfast we had nasi lemak. well i kinda hate the rice but the coconut taste wasnt so strong so i was pretty fine with it. it after that we went to have station game then the nature walk. it was HORRID. i kept complaining inside i swear i wouldnt ever ever ever come to this stuping hiking thing again. i already had tears in my eyes when a stranger walked past and said be strong and be brave. we were wearing our camp tees and the words were written there. well den i didnt give up. it was our theme for camp anyways. i just went on and on until nobody can tahan. so we went back for dinner.*YES WE HIKED FOR 4 HRS!* i hate the frink. i always always hate it. grape drink with extra water so it taste extremply yucky and plain. den we went to plan for our campfire item. den we sit there stare at each other for 50mins. den the last 10 mins finally come up with something. everyone was relieved but nervous obviously, cuz it was only planned out within 10mins. we decided to sing 'let the music hear ur soul'. the lyrics were nice so is the song. the campfire started outdoors but den it started raining so we had to move into the canteen. 2dil was first. i think we were the 4th or 5th. everyone was nuts about nigel leading us. and eileen too. its the best if you get a handsome guy to lead ya noe ^^ he still looks like a duck to me no offence. well after our performance we said a cheer and xiuyuan did his wushu. we went back to our sitting place and waiting for the scores to be up. guess what? FULL MARKS. we went nuts!!! i guess after tt we went as SIAO as diligence.. dancing on the chairs, dancing on the table! i love this camp. it helped to bond our frenship too. we are all frens now =) must thank this camp, if not we wld still be fighting i guess. well today was the prize presentation. nigel got the best male camper and our class was the best class. as usual we went nuts. on the bus back to sch we didnt stop cheering although about half the class lost their voice. we just kept cheering and cheering. teeyong asked us to keep quiet but we didnt listen. hahas. well. i just love this camp. i love everyone too =) i dont want this class to fall apart for the streaming. this wld probably be our last yr together. gd job ppl!

whats WRONG with the class. fancy arguing about who copied this who copied that. cant you jsut grow up? YES i noe you started calling tzejie a bitch first. but we started calling OTHER PPL a bitch. so pls stop saying that we copy you. we target EVERYONE not only tzejie. i don care whether you call him a bitch or a white bitch or whatever shit. if you think this is rubbish so be it.

i just accidentally cut my mouth. shit got blood all over. sigh i don understand why ppl like to argue over small things. who craete this who craete that la i don fren you you don fren me. which is totally RIDICULOUS. no, i dont mean elisa and wj. you shld noe who you are. only come to us when you need help. or when u alone. you're such a freaking bitch. I HATE YOU. filthy hypocrite.

the fairytale which started on the 30thnov ends now.

I LOVE THE BITCH TREND. it was started by me! although the grp is made up by glynis, tze jie and me. everyone copied our trend and started calling everyone a bitch. HAHA

ytd was cca orientation.. band performance really rocked! expect when tee yong dropped the stick.. i was really shocked cuz he nvr did drop it b4! oh well. it was a pretty fine day. thanks to DONKEY LIM HAOYEE*******! heh



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i hate today. but i loved the beginning. well me tj and rockie started the new bitch trend *haha* well i was the one who started calling everyone a bitch! well its for a joke only, not seriously. heh so i kept scolding kenny a bitch. it was hilarious. den came to pw. i noe tt they didnt want us. which actually spoiled my mood for the whole day.should have went with tj when he asked. sigh too late to regret now.


i just wanna breakdown;
life's too hard for me
i cant stand emotional pains
its a torture.
i cant handle this confusion
no one bothers.

WORK TODAY! i got 56bucks which is VERY little.. worked for 10 hrs today lol.sigh after work i went to eat with some ppl. i forgot their names ... cant rmb lah.. oh well it was okay today!

i wanna murder wynne! she wrote zheyue's name all over my window =( phoooo after sch went to work. quite simple lah though sit until my back very pain. i was working with wynneeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee and yvonne! we make a great team. hohohohohoho we did approx 700 cards. which is alot liao! today work 4hrs only den my back cannot tahan. tmr is work 12 hrs. i think i die le. aiyaa but im despo for money! heh heh. i wanna go to bsb concert!! i still rmb last fri damn funny. tze jie was turning around and talking to me den mr soh as was standing behind him den he suddenly tap tz den he scream like girl O_o den we kept laughing cuz mr soh's a pervert in our class haha. oh well im gonna watch project runway now! i really hate wendy pepper! pff.

FIRST DAY OF SCH. eugene went to hum. sad eh. den another eugene yip came in. small nerdy tooty looking. xDD well tze jie was nice to him! he sound like an english expert though. tj's got some competition for oral now. AHAHAH.

CHRISTMAS!!! YAY. CANT WAIT FOR PRESENTS! xDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD

COULD HAVE BEEN GAMING RAKION SINCE 3. COULDNt GET IN. GRRR IM SOSO PISSED OFF TODAY.

went to tampines mall today. brought my granma to toilet which really pissed me off. she ENJOYS taking her teeth out to wash. esp in the public. grrrr.

i'll be going to malaysia =) wont be coming back till next sunday or monday. tah.

went to lan with my bro today. after tt den went to st micheal's church. grandfather's anniversary. i think. during mass i had a very bad headache. i couldnt keep my eyes open! hehs. after tt went to have dinner. the whole family of cuz. plus cousins. den lyn was extremly angry. cuz the person who poured her tea spill until her table. see her angry i also scared sia. hahas.

i wnt to no.1 costume costume today. there were loads of ppl!! omg. just read cher's blog. she says shes coming back on the 12th!! what about the party?? ooohnnoooo i have to pay extra for cancelling the rental! omg. my parents gonna kill me! i gonna die... oh shit.. how to contact her.!!??